From the Celinique banting, i know that there will be workshop and roadshow for this cosmetic brand this week. I asked him whether he can accompany me. He replied, 'No.....is girls' stuff'. Then i saw so many couple there to test the cosmetic, i was getting more aggitated, is that so embarencing for him? However, we still went there together with LH.
Me: LH, i heard got workshop for this event, don't know what is it all about.
LH: when is it?
Me: Today and tomorrow lo. Wanna go?
HIM: Eh, LH, you better acc her go, i won't go with her anyway!
Today, after dinner with him, so happenly feel like movie mood turn on green light. Out of no way, i called LH(as we mentioned earlier to watch movie of possible) and 3 of us went for the movie. We were supposed to watch 'Look for A Star'. By the time we reach MBO, it is almost 9pm, so instead of choose 'Look For A Star' at 10.30pm, we choose 'Valkyrie' at 9.30pm. In facts, i didn't put much hope in this movie as from what i was told it is actually a history of Germany. Wonder why, i was attracted with the storyline, i began more interested and eager to know what's happening after that. It is just like i am one of the role in that movie, this movie which i can say is 1 of the minority movie which attract me and convince me to write it down here after 'Enchanted' .
Of course i know i need rest at such hour. Whenever the event getting closer, brain remain max capacity, become emo with no reason.......i will insomnia. Why is it happen to me all this while? I have tried to be optimistic, i did , just that the luck is not with me yet. Why am i still bothering over something which i thought i have 'forgive' and 'forget' long time ago?
When the writing doesn't compatible with what is in my mind or when my mind kejap went blank kejap packed, i know it is time for me to rest. However, can i really rest instead of on and off the light/on off the laptop for dunno how many times in 15 min?
I was having a chat with his mum during the clear-up after dinner. She understand how i feel towards the unfairness attitude from my father's side parent. When i mentioned this issue, i always get agitated. I wonder why am i behave like zero-EQ? Whenever i was agitated upon that issue, i realized i will burst out tears. This what make me feel more speechless, why should i depressing over THEIR problem?! That is THEIR misbehave, why should i bother so much!
It is none of my business!
It doesn't mean good times won't turn to me!
It doesn't' mean that i can't change the current situation with my effort now
My pleasant days haven't come. When will it be? Should i just wait here?
No, i don't think so. I have to strike for it. I wasn't haven enough luck for my life. So, i have no choice but just strike for it.
My day hasn't come doesn't mean that my day has ended!!!
After IVAQ 2009 meeting, i remember that KP mentioned he is be somewhere in mmu waiting for me, in facts i dunno why he said this as he never waited for my meeting before. Then i received his msg, asking whether my meeting is ended and so on. So, i take it as he is waiting for me somewhere in mmu.
Then i call him and inform him that my meeting is ended. When we meet.....
KP: wanna go out for supper?
Me: ah? supper? i thought we just makan? at around 730pm.
KP: then u wanna go bac ixora and rest right?
Me: i think so (thinking maybe he ask me again, most probably i will accompany him)
KP: oh, i knew u will said u are tired after meeting, so i have ajak Alvin for supper. I will go meet
him after fetching u bac ixora.
Me: ...... (so he has his plan d....)
KP: (notice im speechless) i can still accompany you also.
Me: no need. since u ajak d, just go ahead (thinking i acc him, mana tau terbalik pulak he said he can acc me?!)
p/s: I might as well go bac on my own la, why i need u to fetch me back?)
if he is my friend, he wont come purposely and fetch me back; so he only do that when he is
my bf right? (the difference between i walk back alone or go bac in people's car, no mater
how, the destination still at ixora)
Today i got a good news from my friend, LH. She told me that one of the sponsor expressed that they feel amazing with the action that we are able to contact and welcome varsities with accounting subject from the Semenanjung Malaysia to come all the way to Melaka here to take part in Inter-Varsity Accounting Quiz 2009.
In facts, when i get this comment, i asked myself, did i ever think of this action of getting approval of the varsities to join IVAQ considered as amazing? My answer is 'NO'. However, I feel impressed when i heard this comment. Then i rethink, i found out that actually the sponsor had his point in this statement also. Why should they join our event? Do they possess any obligation to come all the way down here for competition? The only anser i have in my mind now is ' They are pursuing the knowledge and exposuring themselves to all other varsities'.
Ya, this is my answer in my mind when i asked the question myself. I admit that some varsities are not actually very 'famous' or known by everyone. This what i found when i first look at the list of varsities which offer Degree in Accounting. At first i thought that is my problem. However, after that i found out that some of them have same problem like me also. So, i feel great to play a role to introduce new varsities with Accounting course in this event.
Everyone sure familiar with UM, UPM, USM, UKM and so on. However, anyone know what is UDM? Hah, i got u!!! Actually UDM is Universiti Darul Iman Malaysia, some other examples like
UPSI (Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris)
Unisel (Universiti Industri Selangor)
MSU (Management & ScienceUniversity)
So, i found my satisfactory from this post. I did learn alot of experience, sponteneous when contacting the person in charge, learn on how to conduct a meeting, learn on how to lead the whole division to be a part of the event and so on.
A few minutes ago, only that i realized today is also Chinese Valentine's Day. Ha.....in facts, i do not care also even though I'm available as we are not going to celebrate it also. For those lovers who just started their relationship, i believed they will planned this day well and celebrate this day no matter how.
As usual, no plan but promised to have dinner with his family. After that, i was lead to Jonker Walk by his mum. Surprisingly, Monday also got Jonker street. We managed to squeeze in a place to enjoy the dancing lion show. In facts, until now, i still in bad mood. However, when the amount of dancing lion show increases and the whole stage was full of dancing lion, my heart feel touching, the sound of the drum like chasing my bad luck away.
After that, my mind ease a lot. I called to my parent to wish them that usually i won't, i found out that i call them more often when i'm outside especially when im in bad mood.
