CPA Australia Result Out!!!

CPA Australia again.

Last Friday (10 December 2010) was a important date for CPA to release the result. Before this date, we, candidate will receive an official letter from CPA Australia with the content of username and id to be key in to reveal our own result. The result release time stated in the letter is 1800 AEDST (is also called Australian Eastern Daylight Saving Time), in other word, it is 1500 Malaysia time.

I told myself to accept whatever result it is as that is my 'fruit' of the whole month of struggling with newly adapting to the exam format, professional level, fear of facing failing and so on. Luckily there is Esther in the office, waiting for the time. ...tick tok tick tok... (every movement of mine seem following the seconds of the clock) Finally Esther got her result, im holding my letter with password and ID yet i have no courage to key in. After struggling for half an hour, i decided to face the reality. I feel ease at the moment i the result appears......i PASS my first CPA Australia paper, meaning to say i can proceed on to my 2nd paper, 3rd paper till i finish all my paper d. Hurray !!! Yes, indeed, this achievement of mine will pump in more confidence in myself for no regretting on whatever decision i have made so far.

Come to think of it, i was just passing through 5 months plus with adapting new working environment, peak period, choosing which professional paper, then starting preparing my paper, attending exam, preparation of firm's annual dinner, rehearsal dancing, till CPA result release. Wow, i can't imagine, i have come this far without my awarenes.. SO am i considered grown up? Hehe, i can't judge myself by now, but i'm sure time will judge and correct me to the path i should at.

Time for sentenced approching~

Counting down around 17 hours and 36 minutes.....

This is really a hard time to face the reality and truth. This is so torturing. I couldn't really sleep well or normalised my daily life.

I hope and pray for acceptable result.

Please pray hard for me too if u wish to. To be frank i need it ~ Thanks a lot : )

好有感触的星期日

星期日晚上都是我特别有感触的日子，应该一个星期的结束吧！

星期天也是我想家的日子。这四年多以来，曾有多少个星期天我都是带着‘不甘愿’的想法离开家。可是就是这种想念让我与家人的更珍惜见面的日子。我想保有这份‘珍惜’，就是这份珍惜让我谅解且对家人更有耐心，让我明白那种奇妙的关系。可能人往往就是需要一些遗憾，才能体会。所以，我把这份坚持离开家的决心，来避免我不珍惜，不耐心对待他们。因为面对久了，就不会去付出了。那份付出会慢慢变成习惯。

今天，我撒了一个谎。爸爸妈妈问我‘你在哪？’。我说‘在jusco走走咯’ 爸妈又问‘跟谁啊’。我愣了下，说“男朋友咯”。其实我是一个人漫无目的的在摇晃。我要怎么说呢？若我说一个人，他们又担心，一个人会危险，还是我们俩有什么事情吗？他们为我的事情已经担心大半辈子了。我不可以再让他们担心。我不是要隐瞒我的事情，只是很时候我都不想他们胡思乱想。

今天，跟KC和下午茶，KC提起了她，又正好看见雪花花样的杯子，记得她有阵子很喜欢雪花。不知道现在还是吗？因为想起，所以我尝试简讯她，可惜没有什么回应。不知道她现在怎样了。希望一切安康。

这几个月，那种看不开的心情，真是害得我的人生有了很多的改变。我的执著， 我的看不开，我的迟疑，让我失去了很多， 包括好友还有感情。好友，没联系了；感情，有见没见，没关系了， 忽冷忽热的感情，我没有信心维持， 只能听天由命。结果，自信心也没有了。开始，把寄托放在工作和家人那。可是，值得庆幸的是，我还有寄托可言，不然失去目标， 寄托的生活，我真的不知如何走下去。（算有些开朗吧！）

马六甲-粥之家

今天拿了mc在家休息。喉咙，口腔都被细菌感染。不能吃太硬的食物。结果午餐选吃吃潮州粥，像是家乡普通佳肴，但是对于我们这种成天在外，这种食物真是让人回味。

晚上，头脑又是粥了，因为除了粥和豆腐我不懂还有什么可以这么软了。我相信只吃豆腐一定不会饱了。所以又是粥。这回我想到-粥之家，这间店在Melaka Raya, 在好世界酒楼隔一间店。这间听闻很不错的店，一直没有机会尝试是因为，每次经过都客满。终于今天六点半到达，门栏还是关着的。以为今天休息，怎知旁边一位妇女问从店里走出来的人，几点点开张，才知道今天不是休息而是还没开门。乍问之下，才知道，他们是六点营业至半夜两点， 星期天休息。可是刚才他们是将近七点才开门做生意的。

我们点了鸡丝皮蛋粥， 炒饭还有马麦鸡。可是分量真是适合三个人享用。我们俩只好硬着头皮之下去。鸡丝皮蛋粥方面，还算味道鲜美，可是我不太喜欢鸡丝的韧度，喉咙的伤让我无法享受美食。至于炒饭与马麦鸡，虽然我只吃一口，可是，味道真是恰到好处。我希望可以再来尝试别的菜肴。

Treble Clef

This is the scene when i was moody and emotional unstable. This shot taken while Im having my dinner at Jin Xing Vegetarian shop.

影像麻坡- 传，奇，真，善，美 2010

'宴会堂’

‘红地毯’

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虽然麻坡被烟雾弥漫，可也没有阻止我来参加麻坡摄影商会的41周年纪念晚宴， 我好幸运能参与这盛事。可能对别人来说，这没什么特别，可我父亲还有他的兄弟们都是摄影世家， 一代传一代。且外我跟这盛事真的很有缘。去年，我在大学刚好考完试，能参与； 今年，刚好我在放假，能参加。还记得去年，我被一位organ高手‘迷上’， 我把他在演绎时的片断录下来（哈哈，是迷上，因为至少那整个月我都在听他的弹奏， 不管开心还是难过，当时我的室友-YQ还以为我发花痴，哈哈）

这盛会聚满了部分年龄的摄影高手，现场也展现他们的作品。坦白说，看了他们的作品，我才发现，麻坡真的这么美，还是美食天堂，等等。。。可我都不懂， 真是多亏了我还是道地的麻坡人。

这次的盛会名为‘影像麻坡’， 主题为传，奇，真，善，美，主要是想发扬摄影。主要嘉宾有李俊滽大律师，摄影商会会长陈宽，麻坡中华总商会会长拿督谢华隆，行动党代表魏宗贤等人齐来造势。在这盛事之前，摄影发烧友们都组团到麻坡各个地点， 游山玩水的去取景， 边吃边玩。 可谓人生一大美差事，煞羡旁人。摄影题目分别为 ：文化，风景，美食 等等 分别有五个组别。得奖者皆可获得现金以及奖状一张作为赏鉴。上台领奖者不分男女老少，有姜还是老的辣，可也有不少青更胜于蓝， 长江后浪推前浪的后辈得奖， 可谓人才辈出。看来艺术上的明鉴不管老少，都有独特且值得坚持的眼光。

这次的晚宴，无非只是颁发奖品，表扬精于摄影爱好者， 大会也带来了麻坡地道的美食让来宾大饱口福。当晚第一道佳肴便是冷盘 - 具备乌达，沙爹，马来米粽，烧腊，此外亚叁鱼，白斩鸡也是当晚美食之一， 为各位嘉宾带来了一连串的风味美食惊喜。

得奖的作品，不得不让人惊叹，摄影的奥妙。它们把现实一页页，时间每一瞬间，都化为永远。它能把最美的角度与风景，最真实的生态，最写实的生活融入，景收眼帘， 让人叹为观止， 赞叹不已。且外，摄影也把此刻化为永恒， 化为永远的记忆， 让人们有幸把这些美丽回忆收藏。大会也收集得奖作品， 作为《印象麻坡》内容书刊之一。

参赛者不少于专业人士，退休人士，大学生等等。。。看来不管各行各业人士，不管年龄，不管阶级，不管贫穷富贵，都能平等的追求自己的梦想。对，现实是很残酷的。那，你怎能还能蹉跎自己的梦想，让现实拖延你呢？接受现实，跑向理想，是世人都希望的两全其美。只是梦想的追求不是马上就能实现的。可是，它是能被筹备的。当现实牵紧着你，别灰心，因为筹备梦想的过程也是一种享受。愿大家都能梦想成真。

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Woo Pin Fish Paste Soup

' Fish Paste Yee Mee soup with susu pekat'

Another achievement of this CPA Woskshop journey is i got myself reach the destination of Woo Pin for fish paste yee mee soup.

After having my breakfast with LY, BH and my sis, we departed out for exploration from centrepoint BU. At first we are approaching to Old Klang road by using Sprint highway, who know we failed to find the fish paste soup shop.

Then we decided to reset GPS to Jalan Ikan Emas. The GPS is advanced enough, lead us to go upside down, and 2 or 3 turn in 5 seconds, make me dizzy. I told my sis, since she got to reach her uni by 11.30am, if we failed to find it, we shall u-turn back to her uni. Suddenly we saw the shop at our left hand side when we turn into Jalan Ikan Emas. The shop is right downstairs of flat house. The board with shop name 'Woo Pin' is quite obvious enough as it displayed beside the main road.

'The board with shop name right beside of the road'

'The appearance of the shop'

' The fruits of our struggling and effort'

Omg, this is really very yummy for me. This is so worthy for me to explore during my first driving experience in Kuala Lumpur. It has maximize my mariginal satisfaction on food. Do try out ya. (Oopss, it seem like i am adverstise for the shop for free, never mind, is good to share good things with everyone. Hope you guys like it)

'Does it looked yummy'

' The price'

'The WAR area'

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As sis and i just filled up our tummy with burgers, plus we had enough struggling to find the way here. Ths satisfaction is filled up to our heart and brain. This is the fruits of our effort and struggling. I think we nearly hug and cry together when we get there.

Besides, i try to tapao, telling the person in charge i will be bring that to Melaka. This is what they packed for me. Haha...

'I left out the soup as i am boiling it at that time'

The address is 4E Pangsapuri Sri Pulau Pinang, Jalan Ikan EMas, Cheras, Kuala Lumpur with handphone number : 016-2410544. The shop of this main branch is closed on Thursday.

Memorial Day

Memorial day of my late-paternal-grandfather is today.

Time flee, it has been already 4 years (if no mistaken) he left us.

Grandpa, i drove to USj last week, i passed by Nilai. Thinking of you have been 'stayed' there for few years d. Suddenly i miss you. I have so much little of memory between you and me in my memory disk. Maybe you were too busy to play with me when i was small. There is only one present left by you to me as encouragement gift - mountain bike for my UPSR flying colour.

May you rest in peace.

2 days CPA Workshop

Today is my 2nd day of CPA workshop. To be frank, i'm quite satisfied with my performance yesterday. At least i can feel like the class for Module 1,2,3 is revision for me. I do have confidence to carry forward this self confidence to my 2nd day workshop.

However, this confidence faded when i know i just 'losing' my best friend. I do admit that is my fault. Some incident happened, until i dunno how to handle it. Then my 'lagging' attitude suggest to put this aside and focus my approaching exam. But it seem like i fail to 'buy' time for this friendship. Ya, she mentioned...8 years...8 years d but we seem fail to keep it. In fact i blame myself for not settle this problem immediately. Thought time will heal it yet i fail to 'buy' it. What can i do? Can someone please tell me? Im so helpless.

I thought i have brought forward my confidence to my 2nd day workshop, sleepless night destroy my will. I failed to concentrate my focus on today's teaching. My day being haunted by 'storm cloud'. I know the lecturer is good in the sense that, he is indeed successfully convey his understanding to us. I can understand better with his explanation and given examples. Thought i do more exercise on Module 4 and 5, who knows my understanding for Module 4 and 5 doesn't deep enough to even answer multiple questions. I made a lot of mistakes.

Another good point for this lecturer is, he let us off by 4.15pm. Hurray, although it was just 45 minutes earlier, yet i can really feel like last time when im in uni life. Then i returned back to my aunt's house and start packing. Before i leave aunt's house, i so wish to hug my aunt. I wonder what happen also. In facts, this aunt wasn't very close to me but she is nice to me all these while. I feel gratitute to her kindness, although it was just providing me shelter for few night. But it was a nice and relax workshop+holiday. At last, i did not give her a hug before i leave. She stood at the door and see me leaving. This action make me feel warm and touching.

Achievement for the year!!

Guess where am i now?

I'm now reaching my aunt' s house at USJ. This is my first time driving alone to the house from Mlc. Ok, i understand a lot of you guys out there already experienced before this. Normally i will only come with him la, or with my family. So what i did was just sleeping for the whole journey without worrying anything.

This time, i have 2 days CPA workshop at Metropolitan College Subang Jaya, in order to familiar with the route and get myself mentally prepared. I choose to arrive USJ one day earlier.

My first mission for this trip is reaching my aunt house safely on time. Yeah ! i just done it. Ok next mission will be depart from aunt house to Metropolitan College safely and reach on time. To ensure my journey is smoothly enough, i memorised google map as well as using GPS on time.

Third mission is knowing route to Sunway Pyramid and forth, filled up my craving on fish paste soup. I found one near Jalan Cheras. However, based on information online, the name of shop is the same yet the address looked so different. I think this mission gonna failed very soon, unless i got one 'GPS' who really went there before.

别人有911，而我有611

自从611发生之后，我们就不再庆祝我们每一个月的11。

不知道是我的执著还是童话回忆的坚持，我自己也开始回避11。我们的感情是在1211萌芽，因此就有了，每一个月一同回味11的美丽回忆。刚开始，每一个月的11我们都会穿上情侣装，之后演变成，我们出门吃一餐好的来庆祝。要是我们各在身在异方，我们还会通电，互说祝福的话。这样的日子，维持了三年多。

自从611，我们没了庆祝11的执著。我们不再庆祝了。因为那不再只是我们幸福开始的回忆，还有紧紧跟着我阴影的追随。我很想摆脱那阴影的追逐，可是，四个月了，我没有一天有曾忘记过， 痛了的心，痛了又痛，伤了又伤，剩下的只是伤口还有疤痕。破碎的心，就像是打破的镜子， 就算排在一起，还是会有裂缝； 就算你硬把他们拼在一起，看到的也只是破碎的我们。

有话说，Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding. 我们的事情跟误会么有关系，只是我需要时间接受唤醒我的阴影的你。这样多人之中， 你是其中一个最明白， 最懂我的人。你知道我讨厌什么，忌讳什么吧？可是为什么你还是要这样对我？！

我知道我不会康复了。我只能祈祷疤痕能早点变淡。至于你们，你们只是我这段阴影回忆的呼唤者。谭若你知道你是其中之一，请你暂时远离我的视线。我不想在我能够完全控制且掩饰我的情绪之前，对你不客气。

Study leave started !!!

My study leave starts and will last for 18 days, more exactly is 17 days as one of them is exam day.

Somehow, i was so demotivated. I gonna forced myself with some achievable target as well as rewards. Haha : )

Then i think it can work well gua. I hope so.

Wish me luck, guys : )

Mumbling

I rent a ROOM with a family which comprises of aunty and her son. during my working life at Malacca. Ok, i'm kind of contented because the house can keep clean as aunty will clean the house almost everyday ( i don't know as im not staying the house for 24 hours u see!)

Scenario 1:

Everytime i come back from Muar, sure i will bring along big bags , luggage. I myself also wonder what's happening. Am i moving house again? Ok of course not. I like my bag with full capacity = security. (maybe i lack of it)

When aunty saw me in big bags, she offered her help normally and NORMALLY i will replied 'never mind'

• A: wah, so many bags ah?
• P: Ya. (Crazy, far sighted meh? can't see ah? i just standing arbout 3 meter from her ok)
• A: Do u need my help?
• P: No thanks. ( I will be reaching my room by NOW if u didn't stop me)
• A: Tell u what, i went pasar malam just now.
• P: ah? pasar malam ? (but who cares)
• (whenever i try to stop her, she continue continue continue...what sold at pasar malam la, what she brought from pasar malam la)
• (Who care. Please, im with big bags u see, i know she notice it cause she did offer help, u see. Now she telling me something irrelevant and not-informative at all.)

When she was about to start another topic what she has done during the weekends....i stop her.

• P: Sorry for interrupting, aunty. I need to carry my big bags to my room.
• A: oh ok. ..

• P : @Speechless@

Scenario 2:

When i come back from working, i was exhausted, so i take rest at sofa, just sitting down there only. Aunty come over and ask concernly ' how r u?' Of course again, i will answered ' im ok, don't worry' (of course i got to reply this way right?)

Then she sit down, on the TV and tell me the story on what showed in the TV, commented how people act. the animation is very fantastic but i saw a rope hanging around when the female and male leads 'flying'? OMG, my headache getting more worsen when she start telling me story and tell me the animation that fantastic? ! ( Fantastic because of rope obviously seen when they 'flying') I stand up and replied, aunty, u r wrong, the animation is worst not fantastic at all. U should watch more fantastic programme (没有知识也要常看电视）

《忘记总比记得好》

我永远都相信，一个朋友对你的认识，都会反映在他送你的礼物。

有有，谢谢你。记得，六年前，我在人生中第一次面对爱情的残酷，你没有像其他人一样找我喝茶安慰我，你说你不会，你没有经验，所以送我一本，何权峰的《忘了总比记得好》

这本书，时时刻刻都在提点我。当我面对瓶颈，不能向前，也不能回头的时候，我都会翻阅这本书。

现在，我又一次面临这样的问题。有有，谢谢你，虽然你远在日本，可是你的安慰一直在我身边。

国庆宝宝，生日快乐！

国庆宝宝，生日快乐！

我需要时间

对不起，我需要时间。我不需要帮忙，我只需要静一静。我想去一个能让我好好想清楚的地方。

Working Life # 2

Friends who know me well, knowing that i planned well everything in my life...ok, almost everything as i wished. I know i can't and unable to control people's schedule, life but i can plan mine. So unless there is unexpected issues pop out, if not, i will try to be the last minute person.

I know some of my files will due next Friday, I ensure they are in progress with just clearing some point and preparation letter to client. This morning, i was called by SM to the office and asked me:

• SM: So how, Paige. Can u cope with the files?
• P : ...(obviously yes but why she asked? 'cope with the files'? ' my files? or other's files?) Yes, i can cope well with MY FILES SO FAR.
• SM: Good, i have 2 files here for u.
• P : (knowing wasn't good when she ask me to her office and talked in nice tune) What file? When is the deadline?
• SM: Next week. And for your information, we need at least 2 days courier to reach client's place.
• P : What? 2 days, send and received means 4 days for courier?
• SM: U can said so.
• P : I left only 7 days including weekends, minus out 4 days courier, one day review, meaning to say i left only 2 days to analyze tax computation, gather information with 2 NEW FILE?
• SM: Yes, u can said so. It is super urgent.
• P : ....i don't think i can make it. I didn' even glance through the files yet and i have pending files on hand.
• SM: Don't worry, they are only little information needed. You can learn much , and u can asked guidance or assistance.
• P : (How? Everyone was so busy, that's why i have these files, isn't it? Then who can still guide me at this super-duper peak hour?).....since there is no possible to turn down this 2 files, i will try my best but not guarantee.
• SM: Ok sure. Anything u can just come to me.
• P : (of course u said so la.....u need help ma......) ok thanks.

When i about to leave her office.....

• SM: Anyway, are u coming in this weekends?
• P : .........(about to tell but she stop me.)
• SM: Actually the files were very urgent lo.
• P : (obviously she is waiting for her desire reply)...ya, but i think i wil only come in the morning on Saturday. As for Sunday, if u guys come in, i will scheduled my time also.

Then, i realised time not flies, time ZOOM. I just clearing some points of my own previous file, my watch showed 2pm. Then when i passed my files for review. I started the new company. The centralised air con off make me realised it is already 5.30pm and i just move on to second section.

Knowing that i have no time for dinner at all, i went to the pantry and grab some bites and continues my workload. SM came to me at around 9.30pm, asked ' how is it? What are u busying now?' . (foolish question, does she diagnose STML?). When i turnaround and looked at her, she is actually done packing her bag, about to leave. I just looked at her, (SM, how is my file ah? Got problem ah?) she answered, no la, i will bring back and review. Then she left the office......

What a world.!!! Never mind, i can learn more, And i can apply for more hours for studies later. Gannbatte ne!!!

Working Life # 1

Hey, Im back again after leaving this blog out-dated for days. Today i worked till 11pm as usual. Another deadline approaching, and it is tomorrow - 6 August 2010. Last week 30 July 2010 is deadline on e-filing submission. And we need to fill in form C and form R manually. Yes, i can say it is quite tedious and the clients' signing pages always be a barriers for us to proceed.

Tomorrow is another deadline. I have 3 companies to be submit this deadline, 1 has been submitted today, another 2 are waiting for tomorrow submission. It was really quite a mess in tax department lately. Everyone was rushing up and down. Even admin people were trained to assist tax department to fill in the forms.

Next week will be the companies which successfully apply for extention. Yes, i have several companies under this advantage. (Actually i wonder is it an advantage for me, does it show my inability to finish them al on time or? Haha, this time i shall put some blame on client as i received information only 3 days before the July deadline and this lead to the extention application) And i feel thankful that i got extention on these files, if not, i wonder where am i now?!

During my experience, i dealt with various type of client. Some client just co-operate with us and provide detail information on time; some ...not. I complaint and one of the top management told me this:

• M: Call this client for more information, pushing them so that they give u on time.
• P: This client? Quite hard lo, she won't give on time one and scold people first once u ask
• her more information.
• M: Ya meh. Then u should act sympathy towards this type of client.
• P: Arhhh? How? When she start scolding, then suddenly i act like little sheep ah?
• M: Aiya, no la. Just act sympathy lo.
• P: Then how?
• M: Aiya, u have no experience to deal with this type of client la.
• P: .....(Of course la, i only here for less than 2 months)
• M: I think u haven't met someone more bad temper one lo.
• P: No lo. I met one client, i just told her where i come from. she start scolding nonstop d. And i need to leave my phone away from my ears for at least 5 minutes before i started my queries lo. I totally don't have the chance to talk, how to act sympathy?
• M: ah!! like that ah. Which client? Oh, that one is it. That client need compliment from people one.
• P: ...(did i just say she scold non-stop? So how to praise her?) praise? How? I get scolded for no reasons, i don't really know how to get myself to praise her. In my mind is 'scold' 'scold' 'scold'...ok, want compliment? i can only think of 'Wah, your voice sound so 'merdu' when u scold people lo'
• M: .....(speechless)

p/s: i know i shouldn't but trust me, this M really can make u jump over the high wall when u 'force' to communicate with her.

Random

我要什么时候，才能学会放下？

MMU Graduation 2010

'Beloved Grandma & Grandpa'

'Family Graduation Photo'

Time flies. Ya, i always do mention 'Time Flies'. Finally, the 'graduation' fever 'burning' my working day life....

I took 2 days off to attend MMY rehearsal (although ended up i din even manage to enter the hall). I wonder why is there so many procedures to be done on rehearsal day - robe collection, student card activation, invitation card collection as well as car sticker. So i would like to make explanation on why i failed to attend the rehearsal XD

After the rehearsal thingy, our 'long-time-no-see' coursemate suggested to have a short gathering. So we decided to have our lunch at old town. Thete were a lot of them who attend the gathering.....yet ended up the gathering ended up with few group talking with their own thingy. LH and i were in the middile of the gang, so we listen to both whichever is interesting XD It was Sebastion's birthday too, so part of the program of the gathering is also his birthday celebration XD

After that, Linhui and i decided to shop at Alamanda as we were told that is the shopping centre nearest to MMU Cyberjaya. I think we took at least one hour to reach the shopping centre, at first i thought the shopping centre is at Cyberjaya, who knows it's exact location is Putrajaya Presint. 16. Ok, i should inform in advance, our main purpose of going Alamanda is to get a nice place, sit down for chit chatting.

However, we keep discussing on blazer design, so we enter G2000 to crave for some affordable and fashionable blazer....Then we passed by Polo apartment, the discount tag really tagged and stick us there for 3 hours....although we have limited budget, yet we manage to get ourself 2 formal shirt each which cost us in total RM288.

Yesterday i manage to get my beloved family members to take some convocation portraits. I know my grandmother feel touching and unbelievable on time flies as she keep reminding me that what i have done when i am in 2 years old.. My grandfather dress up formally which he never do. My mother and grandmother gift me lily bouquet as my convocation flower. Thanks a lot. I love u all...!! : )

I know it will be tedious for them as they will need to wake up at 3am and departing at 4am to ensure we will reach Cyberjaya at 7am to attend MY convocation. And i know the convocation will be a long-winded and boring one. So i would like to express my gradtitution to them all, grandparents, parents, KP, & brother and also my sisters. (Last year i can't even imagine i can have complete family graduation photo, thanks !!!)

p/s: I cherish on what i got now.

'KP & i '

'My siblings'

Working Experience

During this 5 weeks working life, i experience a lot which really stunned me.

Some of them are :

1. When SM make mistake, they will never admit and will ask u back whose fault was that. They can actually put earlier date which showed they reviewed the file in 1 day instead of 5 days, then they will questioned u....why this file take 1 week to complete.

2. One of the colleague claimed to be my pal in the company. One day the pal came to me and complaint to me that one of the top management really behave biase towards us.

• I : Why?
• Pal: Because i just get scolded by top management due to some mistake done.
• I : .....??? U get scolded mean top management dislike 'us'??
• Pal : .......No la. (no explaination obtained, then she walked away)

I wonder how come i can be involved in the incident when i don't even know what happen, where and when is the incident take place.

Deadline extended mean peak hour been extended too

Today the whole tax department received a message that our appeal for deadline extention has been failed, they were making chaos over that issue. For me, i feel nothing, not because of i'm not in the shoes, or i did not handle bunches of cases like them. It was because i know people like will always ask for extention and when will the work start commencing? - - - the day before or approaching deadline, ended up, it is still the same result - - rushing, mumbling on not enough time and so on. On the other way round, the 'rushing' period has been extended no extra time.

So, to my dear colleagues, let's keep it up, let's OT together la.... I will cherish this period as this is the period for me to learn as much as i can.

方向不同，就各走各的！

一个女人想结婚时，表示她想安定下来了；而一个男人不想结婚时，不是不爱另一半， 还在找，就是还没有准备想安定下来。

要是两个人的方向都不一样，他们就不是走在同一条线上了。

学会放下，是我现在所追求的学问

出来社会了，什么事情都不是想象中简单了。。。。几乎，在职场上的人们都是带着面具的。很多事情都是，似懂非懂， 很多事情已经不是想象中简单。有些同事像是朋友，其实他们暗自地里是在大战的。想要在这种你争我抢的社会你，你只能适量且定时的显示你的 ‘愚蠢’ ， 才不会被别人当成是盾。

进入了这种社会，面对了这样背叛我的他，我学会装傻，我学会残忍，我学会保护自己，我更学会了教训。所以，什么事情，都别看外表，很多时候，事情并不是表面上看上去的简单；很多时候，残忍是存在的， 这要看你决定自己承受还是。。。。。

背叛和伤害都已经形成，若你会要求原谅，为何不想想在伤害我之前，你可否有犹豫过？有些事情是永远不能被谅解的，有些人是这辈子是不能被原谅的，有些事情是永远也不可能被容忍；有些仇是一定要报的。

学会放下，是我永远都想追求的学问，学会残忍却是我现在其中一个主科。。。

要是有一天，你在路上我没认出你，又或者你每第一时间认出我，别惊讶，因为我也不懂当时的我，会变成怎样。。。。

加班的生活

自从一开始工作，我的生活就只有加班了。星期六也要工作。。。

我也只有四个字来形容。。。。

‘ 筋疲力尽 ， 惨不忍睹 ’

EY 3rd Day

This is my third day, and im still sick, thought im getting better without going to see any doctor, i can't sick now i know. I have only 1 week training week to be charged to admin cost, my time will be charge to client next week onwards. I can fel the stress coming towards me.

Finally i manage to remember my access card password, but still cant remember what is the password of photostate machine, so i try to avoid using that.

It was really a HUGE difference comparing this week and last week. I was tend to online until 3 or 4am, and slept until 12 or 1pm, now, i slept at 11 something every night, wake up at 7am. The only similar thing is still TIRED. Last week, i was so boring until tired; this week i am busy until tired.

It was quite a big difference scope from audit dept to tax dept. At first, i think i have better idea on how to start and complete a audit file as compared to tax. When i refering to audit working paper either softcopy or hardcopy, i know i have same level of idea on both audit and tax.....I wonder what i have learn for 6 months intern... is it because STML?

Everyday time flies, really. Today, i left the firm at 7.30pm, i get a change and have a quick dinner. When i done my bathing, it was already 9.45pm, i was so exhausted, what else can i do? study? haha, i don't think so. I wonder how is the life for those who work until 12am....?? i can't even dare to imagine that day to come.

So, i would say, i am the 'wealthiest' during my uni life, at least i have enough time for study (not during final), shopping, yum cha, outing with friends, curiculum activities and so on. Now, working itself already exhaust me. If u ask me to choose again, i don't know am i having a wise decision, but i know, in term of work life balance wise, i will still choose tax for the time being.

p/s: i would like to thank Chin, Shan, Fong. Thanks for assist me this far....

First Permanent Job Report

First day work, first day of period of the month, first time fever and flu after this 2 months.......

I have ready myself to be in this kind of hectic life, just that i never imagine i will get sick this fast. First day only, even though i get myself mentally prepared, my physically drag me down, put me in fantasy of drowsiness over the medicine. I wonder why should fate arrange all these challenges for me when i swear to get all over again, stand up on my own. Why can't fate at least give me a hand, no, can just stop all those 'cruel thingy'.

Let's talk about my first day work, i get myself be ready and leave home at around 8.10am, although the distance will only take me around 5 min for 8.30am work. Then i was led by hr personnel to my seat and day dreaming start in the early morning. After that, i met one of my MMU coursemate, M, she is reporting her first day too, just like me. Both of us were told to familiar around and open up a new account at HXXX Bank, and this took us 2 hours plus, just because of temporary residence address stuff....Gosh.....this really pissed off our hr manager. Of course this problem solved at the end, luckily we don't need to have second visit.

After lunch, every hectic briefing starts, password itself already took me half an hour to register, all kinds of features, term and condition and length (not too long and to short, must be exact the number required, cham.....!!!) The HR personnel brief us, about the claim, selected rules and regulation, timesheet stuff, deadlines, professional examination stuff and a lot more. During the briefing, HR managr pop in and tell us that we won't have 2 weeks training like other new comers, this is because it is SUPER PEAK period, she expects us to get into work by next week onwards with less mistake. I wonder can i make it and after the briefing I wonder how much left in my memory usage (30% or 10%) I wonder but i hope i can remember every each of the one which i should at times.

Finally, clock tik tok...tik tok....until the moment i have been waiting, 5,15pm, count down 15 min to get out of the place and get some rest (have been sneezing & drowsying for the whole day long)...The moment i have been waiting come after i have been assigned one file.

Things to be done by this week/month:

1. Medical checkup
2. KWSP registration
3. WBL (Web Based Learning) (Month)
4. Genuine result transcript
5. Graduation registration thingy (month)
6. 1 week training
7. Timesheet

p/s: KP, thanks for your assistance on some workload. For those who are getting into working life, please make sure you have well prepared yourself with medical checkup report, KWSP registration, new bank account registration (if new bank required) and genuine result transcript. (all required letter can be requested from HR personnel) before start working. Wish you luck !!!

互相尊重是感情的元素之一

我不知道我的决定，会不会让我后悔。 我只知道，我真的，忍受到了极点，容忍到了极点。我也有自尊心，你不会尊重我，我就起码还能选择尊重我自己。这几天，只是该不该出席的问题，已经烦恼了我很多天了，如今我看开了许多。‘那是你的问题，不是我的’

你应该还记得，我说过的话，在这个世界上，有太多所谓的 ‘坏人’ 在我的生命中，虽然我没有反抗的能力，可是我至少还有保护自己的权利，我的方法没有改变过，痛过了，血流过了，我会选择离开。我没能像你们一样有心计，会玩伤害。对我来说，所谓朋友是用心交的，更何况是另一半，我从来没有把感情当赌注，当儿戏，我是认真的。你的不成熟，我选择用心等待，用心灌溉，我们一起成长，一起学习，我没关系。可是，你是否有那么一秒在伤害我之前，为我着想， 我会怎么样？还是，只要好玩就行了，享受当下，后果是不在考虑范围其中？好，就算是，你无心的， 事后可有想过好好解释，好好道歉。我知道我很生气，所以我选择离开，冷静了几天，我回来要求解释，道歉，你承认你错了。可我不认为你有反悔之意，不然你也不会说，‘对不起，。。。。满意了吗？’

当时我宁愿你没道歉。我选了冷静的几天，你完全不闻不问，当那件事没有发生过，我的心意完全被践踏了，可我还是选择相信， 你有苦衷，回来想问个明白，却得了一个，‘满意吗？’

若你认为你没有错，为什么认错？要是你认为你真的错了，你应该这样回答吗？

对不起，我有我的自尊心， 我选择不去参与你的盛会，我没有办法笑着面对你，还有你所有的亲戚。与其，带着一张面具让你难堪。 与其，忍辱恭喜你，我选择维持我的自尊， 默默为你献上祝福就好。

因为有始至终，我没有看到你希望我参与的意愿。你会邀请一个人时，只告诉她日子而已？几点还是她自己上网找的。。。什么样的穿着才是恰当的，我没去过法庭啊！。。。。交通呢？我要怎么出席，你有想过要安排吗？明天就是了，我可今天都还是什么也不知道。你真的有希望我的出席吗？你明白这种不受重视的侮辱吗？

就算我知道最后，我一定会后悔，我宁愿后悔，也想保持住我最后的自尊心。

恭喜你

我知道明天是你的大日子. 恭喜你，终于守得云开见月明。这显示了，当初你决定选择法律并没有错，跌跌撞撞，你还是做到了，真替你开心。我知道你等这天，等了很久了，也辛苦很久了， 你的辛劳真的都没有白费，你看到成果了。我替你欣慰。

听说明天，你的亲朋戚友都会当场为你庆祝， 要感激他们不惜拿假， 放下手头上的工作，只为你喝彩，恭贺你。今后，你可要更加加油， 做得更好。

你的父母辛苦了这么多年，可以看到你踏出成功的第一步， 他们一定更加高兴， 要好好孝顺他们。他们可能唠叨，可能不明白你想参加的比赛，好好解释让他们知道有些荣誉， 会让你增加自信心， 让你更有信心与勇气面对以后的种种挑战。

至于我，是，在你没有任何成就前，我就跟你一起了。是我前世修来的福气不够，没有这等荣幸到场为你祝贺，也没能在你成功后，在你身上沾什么光，我只能在世界的另一个角落献上我最深的恭喜。家平，恭喜你了。恭喜你，你的事业更上一层楼了。好好将你的事业，知识，量力而为的回馈社会。记得，没有家，有国又怎样；同样的， 家里没能打理好，就一心只为社会，到头来，你会觉得你什么也不是，就像你回到家，看到缭乱的家里，你会没有归属感的。好好想想吧！

痛苦

我不会把无辜的人卷进你不成熟的举动里。

我不会不代表，你可以在我面前，跟别人为所欲为， 当我是死的。我也是有感觉的。我试问我没有这样不顾你的感受，在你面前，跟别的异性，打闹得不理四周围的眼光。为什么这样的事情你可以不理别人的眼光，可是你却要在他们面前要我跟你保持距离，我知道在朋友面前不需要太靠近，但是需要保持距离到你在东，我在西的程度吗？

你知道我的limit在哪里。。。。所以当我跑开，你会慌张，因为你知道你错了。。。那为什么在你做错前，你不会想想，对我的伤害有多大呢？为什么要伤害我之后，才道歉？一个错，让我痛苦了几天，对，是我想不开，为什么别人犯的错，我的自己承担几天。我以为我能放得下在眼泪几经干枯的情况下，原来我不能。因为你是我相信，我真心爱的人，因为相信，所以难以相信，你会这样。我没有想到的不成熟会到这种地步。

你知道我很伤心，可是你的问候呢？问你，最近电话怎么那么少，你只回答，你很忙。。

可是我却被haunted了几天。我承认我很会压抑，因为我压抑六天了，每天的流泪，却没让我失去理智，也没有表现出来，因为我在朋友家。我已经不知道我该该怎么办了。我已经没有办法了， 我真的帮不到自己了， 我真的被阴影 ‘捉’ 走了，我很想 ‘逃走’ 可是， 我还是失败了。你可有想过要 ’救‘我？刚才你问我我再干嘛，我能说我再 ’失控‘ 吗？

你是道歉了，可是你毕竟做错了，这几天，你做了什么显示你忏悔呢？还是，你岑有想过要做什么弥补吗？有吗？还是你认为，我是咎由自取？活该？

你有空看球，你有空上吉隆坡玩，就没空解决我们的问题，放着不理， 问题会自动解决吗？你认为其他的事情永远比我们的事情来的严重，可是我们已经自焚了，你看见吗?你关心吗？

我们之间有那么多问题了，而你还要去吉隆坡帮别人，你会觉得很讽刺吗？你问为什么要有期限？你认为工作都没有试用期吗？好，你会说感情不是工作，那你认为我还有多少个三年可以任你浪费？

我一直被你的荒谬事情干扰着，你有弥补你的错吗？有吗？为什么六天了，你还是不闻不问？为什么你还是说你忙，还是给一大堆借口？不想弥补，还是不想解决了？

我认识的你，去了哪？

是自己傻！

洞是自己挖的； 人是自己选择要相信的；幸福是自己判断，选择要托付的；所以一切后果都得自负。自己种下的孽，自己得承受。

放不下也是自己活该，不该这么看不开。不该让自己的鼻子被牵着走，喜怒哀乐不该让他都有份参与其中。自己的生活为什么他应该有份参与？自己的人生为什么他 有份干扰？他的不在乎，为什么我得痛苦； 他给的伤害，为什么我不能选择不要承受；为什么他的无知最后受伤的都是我？为什么他常挂在口中最爱的人，是他选择应该自私且伤害的对象？他明知道我有永远 都会留疤的伤口，他选择他就是那位拨开我的伤口再撒盐的人？为什么要让我一蹶不起？！

为什么是他？为什么？为什么是我那么相信的他？

三年多了，信任？不再了。伤口？被掀开了。认识？不再是我认识的他。问题？一辈子也不会解决方法了。反正他也没想过要解决。

我不会说我被你害成怎样了，我只能笑说。。。自己傻

To My so-called Elder Sis

I'm so down, i really don't know what can i do to nurture her and make her to be a better person or at least ensure she is on the right path. Ok, of course the 'wrong path' for me, is maybe a 'right path' for her, but some 'path' obviously will affected others and hurt others. Those kind of 'path' i will treat them as 'wrong path'. Just be it. I had enough, she is really gone too much. I tried my best and so many ways to contact with her with high consideration on her pride. Ok, i know we will not be communicating in normal way or chatting, so i leave an email message for her. who knows she insulting me openly. Ok, i do have pride so i hope since i respect yours, i hope u will do the same to me. However, you did not and you hurt me this far. Ok, i will stop breaking and knocking my brain to find whatever ways out for you. As long as u won't interrupt and hurt both my beloved family members & i , i won't interfere you especially when u do those 'stupid' thingy. Just go do whatever u think is correct and helpful for you. That is your life, not our responsibility to guarantee how your future & current life gonna be. Please do take care, I hope God and Deity can forgive what u have done so far and won't give you up.

Dido - White Flag - Lyrics

Graduate from MMU in year 2010

Finally, i can officially annouce myself as fresh graduate from MMU Melaka. At first, i thought my E auditing will prohibit me from graduating this year. However, i contented enough with what i got for now. Finally, i can continue my life journey to another whole new stage.

FB's parade indicates that some of my coursemate passed with flying colours, some even graduated with 1st class honour. Congrats to those who can graduate in 2010. I love this date. I think u guys too as this is a lucky year for some of us.

Then another journey comprises of working and further studies. I was wondering which professional paper is should go ahead with. ACCA or CPA? At first i thought i have found one. However, question come to me ' can study with my own self / self'discpline? Or i need some indication ( mangkin ) to push me to study table? Before i got this answer to myself, i don't think i can proceed to my selection.

p/s: Congrats again to all of my coursemate who graduate successfully in 2010! Cheers !

生气的人其实很可怜的

记得我曾经写过我与妹妹们的关系。为了弥补以往我们一起西哈的日子，还有想家的感觉，我选择回来麻坡实习。我为了不引起妹妹们跟我的争吵，我尽量躲避，不出声， 就算看见她对妈妈无理，我也视而不见，我讨厌这样的自己。 我恨自己，这么懦弱， 向恶势力低头。可是我能怎样，她看我就是这么不顺眼，我也不能明白。难道我还要开口，跟她说不行这样，她会听吗？还是会跟我大吵，然后妈妈又能怎样，在这种时候妈妈说什么，都是会被指责偏心吧？

可是听了LH的话，她不对了，作为姐姐的不纠正，怎么都说不过去吧！妈妈就算知道我没错，她不开口帮忙说话，我也不会怪她。因为我们都知道她是有不讲道理的，看心情的。

所以， 就算妹妹们之前怎样对待我，我也不计较。（本来以为我这一辈子，都会不理他们）可是在2010年头， 事情有了起色， 小妹为升学烦恼，我知道她不会跟我讨论，所以想当初我为自己做的一样，为她准备升学情报，刚开始，她连看也不看 （因为放在她的位子已经有几天了，却原封不动）当时我真的很灰心，我也想过放弃了。突然，有一天，我发现她贴上note pad拿着升学情报跟父亲讨论。之后，妈妈告诉我， 希望我可以帮忙她，在教育展的事情。 之后，她就开始与我通电话，交谈， 有关升学的事情。直到揭开她对我一直以来的不谅解，原来是误会。直到现在， 她还告诉我她的quiz拿了15/15，恭喜了。小妹要继续加油哦！

大妹的事情就难办了。近期我才发现，原来问题不完全在我身上， 缺乏自信的她，对于身边一些不顺自己意的事都认为是不公平对待，是每个人欠她的。我真不知道要怎样。补缺她认为不公平的事情吗？这也只是短暂的方法，她有个无底洞的要求，永远不会满足。你有的她都得多拿一分，才能至少 ‘安慰’ 她的无底洞。而且还会不厌其烦的要求更多，不，不是要求，是理所当然认为应该就是这样。一点不顺意，她就要向每个人射箭，看谁可以 ‘迎战’ ， 这种时候，解决方法就是不跟她计较， 放宽心看待这件事，她没了弓，就没能放箭了。

以往，我看见她放箭，我都会发镖来 ‘回敬’ 她， 结果都是两败俱伤。今天，我看她准备 ‘放箭’ 的样子，说真的我很同情她。她皱着眉头， 我还没搞懂她怎么了，她就这么烦了。其实蛮可怜的，如果我也 ‘发镖’ ， 不是也一样可怜？所以我只是淡淡回应她， 她知道我这儿没能提供他 ‘射箭’ 的空间，就向弟弟发神经。天啊！疯了吗？什么是安宁，她不明白哦！她是想把家里变得鸡前不宁，她才甘心吗？

我还能怎么解救她她? 我真的无能为力啊！

tik..tok...tik..tok...

I think i just can't just sit down and waiting time passed by as they do...Im so bored...doing nothing meaningful but just staring at my clock...tick...tok...tick...tok....

I just wonder how come HR personnel can change my comencement date as they like by just giving me a call and i was ordered to follow, no place for negotiation. Ok, due to the SHORT NOTICE, i RUN around Malacca to get myself a cosy and clean accommodation immediately. And now, i move in my things d and owner charge me starting by this month, who knows HR personnel ask me to wait for further confirmation from KL office? (What?! i thought they said they just need confirmation from JB office?) Ok, i admit that was not duly their fault, i requested to start working from 2nd week of June as i need time to get myself a accommodation first. (Don't tell me they expect me to work first without accommodation?!)

Suddenly i have 3 more weeks free for nothing. Should i take it as bonus or .....

I think i gonna start planning my 3 weeks holiday...

Phuket Island Trip

i just came back from our (KP & I) 1st international trip - Phuket Island trip with full of satisfaction because it was really a carefree & relaxing trip with spontenous planning go according to our preference and within our agreed budget.

26th May, Patong Lodge Hotel sent taxi to fetch us. So after taking some bites for supper, we have an early rest.

27th May, after contacting with tour guide A, we had our buffet breakfast served by hotel. We met 2 new friends there ( Queenz & Reith), get introduced to a Phuket Island tour guide B. Wow....tour guid A offer 2000 thai baht for town tour and tour guide B offer 700 thai batt...which should i choose then? Obviously.... So i spend 700 thai batt for town tour..we went Karon view point, Kata windmill point, entertainment spot area, elephant trekking, Big Buddha, Wat Chalong, Cashew Nut factory, pearl factory-duty free shop, t-shirt shop, some local delicaci shop....At night thanks to the tour guide B (Mr Sampan) we spend 200 thai baht each for buffet dinner at Royal Paradise Hotel.

28th May, Phi Phi Island tour trip day which cost us 1050 thai baht per pax. The bus took us up at 7am sharp to harbour and we took Sea Cruise 2 to go Phi Phi Island. At first, we went to the top of the cruise, enjoying sea breeze, but we getting regret when the sun 'come join us'. NO choice, Queenz, & i quickly apply sun block non stop until we ensure every inch of body being apply with layers of sun block. We were fetched to an unknown island (i wasn't aware what is the island is that) for snorkelling, at first i was wondering if i should join the group for snorkelling but seeing myself has been suffering seasick for this trip, i know i will continue seasick if i stay on cruise, so i get change and join the snorkelling. To save cost, we didn't sign any package at night, we just stroll around Patong beach, Bangla Road & Junceylon. We went Junceylon for Samurai Pork Burger of McD and Pork Burger of Burger King.

29th May, we spent 1900 thai baht each for Fanta Sea show with dinner buffet. After breakfast, kp & I stroll at Patong beach for sun bath but unfortunately the weather doens't really grant our wish, sky become cloudy and pouring rain after few hours. So we decided to pack up and walked to Junceylon to have our lunch at Fuji Japanese Restaurant. Due to budget constraint, we have to choose our se properly to ensure it is filling and within the budget. After that, we walked back to the Patong beach and continue our shot'ing, playing around on beach. TIme flies, we have to get back to hotel for preparation before 530pm as there will be Fanta Sea's authorised van will pick us up. It was really a grand dining area served international food as well as halal food. As for their costume, i shall describe even a cleaner's uniform is better than ours. They are well trained to serve their tourists hospitality. At around 7.45pm there is a special show to introduce speciality of Thailand. There are stalls in the Fanta Sea play ground yet we buy nothing, we can only window shopping. 'Nice to see, nice to shop, once buying, confirming broke' . The show started at 9pm, our phone camera and camera have to be kept by the counter to prohibit their content of the perfomance been leaking out. The show was amazing, the overall effect was really reach international level, but due to my shallow knowledge on Thailand's history, i wasn't really know what is the story telling us.....BUT i can confirm, the story showed why elephant is considered as holy animal for them.

30th May, wake up ar 430am, checking out at 530am, reach Phuket International Airport at 6am, we reach Malaysia at 11am. Fortunately we manage to hop on the bus to Malacca at 11.30am and we reach Malacca at 1.30pm. After taking lunch, kp & i rushed to Dahlia to check out my room and move all m belonging to new room until 7.30pm. FInally i reach home at 11pm. That is the moment i can really rest my mind, body , receptor BUT not my heart beat.

As for conclusion, bring more money when you go travelling, you will never regret. However, i still enjoy the trip very much as we encounter the hardship together. Although we don't have enough money for trip which force us to go beach, Junceylon, around Phuket area by foot, but we enjoy a lot during the strolling. We still encounter all problems together. It indicates that when we will encounter all types of problems in real life, everything will be all right if we hold our hands together, find the way out and face the challenges together. This is what i realised throughout this journey.

KP, we have come through it. Believe in ourselves, we can still be independent and handle things maturely without family's assistance.

我真的很不高兴！！！

我真的很不高兴！！！

没有选择有时也是一种选择

没有选择有时也是一种选择。。。

我认同的。虽然多一种选择是另一种出路，可是谁能预测哪一条路才是是最好的，最好的出路，最好的结果。

听天由命？不到最后关头，永远不知道结果会是怎样。。。可是我希望结果跟我心里想的是同一阵线。。。

最后的大学日子

最后一个学期，最后一次在大学的考试，最后一次在大学准备考试的紧张，最后一次在魔力温书的日子，最后一次冲刺，心里真是又矛盾，又不舍 （当然不是指考试）。不舍的是，时间真的过的很快。我会想念大学生活。

小的时候，时间快快过，甚至就真的坐在时钟面前，看时间过，想赶快像大姐姐他们一样，向往自由，什么都能亲力亲为，独立的样子。10多岁，又想要快点到20岁，打扮漂亮女生的感觉， 20岁了，结果来不及享受打扮漂亮的日子，就只忙大学考试， 转眼间，24岁了，开始懂得岁月的残酷， 开始不想长大了。。。有时还希望时间停止，而我继续往前走。

回首刚刚报到大学的时候，好像还是是昨天的感觉，感觉就是笨笨的，什么都不懂，什么都好有趣，什么都新鲜，选择会计也是很突然的决定，还想自己适不适合会计，四年就快过了。

• 我要感谢陪伴我的朋友们
• 我要感谢大学的老师们
• 我要感谢大学里的每一草草木木
• 我要感谢考试的煎熬，让我知道我平时有多懒惰
• 我要感谢背叛我的朋友，让我知道这将来社会是怎样的
• 我要感谢帮过我的每一个人与物
• 我也要感谢还我的人与物
• 我更要感谢生我的父母，没有他们，我都没有机会说感谢了。。。
• 我还要谢谢我自己，尤其是让自己正面成长的自己， 我爱自己

• 大学是我恋爱的开始
• 大学是我看清社会的开始
• 大学是我学习安排时间的开始
• 大学是我学会照顾自己的开始
• 大学是我学会独立的时候
• 大学是我开始学会看电影的时候（thanks to 学生价）
• 大学是我开始学会唱k的时候
• 大学是我开始参与活动的时候
• 大学是我会出外喝茶到半夜的时候
• 大学是我参加晚会的开始
• 大学是我知道Mcd重要的存在
• 大学是我有一大堆assignment的时候
• 大学是我用电脑最常的时候
• 大学是成为division director 的时候
• 大学是我学习最多的时候
• 大学是我发现自己信心与勇气的来源
• 大学是我最常出外找好吃的时候
• 大学是我开始学煮的时候
• 大学是我生青春痘最严重的时候
• 大学是我找到自己生活的意义的时候
• 大学是我学会压力大时学找释放压力方法的时候
• 大学是我参加最多achievement的活动的时候，e.g: marathon, IVAQ External PR Director

p/s: 大学是我又爱又恨的日子

开玩笑也要选对的时候！

可能我傻。。。可能我不在乎，可能有时甚至我不懂，你们在作弄我。对，有时被作弄时我还觉得好玩。我看到你们笑了，我还觉得开心。只因为你们是我的朋友，我不计较。

可是，请别太过火，我也有自尊，我也有开不起玩笑的时候， 当我认真时，请在乎，照顾一下，我的感受与心情。当我发现，我被耻笑时，看见你们的讥笑，我很伤心。 你们有没有想过，过分的讥笑，你们的开心，交换的是我的眼泪。要是你们懂，你们还会这样吗？

最近，我的考试压力很大，完全经不起你们的玩笑。请你们作弄我时，想想是否是对的时候， 在乎一下我的心情！

First Permanent Job Interview

I wonder why am i still here at my room, 'craving' on pending and deadline'ing AIS assignment during public holiday that i should have been enjoying my holiday.

I went for KPMG on campus interview yesterday. It was really a stressful exprience for me due to pass experience. After heeding advice from our lecturer, we were told that most of this kind of assessment was'nt really want you to finish it on time, the main purposes on this test was testing your accuracy under time contraints condition. Ya, can you imagine u need to finish up 44 question within 20 minutes for verbal test, 28 questions within 25 minutes and one essay within 20 minutes.

At first i thought i can also 'tikam' depends on luck, but i was told that this kind of test, wrong answer might affect your accuracy and instantly affect your marks. In short, doesn't mean that if you manage to finsh up all your question without confirming all answers are correct, you might get disqualified also.

I wasn't know whether am i using the correct technique to sit for this assessment until i get called from HR personnel shortlisted for interview invitation at 3pm. Wow, undescribable delighted knowing that i manage to pass the assessment. At this moment, i really feel my self-confidence was boosting innerly.

As for the result of interview, i will only be informed in 2 or 3 weeks time.

Guys, wish me all the best ya. And also to those who are applying jobs too... : )

Random

Here i come to blog again. I will more tempted to blog here normally when i have lot's of howework and assignment ought to be done in time, stress and certain of level pressure will 'push me to the wall' for post.

Ya, this happen again now...so here i come. Besides, lot's of things and memory all packed in my brain and it's time for me to 'rearrange' them and sorted out them in order to fill in more new memories.

First, i have MDS class now from 9-11am and ya, since i am here to blog, i accidentally skip it as i failed to wake up on time for class, so i decided to stay in front of the laptop for 3 urgents assignment (AIS, CA & E-auditing) hopefully.

Secondly, i will be going back to hometown attending a birthday dinner with my maternal grandma later on. Grandma, happy birthday!!! I love u, muacks!!!

Thirdly, i would like to thank Christ. Thanks for your sushi king, present, and movies as celebration of my so long belated birthday. Knowing that u will be going some other city for your new working environment, i wish u all the best!!!

Forth, lots of of cousemates got their offer and applying job for this post graduation but where am i now? Haha.....im still struggling around and figuring what i wanted to have for my future. Ya, like what i have done during my STPM, although it takes time, at least i know what i want in the end. So i know i will be overcome all this obstacles in the end. Ganbatte ne!!!

骨痛热症

这么快来到天公诞了。农历新年也过了一半了。可是，比起别人，假期我也只过了一半。

弟弟在除夕就开始发烧，年初五被诊断是骨痛热症，血小板严重下降， 从150 跌到80 ；而血浓度从30 多升到40多，被送往医院吊点滴。刚开始我以为吊完点滴，没多久应该就可以回来了，哪知道，当我看见妈妈一个人呆着湿湿的眼睛回来。我明白事情不是想像中简单了。

当天我去医院看弟弟，发现他整个人憔悴了许多...发生什么事？不是早上还好好的吗？他的双手插满插管， 护士四小时就抽血，他痛得眼泪直流，轻声说他应该好好照顾身体，就不会来这了。真是的，这平时令人讨厌的弟弟， 每天作弄人的弟弟，曾几时都想打他的弟弟，现在躺在病床上，我的心都碎了。

我开始学分身了，新年的拜访全部告一段落，妈妈得全心全意往医院里忙，而我全心全意忙照顾家与店。原本假期的心情突然进入紧张且忙碌的状态，我还真有点不能协调。结果，雪上加霜的是我还得应付政府人员三天两头在家里查这查那的。还在我们家外面徘徊， 还得妹妹们都不敢回家， 而我忙了一天，还得回家面对这种状况， 当然有几次，我迟回，‘不小心’避开了他们。

亲朋戚友们知道了之后， 都纷纷致电问候，还给与一系列的方法，有者说‘煮8条小苦瓜加冰糖，喝椰水，喝西瓜汁，吃porcupine粉。。。等等方法。我们不懂，也只能尝试那些无害的方法。结果，小黄瓜在新年是不知去哪了，我们只好靠西瓜，说也奇怪，第二天血小板就升了。可是血浓度还没有下，他就只好听医生的话喝很多很多的水。虽然导致他20分钟就得如厕， 他为了离开医院，什么都照办。

今天他终于出院了， 听其他病友说，他为了出院，跟随医生前后一整天。 医生见他情况好转，就批准了。见他能回到家了，我也暂时安心了许多。不难发现，他在医院没什么休息，他要我先让他看在医院一直想看得戏，结果，只剩我在看，他只看了近15分钟就睡了，心想，这下，他能安心睡了吧！

P/s: 谢谢每一位关心问候我们的亲朋戚友，尤其是秋婷姐，小姑，外公外婆，舅舅们。。。等等 还有谢谢弟弟，他的归来始终是我最牵挂的。

Happy Chinese New Year 2010 & Happy Valentine's Day 2010

It has been such a long time i did not update my blog. Busy? Nope i dun think so because i have only 14 hours class each week. *Hurray* But still i have my time all occupied with activities, hang out, yum cha and also not forgotten -- gym.

First, i joined back IVAQ 2010 as deputy of External Public Relation Department, in facts i am just a 'sleeping' working committee in the department but still i manage to invite UiTM Bandaraya Melaka as participants so far verbally.

Then i got myself a spectacles....myopia? No, i just gonna protect my precious baby eyes as they gonna allowed me to 'see clear' a lot of things in my life. Since i have to face my laptop screen frequently and optionally, i choose to get a multicode - computer use spec with blue full rectangular frame. My bf claimed that im kind of 'nerd' when im in this spec on. What do u think?

'My spec and my bear'

Next, i do learn to cook some yee mee soup. Ok i admit, i have to write down all the procedures in order for me to cook a edible yee mee soup wor. However, although i do carry notes with me when i ' construct the project'.... Here are my transformation of 'projects'

' This is my first try out, look tasteless? Ya, you are right, i realised i forget to put in source and chicken cube stock when i ready to serve it. NO choice, ended up my dinner with tasteless Yee Mee Soup.

• ' Does it look a little bit tasty to you? No? Yes? For me, i did it better this time, although i almost forget to put in the chicken cube and source, yet i manage to 'save' my dinner from tasteless dinner this time. Haha...'

See not, i can be at least be a mee soup chef for myself wor! Nothing gonna be impossible for me. Haha....*finger cross*

Before i sign out......!!!!

Not to forget, Chinese New Year 2010 approaching. Ya, im definitely looking forward for this festival as this is one of the festival i can get as many ang pao as i can. *LoL* Ti Gong Bo Pi * 2 more days to go for reunion dinner and 3 more days for CNY as well as valentine. Why am i still here at Malacca and blogging but not preparation for CNY? U thought i dun wanna go back home? I have class later on from 7 to 10pm. Gosh....Lecturer give advance 'ang pau'. No choice i gonna stay back for class....night class sumore. However, think from bright side. 'Ti Gong' close the door but open another window for me...(an chinese idiom). My bf coming back to Malacca this evening, I get to meet him after class for movies...shopping.....*happy*

Ohya, nearly forgotten....Happy Anniversary .....

"White roses represent pure and true love' ----KP

Last but not least, i grab this chance to wish my parents, siblings, my relatives, my friends, best friends, pals, colleagues and whoever celebrate CNY and Valentine's Day a

'PROSPEROUS HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR' & 'HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY'

HURRAY!!! HURRAY!!! HURRAY!!!

MMU Trimester 3, 2009/2010

Hey, MMU I'm back for my last semester (i hope so , provided i pass all my subjects). As i cant get myself a room at Ixora, i made up my mind to stay outside with coursemate. I moved my things in 3 times, thanks for my parents and colleague for giving me a great help.

I cant really imagine how i spend this few days. I haven't adapt this kind of life. For some extend, i regret of choosing this far. I couldn't just walk to any nearby cafe when i wanna online or yum cha, besides the transport wasn't convenience which i never think of it. Furthermore, i can't really sleep soundly at night especially when i heard noise.

Ok, since there are so many external negative factors happen and all against my will. I shouldn't just accept it all even though i just 'clean' them all up. ok, first i clean up my room almost everyday (hope it last) then i light up my essential oil to keep my own world lively. Ya, at least im feeling nice especially im alone. Th aroma stay with me. I hope the notes will be allowed to stay with me sooner.

And i hope connection will come to me also sooner.

p/s: i updated the blog by using wireless at Mori Malacca. it seem like this will be my life for the rest of my 6 months.

Sabah Trip Cancelled!

After 6 months internship, i got myself some travelling plan and some others...........

• Taiwan trip with coursemate? ---> cancelled due to hesitation , dilemma and some not-so-adventurous reasons

• Cameron Highland ---> cancelled due to nobody willing to go, with the opinion that is boring local trip.... (shown previously even oversea trip they have to think twice, isn't it?)

• Sabah backpack ---> postponed (will be cancelled later on maybe) and the main thing is we spend almost RM 1200++ including penalty and extra charges (more precisely Rm 460 + 700 ++) * speechless*

• Batu caves ---> no where to be seen

• Phuket trip ---> awaiting for the arriving of that day or will be a disappointment again? Let's fate decide.

See, so many plans, by right, i wont get so free by now and wont keep complaining and mumbling over this issues.. The facts showed im a failure for my own time management. I admit though.

Seeing some of them having their holidays well planned, i get jealousy but cant do anything except blamming for my ability of managing. Blamming myself for my failed mind rehearsal, cant predict what are the problem awaiting ahead.

However................

I get to know with 2 gangs of colleagues. One from audit department, another one is mix department with combination of admin, tax and audit. Don't ask me the 2 gangs cant be combined. They are just in different channel. However, i enjoy both gang's culture.

That is my worthy outcome obtained from internship program for the time being.