Pessimistic, please leave me alone!

Insomnia again!!

Of course i know i need rest at such hour. Whenever the event getting closer, brain remain max capacity, become emo with no reason.......i will insomnia. Why is it happen to me all this while? I have tried to be optimistic, i did , just that the luck is not with me yet. Why am i still bothering over something which i thought i have 'forgive' and 'forget' long time ago?

When the writing doesn't compatible with what is in my mind or when my mind kejap went blank kejap packed, i know it is time for me to rest. However, can i really rest instead of on and off the light/on off the laptop for dunno how many times in 15 min?

Random

• Can i overcome the problem which we went so far? ('WENT' doesn't mean is over ya)
• Can i gain back my confidence?
• Can i 'forgive' but not just 'forget' to whatever u have done?
• Can i mature enough to accept whatever 'childish' thingy you will do?

Don't give up till the last moment!

I was having a chat with his mum during the clear-up after dinner. She understand how i feel towards the unfairness attitude from my father's side parent. When i mentioned this issue, i always get agitated. I wonder why am i behave like zero-EQ? Whenever i was agitated upon that issue, i realized i will burst out tears. This what make me feel more speechless, why should i depressing over THEIR problem?! That is THEIR misbehave, why should i bother so much!

1. It is none of my business!
2. It doesn't mean good times won't turn to me!
3. It doesn't' mean that i can't change the current situation with my effort now
4. It doesn't mean that i can't do anything
5. AND I WILL STRIKE FOR IT FOR SURE

When will be my days?

My pleasant days haven't come. When will it be? Should i just wait here? No, i don't think so. I have to strike for it. I wasn't haven enough luck for my life. So, i have no choice but just strike for it.

• My day hasn't come doesn't mean that my day has ended!!!

Difference between relationship & friendship

After IVAQ 2009 meeting, i remember that KP mentioned he is be somewhere in mmu waiting for me, in facts i dunno why he said this as he never waited for my meeting before. Then i received his msg, asking whether my meeting is ended and so on. So, i take it as he is waiting for me somewhere in mmu.

Then i call him and inform him that my meeting is ended. When we meet.....

• KP: wanna go out for supper?
• Me: ah? supper? i thought we just makan? at around 730pm.
• KP: then u wanna go bac ixora and rest right?
• Me: i think so (thinking maybe he ask me again, most probably i will accompany him)
• KP: oh, i knew u will said u are tired after meeting, so i have ajak Alvin for supper. I will go meet
• him after fetching u bac ixora.
• Me: ...... (so he has his plan d....)
• KP: (notice im speechless) i can still accompany you also.
• Me: no need. since u ajak d, just go ahead (thinking i acc him, mana tau terbalik pulak he said he can acc me?!)

p/s: I might as well go bac on my own la, why i need u to fetch me back?) if he is my friend, he wont come purposely and fetch me back; so he only do that when he is my bf right? (the difference between i walk back alone or go bac in people's car, no mater how, the destination still at ixora)

Director of Public Relation Division #1

Today i got a good news from my friend, LH. She told me that one of the sponsor expressed that they feel amazing with the action that we are able to contact and welcome varsities with accounting subject from the Semenanjung Malaysia to come all the way to Melaka here to take part in Inter-Varsity Accounting Quiz 2009.

In facts, when i get this comment, i asked myself, did i ever think of this action of getting approval of the varsities to join IVAQ considered as amazing? My answer is 'NO'. However, I feel impressed when i heard this comment. Then i rethink, i found out that actually the sponsor had his point in this statement also. Why should they join our event? Do they possess any obligation to come all the way down here for competition? The only anser i have in my mind now is ' They are pursuing the knowledge and exposuring themselves to all other varsities'.

Ya, this is my answer in my mind when i asked the question myself. I admit that some varsities are not actually very 'famous' or known by everyone. This what i found when i first look at the list of varsities which offer Degree in Accounting. At first i thought that is my problem. However, after that i found out that some of them have same problem like me also. So, i feel great to play a role to introduce new varsities with Accounting course in this event.

Everyone sure familiar with UM, UPM, USM, UKM and so on. However, anyone know what is UDM? Hah, i got u!!! Actually UDM is Universiti Darul Iman Malaysia, some other examples like

• UPSI (Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris)
• Unisel (Universiti Industri Selangor)
• MSU (Management & Science University)

So, i found my satisfactory from this post. I did learn alot of experience, sponteneous when contacting the person in charge, learn on how to conduct a meeting, learn on how to lead the whole division to be a part of the event and so on.

暴风雨中的彩虹

近几个星期以来，我可以形容自己真的过得很辛苦。会计学会的活动真的一直就挂在我心上，就连新年我也是在想，到底还有什么事情，是我该准备，而又被遗忘的呢？我明白，假期时间没有人在工作，可是，假期后呢？一定又有人在我背后说我太过紧张了吧？）不是的，我只是想全心全意把我分内的事情给做好。

虽然这几个星期，我过得很痛苦，可以说是心情跌落谷底，在外受到不认同的对待，在感情上又得不到男朋友的谅解，我独自一个人承受精神上的压力，都快崩溃了。但是，在这些挫折的背后，我明白了一些道理，是我一直都不明白的道理，我明白他说的，当一个人失败时，那个人会在所不惜地把握任何一个机会;现在我明白了，我开始明白当初我不谅解他的痛苦了。另一道彩虹是，我负责的部门，破了纪录，得到39组全国各个大学，学院以及大学学院的热烈支持，让我们今年的组破了历史以来最高29组的纪录。这也让我明白，天下只要你有付出，就会有收获；要是你一开始就放弃自己，那这道彩虹永远也不会出现了。

P/S: 我们身边最大的敌人永远是自己！