Last Day of Year 2009

Flashing back what are the significant things have been done for the year. I'm actually satisfy of myself because at least i have done my internship required by MIA, achievement as marathon finisher, Penang trip, achievement as master of ceremony for company's annual dinner and get to know few groups of colleagues. Besides, i'm glad that i have sort out some problems of mine and widen up my connection with friends. I will never 'keep myself in cage' waiting for my happiness and satisfaction. Im gonna step out and look for them or create some for myself. So i work my planning 2010 well, occupied with backpack, seaside trip, study smart for my last semester (hopefully).

Meanwhile, i hope my lemah lembut character will transform. (Haha.......i use transform) Rationality will lead me to my suitable and right path towards my bright future. So do you guys.

p/s: May all the friends i know, family member i love surrounded with lucky, happiness and healthy.

Happy New Year 2010 ! * Cheers*

远距离的感情

‘开始一段感情很容易了，相处难’

我相信这句话，每个人都懂。那，有距离的感情呢？会不会更难相处？ 我一直相信真心胜过一切，真心能战胜一切！可是，我这句话的根固并不稳定。我说得也越来越小声了，就快要无声了。

有谁能指引我走向对的路？

这就像是，两个人（A，B）在起点时相约在终点相遇， 才在分叉路，被迫分开两路。可是，其中A的路充满了石子，一路走得不安稳，却没有人扶持，独自面对； 另B的分叉路太多，每一条分叉路都那么的有趣，又有吸引力， 导致B久久没能到达终点。 到底A和B能到达终点吗？

时间才能见证这一刻！

Random

So many things packed up and 'run' towards me this few days. As stated in blog, i just back from Penang. Marathon temporary stop me from doing any exaggerate exercise and moving around freely. Ok, i ensure my feet get enough rest as they so assist me in this achievement. I love them. So i massage them everyday after the race for 2 reasons-1st, it really pain; 2nd-i so love them.

Ok, back to the main point here. I'm counting my internship period to 7 days! Yeah, somehow, complicated emotion filled up my minds. Why did i describe them as complicated? I'm pretty my intern friends feel the same too. Ok, let's me tell you, complicated as in we will be leaving soon, i will miss some of my lovely and funny colleagus as well as seniors (of course not all); the tiring OT, heavy workload and responsibilities as well as memo press me down deep inside. Next, students time coming!!! I'm sure i will 'manage' my time well especially when shall i get 'mc', when shall i 'get leave approval myself', i really miss my uni life after joining intern, i miss my coursemate, lunch with them, 'trap' purposely at Mori for lunch and revision, butter mushroom, 'nap'ing' life....of course in return, i will be 'forced' to miss assignmentss, midterm, finals, tutorials, lectures, and so on.

Anyway, i'm pretty enjoy my life. I'm kinda enjoy this kind of life.

A lot of photo from Penang Trip awaiting for my updates.......

Penang Bridge Marathon #3

continue.......

The event started from 3.45am. When the whistle blowed, all of us started our run, i tried my best and used up stamina for the run. Along the way, i realised many of them were veteren, some of them were auntie. Their stamina wasn't weaker than me because sometimes they really run faster than me i can say. When i almost used up all my stamina, my mind was still 'finish the run within the presribed time', at this time, i saw one of the participants, took pictures of others and the night view. Then i told myself, 'why should i torture myself that much?' Can't i enjoy the run instead of take it as a MUST?

Therefore, these are the photos taken along the way during the run. My SE W595 can't really function like DSLR for night view scenery. so i might skip that night view part.

'4.09am: photo view-approaching to the Penang Bridge'

'Shot at the middle of the Penang Bridge'

'100 plus distribution station each 5km after 5km from starting point'

Of course i did not just taking photo and give up my run. I stop a while for some snap shot, then i continue to run. In facts, the action do help me to re-charge my stamina. I do enjoy the run.

'5.04am: completed half way, going my way back, 10km passed'

'5.34am: My way back - Middle of the Penang Bridge'

Here is when my feet muscle start feeling pain, and also my heart feeling ache and weak, so i slower down my speed and get medical assistance from PBSM-they gave me iced spounge to relief my pain. Thanks to them again! ' For half marathon, 15 km passed and 6km left for half marathon; for full marathon, 17km left'

At first i was thinking of giving up since it was already 6am (i thought the prescribed time is on 7am and i dunno where is the end). Along the way, i met an aunty, she encourage me to get the medal and certificate for finisher runner by saying that i have 1 hour and 15 min more to go. Thanks to her, i get back my encourage and continue my run.

'6.09am: Running down from the Penang Bridge'

'male statue-marathon along the way'

'female statue along the way'

'12km left for full marathon'

'7.00am: Half marathon - 1km left'

Tadaaaa........

' I made it'

p/s: of course there is pain behind the glory, so, im in recovering period as expected!

Penang Bridge Marathon #2

Hey, Im back from Penang Bridge Marathon. As blogged earlier, i took part in women open half marathon (21km). It was really a challenge for me as firstly i never took part in this kind of race before, secondly i was treated as sick kid since young. Most of my friends and relatives as well as parents did not believe that i will take part in this international event. Ok, let's started the race with me.

Date: Sunday, November 22 2009

Starting time: 0330 am (Men) 0345 am (Women)

Reporting Time: 0230 am (Men) 0245 (Women)

Finishing Time: 3.5 hours (Three and a half hours)

Start Location: Queensbay Mall

Closing registration date: October 31st 2009

Entry Fee: RM40.00 (Master / Visa Credit and Debit Cards are welcome)

Distance: 21.0975KM

• D - Half Marathon Men Open (started on 3.30am)
• E - Half Marathon Women Open (started on 3.45am)
• F - Half Marathon Men Junior Veteran (started on 3.30am)
• G - Half Marathon Senior Veteran (not sure what time is it but confirmed is 3.30 or 3.45am)
• H - Half Marathon Women Veteran (started on 3.45am)

'my number'

3 of us (EZ, WM & i) joined the event, we were there since 3am for warm up preparation although our turn will be started on 3.45am. Before this we went to the mobile washroom. Ya is mobile, this is my first time to use mobile toilet i can say. First of all, we have to ensue the chip is tightly tied on our foot to record out timing. So i can say this is an individual race, the medal and cert will be rewarded for those who completed the race within the perscribed time. Therefore, we were told to ensure we step on the map from the beginning until the end of the race.

'Digi logo chip is to record our starting and ending time'

Of course there were a lot of sponsor, like crocs, salonpas, breatheright.......at first i thought the breathright was mainly designed who those who snoring at night, but we were told it can be used for exercising also because it can increased 20% oxygen intake. So we used it.

'the breathright on our nose'

The event started from Queensbay. (to be continued.........)

Any extra information for those who interested to join in the future, kindly see this

与心灵的坦诚

致：想知道孩子心与忽略孩子心的父母。。。

原以为星期天下午，能有足够的时间与心灵沟通。一直以来，我都有这种习惯，想知道这一星期以来，内心的自己是否快乐，是否满足， 可是坦诚的结果全是悲，悲，悲！我是典型的双鱼座，不只是期待浪漫的邂逅， 爱情，也注重内心的感受。 与心灵接触的时候，是我把心掏出来，赤裸的面对自己的时候，也是最诚实的时候。

为什么身边的人都不是我想象的诚实， 可靠？为什么当我面对自己时，看到的都是被陷害的样子。我知道现实社会里，难免有勾心斗角的时候，可是，我祈祷这些事情不会发生在家人与家人之间。当你说你们把我当家人般看待，我雀跃不已，家人对于我而言非常的重要，所以我掏心掏肺，诚心对待。可是，对于家人的我而言，我的感受是不应该被重视的吗？我也是人啊！我也有重要的事烦心，我也有责任在身上的。难道，你们认为，家人是用来利用的吗？家人的感受是可以被忽略的吗?你们可以不关心我，可以不慰问我，我无所谓，可是你们忽略我的感受，要我为你们放弃我的学分，我还能视而不见吗？

为什么父母就不能相信自己的孩子？难道，孩子不是你们生下来的吗？别一直做比较，自己的孩子的能力，与别人家的孩子的本事，是不同等的。各有所长， 所成就。为什么别人家孩子做的就是荣耀，自己孩子做的就是‘饭桶’！ 为什么当自己孩子与别人家孩子做同等成就时，别人家孩子的成就，永远是本事；而自己家的孩子就是幸运造就。难道你不能相信自己孩子， 明白其实他们也在成才的路上挣扎吗？在每位孩子心中的心灵世界，当世上的每一个人都不相信他时，让他心碎的往往是父母的不相信。你们是否知道，父母的认同与信任永远是孩子们最渴望得到的。试问，有哪一位孩子，拿到成绩时，不是向父母倾诉的？

比较比较，什么都比较！别人爱读英文书，是本事，是无人所能及的；而爱读华文书的是平常？读英文书的荣耀，一直挂在嘴边；爱读华文书是不足挂齿？还是一种羞耻？

父母们，为什么别人孩子做的时对，对，对；自己孩子做的是，没什么，没什么，没什么！你们难道不懂这是在造就孩子们心里不平衡的元素吗？

p/s:那我为什么要在乎他们的感受？

向世界前进！

从小就一直在想着成长， 当个大姐姐，能独立担当一切，且照顾家里。总是认为， 这是一件很光荣的事，而且，拥有的自由更是不在话下。中学时期，头脑想的却是大学时期；大学时期， 却向往事业女性的来临。可是当事业女神向我敞开欢迎的手时，我却进而远之。

有者会问，‘你不是一直向往吗？’对，以往我总是向往事业女性的来临，可是，当我发现，这种向往是要付出相当的代价，我就进退两难了。 当事业的光环越是靠近，这也意味着，自由，纯真，无压力，我行我素的影子将离去。

在大学的最后一年，我终于感受到时间正迅速地流逝。突然，我回想起，这20多年来，我到底在哪留下痕迹？是，我羡慕，我真的羡慕。尤其，当某某某告诉我，哪哪哪有多好玩？有好多有趣且新鲜的事与物，我就很想努力地想努力地想象，可是正所谓，‘读万卷书，不如行万里路’。 我再怎么读书，再怎么想象，永远也不会明白那种所谓的喜悦与惊喜。我真的很想感受着世界的奥妙，我当然明白，万里路是用钱来铺盖的，可是，不能行万里路，我也希望，能行几里路吧！走着走着，我就不信我不能行多远。

从此，我会好好安排这一切的。

p/s: 向世界前进吧！

Brief updates

Hi there, this is my first time blogging in the office. Ok, dun misunderstand me. I did it during my lunch hour. No slacking i can say. I am alone now in the office during my lunch hour. Eh, dun took me as freak, not that i dun wan to join them, or im auctism or they did not invite me for lunch. In fact, they did, just that their timing is a bit differ from others, sometimes they tapao, sometimes they are not. Maybe their timetable is abit from mine, i used to plan well for my lunch the night before i slept; but they will onky decide normally 10 min before the lunch hour.

Haha, got to go. Lunch hour ending soon.

九皇爷-游街

昨晚，麻坡大街很是热闹，大街上到处都是看热闹的人，当然我也不例外，不同的是，我不用七早八早去霸位，我开始变得不太爱争，就只是留在家里，听到喧哗声了，我才出去看热闹。跟以往不同的是，我不再挤着向前， 我只是站在后边，能看到什么就什么，没看到的，也无所谓了。人生不也是这样的吗？看见前面的人，争呀，挤呀，都满身汗了，还不罢休。当然，我不是说挤到前面去看不到什么，可是就算他们看到差不多90%，那根我看到的80%有很大差别吗？难道，我会把车看成人吗？那挤在前面的人，是否能清楚看见站的高高在上的踩高跷？

所以我不明白了。。。

奇怪，我似乎看人多过看游街呢！关他呢！开心就好！

好了，回到正题吧！我是在说游街呢！不是人生哲学。

有很多‘神仙’游街在大街，（好像是九皇爷的大日子）有呐咤， 观音娘娘，。。。（我也不是很懂怎么称其他的神仙，就俄称他们为神仙吧！）观看者不只是佛教徒，我还看见伊斯兰教徒呢，就站在我身边。有时我在想，观看者当中有没有跟我一样有事相求呢？当然，就算没有，每当有神坛或‘神仙’经过，我也会受手掌合十表示‘拜拜’。我听说，那些打扮似神仙的呢，其实是神仙上身，这些人需要经过几个月的吃斋才能胜任。那些跟着游街的佛教徒，好像也得吃斋好一段日子，来表示他们的虔诚。

游街游行在大约两小时半后，在欢呼声与炮竹声中，。。。。。经过这街道，到另一条街道。我的思路才慢慢回到现实。

p/s:没有相片，因为没想过要带相机。

相信我，你会好的，我不会轻易放弃你！

你怎么了，看着你逐渐消瘦的身影，看着你无法平复情绪时的匆匆，看着你从一个开朗，爱开玩笑的你，变成什么事都以悲观的脸孔与话题，重复听着你述说昨晚你数了5个钟的绵羊，我知道你根本无法入眠， 听你说没力气， 感觉漂浮，视线模糊， 我的心都凉了。

对不起，刚开始我不明白你怎么了，只觉得你很烦，每天说自己有多辛苦，很烦，我工作很烦了，可是你还说更多。我埋怨，我埋怨，可是当麻坡医生都被你找完了，你却一点起色也没有，你的她也憔悴了，我才知道事情的严重性。我不知这样的日子到底过了多久，可是我希望还不算太迟。

请你别说‘太迟了’， 我这一生中最害怕的就是‘太迟了’这句话。对不起，我不成熟的态度与无视。

对不起，昨天你给了我一个选择题，家人还是工作？我选择了后者，因为即将到来的星期有我期待已久的工作环境， senior安排我出去审查账目。你自己一个人出发之后，我才惊觉，我做了滔天大错。

对不起，请你为了我们，为了疼爱与关心你的每一个人，为了你自己，相信你是会好起来的。

Gathering with Internship Colleagues

• Behind : LT, SL, CF, BW, CA, J, Me, SF, LL
• Front : S, HZ, HN, SP

After 4th months intern in this company, this is my first time to have dinner outing with them. I think i'm getting better to get a long with them, but i know my intern period is going to end very soon. When it passed the 3rd months and when it was the time i'm getting used to the company's environment as well as the whole procedures, i can fell the time really flies. Only that i wonder i'm growing more and more enthusiatic towards this professions.

Today, our main purpose was having a farewell party for one of colleague who is going to resign this month. Let's call her HZ then, she is a nice girl, she is the girl sat beside me when i first enetr the company and she is the one who teach me so much and patiently. I know i'm a bit too dumb and hard to pick up something new. However, she never complaint every time i call her for help, she will leave her not-so-urgent file and check my problem for me. Thanks a lot, HZ.

Ok, let's continue my purposes just now, it was not only the farewell party, but it was also advance birthday celebration for HN & SL. Both of them are birthday baby tomorrow. I wish both of them Happy Birthday in advance. Most of the audit department present for this dinner. Almost all of us came right after the office hour. We went to Zense Cafe for dinner. We enjoy so much for the party, as for the food, i will just rate as 6 out of 10. The food can be rated as moderate. However, we laughed throughout the party. We were realy having our good time.

HZ, 谢谢你一直以来的照，因为你的照顾，我学到了很多很多。虽然我们不是同一组的人，可是你却不厌其烦的来帮我。每一次，我要交报告给senior时，你都会帮我再三的检查，避免我被指责。这些我都看在眼里，藏在心里。每次我拿不到balance你一定会帮我找到问题的存在为止。你给我的教导，我真的学到很多，因此也避免了多次的摔跤。还有，你是第一个教我如何有效proofread的人，而且虽然每次proofread我都会问一样的问题， 你也会一一的回答直到我明白为止。现在，你正前往人生的另一个转折点，我相信那将会是你大展拳脚的好地方。无论，你在哪里，我都希望你能有美好的每一天。

p/s: 别说我没有写华语。哈哈！

Penang Bridge Marathon

Anyone interested in Penang Bridge Marathon. There are quater, half and full marathon. If i am not mistaken, there is 10km for quater run, 21 km for half and 40km for full marathon.

For me, i havent been to Pulau Penang before, no harm for me to visit to Penang Bridge before my explorataion at Penang. I took up the tournament. Oh, instead of saying that is a tournament to me, it is just a challenge or mission impossible for me. Haha.....

Anyway, i took up the half marathon, it was just like the journey from Muar to Malacca i think. For more information, i will try to update asap.

For more information, refer here

Fearful Experience

It was really a fearful experience when i was told.

I was waiting for my mum to fetch me back after work, around 6.15pm, and i was reading newspaper. All in the sudden, i feel my brain like hanging and swinging. I was like 'What's going on'? Is it because some heavy vehicle just passed by and i look up the vehicles, but there is no heavy vehicle passed by. Then i was thinking is it because i'm too tired or earthquake from our neighbour country since Manilla just faced serious flood? At that time, i sensed out the dizzy again. Then one of my colleague asked me 'Do u feel any wave'?

Only that Im pretty sure that was not my illusion. Then i called him, he sensed out the tremors too. And he said most of the citizen of the building ran towards high ground worrying the building might collapse in no time.

When i flipped through the news just now, only that i realised it was a powerrful earthqueke measuring 7.9 by using Richter scalde strucked the city of Padang which located at the off coast of Southern Sumatra, at 6.17pm. Any situation from other states and city, kindly click here

What happen to this world? Too much disaster hit on the earth. What's going on out there? H1N1 disease takes lives, same thing goes to serious flood at Manilla, now it come to earthquake at Sumatra.

May god bless to this world for a better tomorrow!

Netherlands - Windmill

Hey, im sure many of you all, know this windmill , originated from Netherland (Holland). Ya, i know you guys always been that intelligence.

Ok, what is the meaning when the wheels spin?

I'm pretty many of you will say, it spin because of the wind blow, right? However, more exactly answer will be......the wheel spin when someone working inside. When the wheel stop and been left in cross-shaped like the pictures shown above, this means that they are resting for that day. Meanwhile, if the wheels left in X-shaped, this represent the workmen are temporary stop the operation. And they will continue their operation later on.

Can trainee be treated fairly?

Was reading my friend's updated blog, it suddenly trigger my mood to write something on here too. I was supposed to update anything regarding my internship. However, to be frank with you guys, i have really no mood and no energy to share with you guys. Not that the workload is heavy or what, it is just that i have nothing to do at office sometimes ended up i will dozed off during office hour. As accounting student, most of us will only interested in numerical, some analysis and thinking where this figure come from, some sorts like that. One thing for sure, you wil be over delighted when you get the answer with whatever mean right?

At first, when i started my internship about 3 months ago, i brought nothing but slacking feeling. They start pass me some file and assignment. Wow, i learn nothing yet i have to handle one case? Of course i will be more caution and keep asking around. That is the month i did learn something new but on the other hand, stress....stress on making any major mistakes. Never will i expect, i have been receiving the almost same catogories of assignment for the past 3 months or sometimes just some admin work and filing system work. I have been looking forward for the new challenge, and now i almost give up. And what i realised, how cant a trainee get same training and treatment as well as learning progress with the new comers of that company? She obtained all the chance to learn new things, field audit and so on.

Of course i know i not the permanent staff yet, but who set the rules that i won't come back again after i grad later? I takes time to adapt life, if can i rather stay here forever, but with this kind of treatment, uneasy and frustration, who will? I have been asking for assignment and what i get all section work from colleagues, of course i take the challenge and go for it, and it repeats. So i keep repeating the same sections work and vouching.

We as trainees, we do wanna learn, we are the most unlikely to make any major mistake cause we concern and gratitu your kindness of taking us in during this internship program. However, we can only 'repay your kindness' when we get the opportunities right?

Days are counting down by itself, Im worrying how to produce my report with just some same catogories work done. How to make my report presentable? Im really doubt and resentful over such treatment.

Alternative passport for infrequent traveller

Here is information as well as good news for those infrequent traveller. You can travel to oversea by just spending RM100, but it only last for 2 years ( i think it should be more than enough for those who just travel once in a while ). And this offer will only be effective from Oct 1.

For more information, kindly refer this

GODIVA - Chocolatier

I always told my friends or whoever around me, i love choco very very much, especially dark chocolate. I prefer less sweet taste choco. You know what, choco is some sort of my medicine. Choco not only can can release my temper, it can also heal my tiredness as well as upset, in other words it make me happier. Furthermore, choco also heal my whatever pain. (Im sure, some of them out there sure say, im bluffing, but it is exactly, obsolutely true especially for those who suffer a lot when 'da yi ma' visiting HER) So, i would like to introduce my choco set with 15 different mixture of choco flavour. ( Thanks AW for your imported choco set! )

Let's go and take a look!

'1st review' (Watch out your saliva)

'Does it look yummy?'

OK, Let's start our choco journey, whoever feel interested, follow me: (left to the right)

First row:

• Toubillon Praline (Milk - Hazelnut praline)
• Coer Noir ( Dark - Dark chocolate Ganache )
• Tourbillon 85 ( Dark - 85% dark chocolate ganache )
• Coeur Blanc ( White - Hazelnut praline )

Second row:

• Lune Passion ( Dark - White chocolate paste with passion fruit )
• Lady Lait ( Milk - Apple and cinnamon chocolate paste )
• Volupte Lait ( Milk - Milk chocolate ganache )
• Lady Noir ( Dark - White chocolate ganache with vanilla from Madagascar )

Third row:

• Volupte 72 (Dark - 72% dark chocolate ganache )
• Perle Amande ( Milk -Roasted almond cream )
• Eclat Feuilletine ( Milk - Hazelnut praline with feuilletine )
• Mosaique Macadamia ( Milk - Roasted caramelized Macadamia nuts and praline )

Last row:

• Moelleux Caramel Cholat ( Dark - Chocolate caramel )
• Signature Blanc Cafe ( White -Coffee flavoured chocolate paste )
• Lingot Noisette ( Hazelnut praline with hazelnut pieces )

So, how? Does your saliva found on the floor from your mouth? Haha......

Auspicious Date 090909

Hey there, im just drop by and write down something to remember this auspicious date. There is only once in a life time. Therefore people all hope they made something meaningful on this date since it symbolize eternity. From the news, we get to know quite a number of couple decided to tie the knot on this auspicious date. Therefore, im taking an opportunity to send them my blessing.

For me, today is nothing but working life, not, to be exactly is training life, train like auditor? Erm.....so far, nope, train like superb typist then yes, i agree. What else i can do? Just do whatever i can and grab whatver opportunity i have.

My life getting bored, maybe i have used to busy and rushing life, that's why i feel restless and i need to look for some work or house chores to do, if not, i can sit down also but with mouth chewing something inside. which will i choose le? Actually i prefer exercise but still ended up i cant overcome the attrative and i will chewing something....Haiz......never mind la. As long as i feel contented.

p/s: this is my life anyway, i want it to be like i wish.

Happy Birthday! National baby!

Happy birthday to Malaysia!!!

Happy birthday to my youngest sis, Siew!

She is our national's baby. By right, we should have celebrate her birthday today, but since she is going to face her trial for next 3 weeks, she din ask for any parties. We just went out for dinner and prepare a fruit cake which is made by my youngest aunty. She looked satisfy on what has been arranged for her.

God bless her for the trial, I know she will be facing some tough time for the next 3 weeks, but i know she can make it and for the best.

Best of luck ya, Siew!

Port Dickson Trip

This is my first time having picnic (if no mistaken) at seaside. In other words, i haven't mean to beach or seaside before. Thanks KP for the arrangement, although he himself being busying on his chambering as well. Thanks for everything.

Early in the morning on Sunday, we drove up to Tampine to meet up with others, and travel from Tampin, pass through Linggi and Lebuk Cina. Somehow, i have forget how long does the journey takes, we went to the condo (sorrry, i forget the name, in facts i never take the effort to get the information) before we approach to the beach (Bayu Beach Resort or Tiara Beach Resort or neither?)

'Here are some photos taken by my not-so-advance digital camera, Kodak Easy Share C 643'

When we reach there, we looked for the shady place and spread the straw mat we brought there. Then we change, took some photo, KP and his cousin went to set some traps for crabs near some rocks areas. Then we swim and enjoy the wave. At first i dare not to join them as i couldn't really manage to see what is inside the sea, i just roughly stroll around the edge. Each time i step foward to the deeper of the sea, i can feel like this is so-called life. Life is full of all sorts of uncertainties especially when we are in working environment. It was just like when u first entering the company, new environment make u fear and stress of uncertainties, but when u get used to it, u will know nothing to be afraid of because problem are meant to be faced and solved.

After coming through all those thought, i decided to dive myself inside the sea and feel the sea, it was just like how i feel this world, how hard i try my best to make myself live asone part of this world and contribute to one part of this world. That's what i got from my seaside trip.

Then we enjoy the wave, chit chatting in the sea and some diving. We dare not to go that depth as this is not a best month to do so. (Hahaha......)After that, we went up to the beach and enjoy our lucnh, Thanks Aik Wee's mum as she preparing that fabulous lunch for us which contain of nasi lemak, fried ginger chicken, fish, sambal, eggs, drinks, and so on.

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'Our shady picnic areas pictures with kp's mum, aunties and also the philipines maid (i think so)'

Before we went back to condo for wash up, AW and kp went to look for their 'harvest'. Unfortunately nothing got trap and the baits have been eaten up. Er.....how the prey entering, 'steal' and 'escape'???....aiya, who cares! Im not prey, i wouldn't know. ' These are the net we used, there is some baits (some not-so-small fish) inside the plastic, forget about the ball....'

When everyone was busying on eating la, watching tv la.....blabla....i sat beside the window and look at the scene, this is quite a nice place for holiday and relax. Condo.....will be my next target to invest in if i have extra M.

At around 6pm, we packed and went back to Tampine for dinner. I had a wonderful holiday, picnic and weekends. Thanks to KP, AW's mum, KP's mum and some KP's relatives. Last but not least, thanks a-boy gor gor for your sponsor condo.

'Do we look darker after 'sun-bath'? No, i should say is Ultra ungu-bath'

Transformation of thought

First of all, 'Hurray' another Friday night is arriving. This is the day i'm looking forward since every Monday. Last time, i used to looking forward Friday's arriving also to go back my home sweet home last time. I used to call my mum and ask her why she never call me, then mum will sure answer me ' my dear, do u know today is only Wednesday and i just called u last night'. I will like '........oh ic. i thought it is already Thursday or Friday.' Friends who know me well sure familiar my 'serious illness - homesick'. At that time, i will ask my friends, 'will u guys miss ur parent?'. They replied 'like that lo'.......

Although i'm having my intern at Muar, still i will looking forward the arriving of Friday too. However, the reason behind is totally different from last time. Im sure u will understand what does it mean right if u do read my previous post. Even though stock take at JB, Malacca, Kluang or anywhere will do as long as bring me away from Muar will do, i will be more than happy to leave.

I'm really under quite a amazing level of stress until my hormone unstable, make me feel so sleepy even though i take enough 8 hours rest. No matter how, i will still ensure im tough enough.

I still remember what my friend told me.....she face problem when her piano exam approaching, her fingers twisted easily especially she practice more often, but she told herself that, at least she still own her fingers. At first she thought she is so bad luck, however, at least she can still sit for exam whener she wants to. This make her feel ease.

What do u think? Will this work?

Gathering with EZ & Winnie - SKS #2

After the gathering, EZ fetch us to my house, because Winnie wanna visit my house. When i fetch her back home, She hugged me in front of her house and say 'Be tougher & brave'.

My heart feel warm and touched, even though it was just 4 words. I know she can sense out whatever problem and 'disaster' i met so far. Although she assist me, but these few words really impressed me a lot and enough encouragement for me to go on. I know i am not alone.

Ya, Winnie, what i need now, is just some encouragement. I know only time can cure my problem now since i have done my best. Thanks a lot.

Gathering with EZ & Winnie - SKS

Hey, i had a wonderful gathering with my secondary best friends today. I met with EZ as dated earlier, as she will be going back to USM to further her Master studies. Winnie join us after that as she is going back to Indiana tomorrow early in the morning too. Haiz..... most of my friends are not in Malaysia or Muar. If i would like to meet them also need to adjust each other timing. We have so much fun during this gathering.

At first i was so so so exhausted after tiring work today, and i still need to rush my time to ensure im not late for the gathering. Surprisngly im enjoy it very much, thanks a lot, EZ & Winnie.

• E : Eh, do u guys know that XXX is currently working at Muar now?
• P : Is it? Which area or which company or whatever shop?
• E : Er.....let me think......(Winnie & i are looking at her and waiting for the answer)
• E : (After 2 min plus).........I forget d......
• W & P : .....SWT !!!!!
• E : Some sort of '小公司' la.
• P : Even '小公司' has name also right?
• W : (Looking at the shophouses opposite the cafe and refer to one of it).....ya la, just like that shop , named 'SKS'
• P : (never notice she is refer to the shophouse opposite).....'SKS'?......eh, good name wor. 'Siao Kong Si',. Winnie, you are so creative la, manage to think of the short form pulak.

(At the same time, EZ look at me in blur eye sight)

• W : ???? When did i said so? Then, she pointed the one of the shophouses, named 'SKS' for me.
• W & E : (Pointed to me), you think too much la.

Then again, the whole cafe full of our joy laugh.....

Thanks a lot, my friends, all i can say is today's gathering is the most happiest gathering since June. I have not been possess any laughter since i started my training session.

p/s: Bon Voyage, my dear friends. Please do take care. Till then, im looking forward for our next gathering ya.

相信是最好的等待！

选择了的路就要走下去，要相信暴风雨后就会出现彩虹， 既然已经跌落谷底了，还能再跌吗？那，就是反弹的时候了。相信是最好的等待！

我会有明白的一天的，我相信总有一天我会放下， 不再在乎了。我很在乎亲情，出外升学，与妹妹们的感情逐渐疏远，自以为引用这半年这时间来 ‘抢救’ ，可以找回昔日我们姐妹们一起嬉戏的憧憬，看来这些已成过去。

我以为用真心对待可以换来亲情，原来原因才是重要。关键是，问题到底出现在那儿? 我努力想尽各种办法问候，帮忙打扫家务，电脑坏了，马上维修；却换来，我是有私心的。我有私心？怎么私心了？电脑不是都你们在用吗？我只是要寄报告给老师， 你们也讽刺说我故意等你们要用电脑是霸占它，我要如何霸占了，我六点才放工，琐碎事做完了，八点才有空，我又怎么知道你们几时跟朋友有电动游戏约呢？

原以为会想家的我，想念家的感觉会很折腾，万万都没有想到，想家的痛苦远远不及失望，委屈，心碎的苦还让人难受。每个人都说我最幸福了可以住在家，吃家里的，用家里的，可是如果你们知道还要看妹妹们的脸色委屈的求存，你们还会羡慕我吗？

由于我的适应能力差，工作程序还没完全掌握，更不用说与人与人之间的沟通了。虽然用了两个月的时间慢慢适应他们的沟通方式，我还是会继续加油的。我已经努力过了，要是失败，我才不会后悔。这条路是我选的， 我会笑着接受这一切， 让它变得有价值。我相信这些也是我生活上的训练。

How to manage negative emotional?

I just realised this is the only Sunday i have my own time, i can say i free until i dunno what to do. Flash back what i have done for all past weekends since my internship begin, it is either im together with KP or shopping at Malacca or go travelling or travelling to KL and so on. Ya, i have been passing through all those busy weekends yet im enjoying it very much. I have adapted that busy life, busy weekends. Although Im busy and i used to complaint but I feel happy, satisfy and substantial, at least i feel like im full of energy to do anything, housechores, revision, audit file. Ok, when i really sit down and rest, i feel so empty and lonely. You guys can get better understanding by checking on how many blogs i have been compose today.

For the past few months, im been busying on adapting my intern life, home staying life, time management with KP, friends, colleagues and so on. Ya, i admit that im still adapting this kinds of life. Many of them will ask me, isn't that im staying at my own hometown, how come i still need time to adapt my used life? Ya, this questions hits me too. Althougj i keep my things properly in my room, i will still need to look for it by using the min 1 hour and max few days to recall where i kept my stuff. And this situation continues until today, some stuff i have yet to find it. What's going on now? How come my STML (Short-Term-Memory-Loss) become FML (Forever-Memory-Loss)? Is it really the sign that i still couldn't adapt my life or i have some other things in my mind to be bother with/has been haunted me which still unknown to me? Who has the answer for me, .........................nobody but i am.

Although i have been haunted by negative emotional especially during certain period, I will get agitated immediately until it reach the uncontrollable limit but im now learning on how to look at the bright side.

First avoid from becoming friend with negative emotional:

• Think before i yell
• Think before i speak
• Think of another side of each matter (bright side)
• Think positively

Second keep yourself closer to positive emotional and thinking:

• Relax yourself no matter how busy you are
• Take a short nap in the afternoon
• Keep your place clean and tidy
• Keep yourself healthy by taking regular meal, vitamin c, herbal tea, herbal jelly, herbal drinks, green tea, fruits, vegetable and so on
• Write down your feeling without keeping them inside
• Release the negative feeling by using the right way
• Bear in mind, you can only plan to manage your time, dun force yourself to follow what has been planned
• Bear in mind also you can only control your own living style
• Set a reachable target to fulfill
• Get some more interest and dreams to fill up your time
• Accept the things where you think no harm accepting them
• Relax

Random

Hi, i'm back again for my blog'ing session after getting my work done as well as my weekly report. As for weekly report, not that im very hardworking to get the report updated every week, just that i have some sort of 'illness' called STML, for those who doesn't know this abbreviation, STML stand for Short Term Memory Loss. If that happens, what happening during that week will be blank for me, unless i fill in according as what i wish if not i shall blank the report for that week.

As for the work i refer to is because i was told to make some adjustment at about 5.45pm which is 15 minutes left to 6pm, how am i suppose to finish it in 15 minutes and no computer was available at the same time, furthermore, i will have to make it done on Monday morning and discuss with Seniors before the arrival of client. No choices, i have to make it done as it is my responsibility to make it done on time. That's why i don't mind it 'interrupt' some of my resting time.

Today, after being a good daughter for my parents by accompanying them for breakfast, i went to shop some necessities, fetch KP to bus stand, blogging. Besides, i manage to meet with my best friend, Winnie, who is going back to West Lafayette this coming Thursday. She is still as confident as she used to be. Although she come back for 3 months holidays, but she never bother to rest more than one week, she is so wiiling to go for the holiday work at KL, and she travel to KL by herself and drive car in Malaysia which she has stop doing that for few years since she study overboard. Ok i do understand that she did drive in Indiana, the thing is the driver seat is at left hand side at westerm country. * clap *

I can see she is far more independent, confidence, different and adventurous than before. The difference here refer to good improvement which i almost look forward to them to happen on me and which are always fail to. Im not independent, self-confidence and also the adventorous enough lo. My friends who know me well will understand i will never dare to try someting new to me, especially the things i never get to see, eat or drink and so on, example: aubergine, capsicum.

p/s:When can i be more confidence, adventurous and indepedent for those who i care?

Dear's convocation 2009 #2

KP and his family

Finally, i manage to transfer all my bf's grad photo from MY digital camera. How come? In facts it is just because of Im slacking around without make it done on time since there is no deadlines. Ya , i think i should make myself a deadline for anything.

We all have to woke up at around 4am to get ourselves prepared to Cyberjaya-MMU campus and we depart from Malacca at around 5am. At around 6.58am, we passed through cyberjaya toll, that also mean we manage to get 10% discount for toll receipt. We have to parked the car outside out the campus as the management only prepare one car park for each invitation/fresh grad. At this time, i really hate myself being wearing my high heel walking and approching to the grand hall. Omg, can you imagine i am wearing the high heel and walk or i can say climb up the declivity? Of course, my legs pain like hell until they become numb.

Ok, let's go back to the main topic. The ceremony started at 8.15am, although im unable to enter the grand hall, but i was lead to another lecturer hall to watch the ceremony through LCD. The opening ceremony like usual, so no comment, the main contents you can imagine all fresh grad's names were called up one by one......and it continues until 12pm. Ya, is 12pm. The ceremony ended with the mmu grad's songs - Permata Dunia. To be frank, i like this songs, when i first listen to this songs, it makes me swear that i must listen to this songs during my grad ceremony.

Here are the bouquets from my mum and his mum

After the ceremony, i did not really busying on taking photo first as i still need to look for bf and his family upside down of the mmu compound. Finally, we take photos around of the campus and outside of the grand hall together with uncle, aunty and bf. Furthermore, i also manage to take photo with Huiyin , Sinyi, Chin Ting, Pei San, Kia Jui, Edith, Pei Fen, Kwee Fong and a lot of them (pls forgive for those i did not mentioned their names here cause i do have short-term-memory-loss nowadays)

KP & i Sinyi & i Chin Ting & i Kia Jui, Edith & i Pei San & i Pei Fen, Her Bf, KP & i

p/s: congrats to those who grad for the year 2009

Dear's convocation 2009, congrats dear!

Yesterday was Singapore's National Day and also dear's convocation ceremony. Congrats dear, that you have pass through all obstacles and unfoseen circustances, I knew u have been endure all kinds of difficulties in order to celebrate the arriving of this important day.

No matter how, i believe this is just a starting point for you to enter another type of your life - career life. There is still a long way to go. I hope u can overcome all circumstances as you have done so far.

Congrats...

Wireless adapter installed!!

Hey, guys after struggling for so many months since i came back from Malacca for training. Finally i manage to get myself a wireless adapter for me to online in my room personally last Thursday. by using part of my own allowance. Yeah.......

Therefore, my blog won't be hibernate again provided Im won't turn on 'lazy' mood too often.

What is 'urgent'? Tell me!!!

When i finaly spare some time to open 'Music Rainbow' webpage, i just realised it has been such a long time i hinerbated my webpage andalso my lappiee.

Anyway, although my working hour is only from 8.30am till 6pm. I should have about 5 hours more to go till 11pm (my sleeping time), and at least 1 hour to update my blog right? However, if i still need to get myself available for house chores, some light exercise, some relaxing treatment and also some weekly report to be updated almost everyday. Maybe it can be understand why i have no time for myself at all.

When i start my working life (or i make it as training life), why must i specific it so precisely? Ya, is a must. Last time i was told training life is somehow different with working life and i still not understand with it? Isn't it working on almost same stuff in the office together with all colleagues? Now, i can differenciate the same thing d. If you were in working life, u work on your responsibility stuff; if you were just a trainee, u have to do ur stuff and together with other people's stuff. Eh, don't ever think that you were helpng the colleague cause he/she has too many things to do. No...no..no... he/she is definitely busy but busy with chatting. Then you can imagine, when u rushing like hell (cause u still have to work on ur own work and pass up on time), and they chatting happily , laugh front and back, but u can do nothing but just swallow all of your grievance into your tummy.

Not that i dont want to reject them, as a trainee you can't really said much. If you said, you have your own stuff to do, then they will answer you ' what are you busying with? Ah?! that one ah? not urgent one , my report is far more urgent than yours.......If this is a fact, i can still accpet it, but then, one and a half more hour to go, he/she will come to you and ask for your own report. ( i was like......ah? Your 'not urgent' word can only be delay for one a half hour?!

Protest? Mogok? (Haiz....do it when u have experience and become senior first la!)

p/s: i just wanna passed by and say hello, ended up a complaining story born.

First Stock Take Ever

Being an auditor, have to check most of the document to ensure the validity and its existence. Although i am only a trainee, i will be carrying this task also. I received a call from my senior Cath, i was assigned to carry my first duty as auditor to stock take at JB company. Let's talk about the stocktake has been occured last Saturday. It is a furniture company at JB. For your information, the main office is operated in Japan.

I will have to awake early at 6am in the morning to get myself ready and waiting for my colleague's arrival. It was kinda lazy being wake up at 6am especially it is Saturday which is not supposed to work normally. We departure at about 7am, enter Pagoh tol and fetch another senior colleague at Yong Peng tol as she is familiar with the operation and way to the company. She drove us and we reached our destination at 9.30am as promised.

Once we reached there and was introduced to the person in charge, Aishah, the general manager, person in charge of the warehouse, all production and etc. We start our work immediately. In facts, they were just starting their stock take that day. No choice, we have to follow their speed. I admit we did spend quite a longer time in the warehouse. As i not too familiar with what should be done practically, i vouched each of the take care items. And i was told we shouldn't count the inventory without the presence of person in charge as we are not going to bear any consequences for the loss of inventory.

After the lunch, i manage to shift my workjob into PM area, i did demand the person in charge to move some of their goods down from the upper level by using forklift, i too know they seem unreluctant, but it is also my job, i wouldn't know is it correct take card no and numbers of stock without count it properly. PM area did take me about 3 hours and production 1 subline area for 2 hours. After all the stock take count, we did interview their person in charge by seeking some inquiries.

From this experience, i realized that i have to learn on how to communicate with the person in charge in order to complete my duty. On the other way, i trying myself not to behave too formal while working with each of the person in charge.

p/s: The Japanese supervisor quite attractive and charming! haha.....

Policy changed to Mandarin

Today is the new semester and new academic year. This also means that i am Epsilon year Accounting Year undergraduate. What can i describe besides ...time flies.....

My memories for the form 6...diasects....catching any kinds of insects until orientation.....first tutorial in mmu (without knowing that all announcement and information should be obtained through mmls websites) .......until i am in 4th year -> internship program.

Monday blue......although i was siting in my seat which is beside a window...ya, i prefer this arrangment from my character perspective (like to be alone)...im day dreaming again.....thinking of if i still stay at ixora and arrange my timetable well. i wont have any tutorial this week and i have more time to rest ot taking any nap in the afternoon.

However, i am now 'flooded' in boredom and tiring. Af first i thought i was assignned to help one of colleague to do some of the sections, but another colleagues came and assist me today. (What's going on? am i helping others or being helped?)

I changed my policy (mandarin). the situation really change. Senior did communicate with me and ask me to join them for this Friday badminton session. Meanwhile being invited by colleagues for 'Dream Box' (karaoke) this Friday also. Thanks for the invitations.

English or Mandarin?

Result for semester 3, 2008/2009 has been announced last thursday. I was delighted that i manage to pass all subjects including the subject (forensic accounting) which worry me the most. I really can't imagine how can i answer the question long winded without really understand what question requested. I have been worrying that subject ever since final.

Ok, back to internship program. For the past 1 week, i have been learning on auditing the dormant company, i won't know the outcome until the senior done reviewing part. Anyway, somehow i feel uneasy and learn nothing although i myself who deal with that company alone, quite some complicated feeling packed in my brain.......am i doing the right thing?

In facts i'm still confusing why should i do this and that, what i have done so far was just follow the last year report and some other extra or edited audit adjustment. Maybe i have weak accounting basic, i don't really understand why i have to do this and that....blablabla....

so confusing.....

Besides, i really worry my English speaking environment as most of the colleagues here don't really communicate english to each other. Most of their conversation are in mandarin, if i insist on my way, i will never get a way to mix with them. Not a single chance. For your information, Muar is a small town, their language usage mainly on Hokkien, mandarin or mix. What should i do now??!!!

p/s: no matter how, i must 'dig' a way out!

Missing him badly

For the last 3 years, i was spending most of my time with him.....study.....shopping...lunch....dinner...breakfast....supper or even brunch. Whenever i was exhausted or bored towards studies, life...he will color my life, change it to better and create surprises for me.

Unlike now, after a tiring work, i can't meet him immediately or daily....somehow...i miss my used life.

I am counting down my days to meet him.

Industrial Training Period

I believe most of them Epsilon-First semester Accounting undergraduates from MMU are having their industrial training in either audit firm or commercial company. Of course, i'm won't be the exceptional. However, the only difference between me and others is i was just reported myself yesterday and for others, yesterday was their 6th working day. Ya, i took one week off to unpack and 'reconcile' my ixora life to home life.

Ya, although im having my industrial training at my hometown, but it doesn't mean that i won't be as independent as i am. The only difference is that i have water heater in my bathroom and home cook food.

During the period when i am trained as trainee in SC Lim, Ng & Co, i thought i was having 4 weeks short term experience in TCGA, with such, i can catch up faster. However, i was wrong. The audit system and accounting system are totally different and we were told to follow the style and system they employed.

During the first day i was assigned a dormant company and was given a pack of stationery with full set of stationery set needed. i took a hard and tough time to understand what is going on. I can only apply some knowledge learned from MMU or i can say actually i am only manage to absorb the 'some' knowledge, that's why i can only apply that much of knowledge. Only that i realized i have to combine and fully understand what i have learned for the past 9 semester/3 years/36 months/144 weeks/1095 days.

However, i still believe, it will be fine even though i start understand the concept well during practical and i believe all of the trainee can get better understanding towards the usage during practical.

Wish you guys all the Best of Luck in training!

Ixora Apartment A-08-03 (4)- LAST NIGHT

My last night at Ixora Apartment A-08-03 (4). Ya, i got all confusing and complicated feel towards all these. I feel so so so so unreluctant to leave here although i used to complaint so much.

May God Bless Forensic Accounting paper

Today is my last paper, our of my expectation, i screwed up my paper. Ya, I screwed up. Why? I wonder, i have no concentration at all, i dun even know what the questions want. I just look into what i saw and read then threw up everything i have in my mind,Just write and write, i feel like i am a machine rather than a thinker. I dunno what i write in my answer sheet, so far i know i just write and write nonsense until second booklet.

My conscious comes to me when the clock pointed to 10.30am, only that i realized one and a half hour left and i still have 3 question remains. What's going on to me? isn't it, i should have at least manage to finish 3 question, cause i know i need one hour for my case study. I know that. How can you imagine the speed for me to answer my question?

So what i can do? i just rush, rush, rush, all i left is half an hour for my case study, i din really make myself understand what question ask me to do, all i did is just write. To be informed, Ms Zauwiyah paper is mainly application paper, if i dun understand it, what i threw out will be ended up nothing / rubbish.

I feel down and depression. I dunno what i can do now. I know i do nothing to help this paper, but i really unable to calm myself down, my heart yelled, soared, and crying for pain. However, i feel numb to be showed all these to my expression. This remind me the time when i was at STPM. I feel the same too. Maybe i have over stress, until i couldnt eat or sleep well.

What can i do now except pad my own shoulder and say 'Is alright! Yen, is alright!'

Final Exam Trimester 3, 2008/2009

It has been a long time since i updated my blog. I was busying with final preparations actually. In facts, it does not progress much as expected. Maybe my determination is not strong enough for preparation or that problem actually lies on my talent? I am really not talent enough for accounting? Or no matter how hardworking i am, i am still a dropout?

I really dunno.

Finally, today is second last paper, Advanced Taxation. This is the paper im kind of interested and invested more effort in compare to other subject, but unfortunately, i did not do well in midterm. However, i trying hard to sway my attention away towards final instead of mourning over that unfortune. So, my last paper will be forensic accounting.

Then why am i here to blog in facts my final still go on? Hah...i dunno also, not that i have well prepared for this subject, just that i just realized time flies and it has been such a long time i did not blog.

As for the 3 papers ahead, accounting theory and strategy i leave it to God as i have done my best, if it still cant work well, what can i do? Third paper, was advanced management accounting, unexpectedly a question which excluded in our syllabus although it is covered before under management accounting 2. Anyway, i have forgot what i learned before. This make me realized how am i going to face my challenges in my up coming training period.

Yamaha Stagea DDK-7

For your information, the organ type for previous post, played by Mr Leon. The model is Yamaha Stagea DDK-7. Here is the information: Stylish & High Performance STAGEA DDK-7 DDK-7 brings a fresh, stylish look to the STAGEA line-up. The sound and versatility is everything you expect from a STAGEA, but the more compact body is easier for set up and de-assembling.

Features Highlight:- • Expand your creative range with the DDK-7 full size 49-key upper keyboard and 61-key lower keyboard. • Freedom to express yourself utilizing Yamaha’s AWM technology and a 4-layer design, the STAGEA’s cutting-edge tone generator lets you combine instruments in ways that until now have been impossible. Be exposed to a wealth of expressive instruments and sound that fits your every image: 415 voices, 274 rhythms, 288 registrations. • Easy to read LCD puts you in direct control. The 6.5 inch color touch-panel display is touch sensitive and allows you direct access to parameter controls from the screen. • Shares registration data with other STAGEA series instruments*. Your registration data can be stored in a flash memory stick or other external media for use by other STAGEA instruments. • The DDK-7 may not be able to reproduct some ELS-01 features.

The STAGEA DDK-7 is packaged with State-of-the-Art Yamaha powered monitor speaker, MSP5 with matching stand and connection cables.

印象麻坡-40周年摄影公会

I found my dream back....that has been lost for quite some time since when i enter mmu. I really lost track with music. In my memories, i know music is in my heart. but somehow, due to lack of time (someone might say is excuse, yes, i do admit that, all blame to my bad time management).

Yesterday, i went back home for dinner by ‘印象麻坡-40周年摄影公会’, my beloved father is one of the committee in the association. This is also the first time i saw my father in tie and balzer, actually not bad lo, i can say. Then my father told me, actually he feel awkward wearing in this suit. No matter how, He looks really nice that day.

'Dad, i'm proud of you actually!'

At that night, was also the night i found my lost dream back. Ya, indeed. There was a organ performers. In facts, i had been bothered by bad mood throught out that dinner. However, everything change when the organ pianist perform on the stage, he catched all my eye sight and attention. For your information, being a piano or keyboard performer was, no is 'IS' my dream. He played 4 songs in 2 session. When he first play the songs, he turn my mood to joy, the songs start to bring me in my own world. (Ya, i can say, i have been in my dream world since yesterday, and it last till today, at least the moment i write the blog here.)

' He is Leon Law, an instructor of music school'

To be frank, i can feel the touching, i burst our tears (of course not in front of others). Ya , i did get touched by his music. I burst our tears is because finally i found my dreams that i actually long lost it since i enter mmu, from that day onwards, i feel so lost and my life was like empty, and i lost my control over my emotion. Now, i found out why. Why my emotion turn out to be so bad and changing faster than weather almost everyday?!

I used to calm myself down with my piano that i leave it alone for such a long time d. My piano used to be my beloved friend who accompany me whenever im happy or sad. Ya, the piano was my soul. I feel lost when i lost piano enthusiasm.

Reality doesn't suit me at all. I choose to stay inside my music world forever and ever.

Movie #5 K-20: Kaijin Niju Menso Den

This movie watched on April 14 with KP.

The trailer mentioned, the K20 robbed rich and helped poor. However, i wonder when i watched this part inside the movie. I wonder when.......

The most funniest part in this movie was when the junior of the famous detective was trapped by Sister and group of children singing in order to delaying the time.

成功转换方法看待困境

我正尝试如何从歇斯底里‘逃生’。对， 是‘逃生’。

昨夜， 一连串的失望， 真心被忽视， 甚至被践踏的感觉， 已经让我不再相信， 不再真心付出了。

• 我真心对待我的妹妹们， 就算我不在家， 可是看见什么他们喜欢的事物， 只要我负担得起， 我都会送他们 （虽然， 这因此拖延了我买新手机的计划， 可是， 我不在乎那一年的拖延）可是， 他们对待我就像我对他们好是理所当然的， 是应该的。 我们的关系到最后还是像陌生人一样， 我永远回家都像在留宿。 临走前， 要把枕头， 被单以及一切我‘留宿’是所拿出来的东西收起来， 差别只是我不用付住宿费， 还有爸妈的护送。‘我回去只是为了我父母’， 这句话是我近几个月来回家的理由。
• 下课了， 心想他的演说准备得怎样？想去探望他。 看见他时， 突然人有三急， 忙着将手里的手提袋交给他， 近2分钟出来后， 他怎么不见了？这时， 惊见他从图书馆出来， 再从图书馆外那个无盖式的架子， 拿出我的手提袋给我， 然后二话不说，从我身边离去！（我刚刚是把我存了1年的积蓄才买的新收机， 我的身份证， 我的驾驶执照， 我的皮包交给一个像在以前式， 购物商场里的事物保管处吗？）

这两者的人， 都不值得我为他们真心付出吗？

对， 因此我歇斯底里了。 我失望了！我后悔了（我记得有人告诉我， 在这事件里， 不要怪为什么别人践踏你的真心；你要怪自己为什么相信他们， 再把真心拿出来给人家有机会践踏）我听明白了这句话。 我也接受这句话的解释。

所以， 与其靠别人安慰， 或在那里歇斯底里， 我擦干了眼泪， 收拾了心情， 把我还在钻牛角尖的心情成功换成什么才是我能控制， 什么才是我该做的事。 结果， 我打开了电脑， 开始我的功课至凌晨。

那种看着清晨的阳光，还有带着成功安抚自己的情绪， 入眠的感觉， 我相信了我自己， 我更爱上了我自己。

回忆*游神

在魔力咖啡馆的时候， 我听见了， 周董-安静 与 宇恒-依然是朋友。 突然间， 我的回忆在我脑海里闪过两个人的影子。 那是我17 与 18 岁月的回忆。

前者让我知道， 通过电话听筒听别人唱歌的浪漫是怎样的； 后者让我知道一个男生对女生应有的呵护与风度。

Gathering with FC, HP, SY & LH

At first it was just a dinner gathering, but then it ended up we gather around and chit chat beside of swimming pool at ixora for about 2 hours. And it did not end there, yet we continue the chatting session at Mori Cafe. Ya, i quite enjoy the environment that day and im pretty sure everyone there feel the same too. We have non-stop topic. The topic is mainly about the generation gap, what are the game we used to play when we were young, what are latest favourites and hot issues mmu'ians are talking on, movie la and blablablablabla......

From here, i admit i do have generation gap with lots of person here but less in this group. Im kinda understand now, im so conservatice until i never updates with new issues, latest news, games and so on. No wonder i cant get a long with my siblings. HP was right, maybe they dislike & hatred me on the matter why am i bac and interrupt their life . Moreover, they feel like their living environment is far more comfortable during the period which im not around. And i admit, i get disappointed with this also.

• I was thinking am i not good enought for them?
• And i too conservatice towards them?
• Am i that bothersome for them?
• Am i so annoying for them?
• CONCLUSION: WHY SHOULD I BOTHER? IS IT MY FAULT?

What i need to do is live with whatever style im comfortable with. It is all nothing to do with them. For me, home is the place for me to sleep, rest, eat and watching tv series.

p/s: please dun tell me i shouldn't this and that....... i will be better when i dun give hope to anyone or anything i couldnt get any impact like disappointed d. I get enough!