Gathering with FC, HP, SY & LH

At first it was just a dinner gathering, but then it ended up we gather around and chit chat beside of swimming pool at ixora for about 2 hours. And it did not end there, yet we continue the chatting session at Mori Cafe. Ya, i quite enjoy the environment that day and im pretty sure everyone there feel the same too. We have non-stop topic. The topic is mainly about the generation gap, what are the game we used to play when we were young, what are latest favourites and hot issues mmu'ians are talking on, movie la and blablablablabla......

From here, i admit i do have generation gap with lots of person here but less in this group. Im kinda understand now, im so conservatice until i never updates with new issues, latest news, games and so on. No wonder i cant get a long with my siblings. HP was right, maybe they dislike & hatred me on the matter why am i bac and interrupt their life . Moreover, they feel like their living environment is far more comfortable during the period which im not around. And i admit, i get disappointed with this also.

• I was thinking am i not good enought for them?
• And i too conservatice towards them?
• Am i that bothersome for them?
• Am i so annoying for them?
• CONCLUSION: WHY SHOULD I BOTHER? IS IT MY FAULT?

What i need to do is live with whatever style im comfortable with. It is all nothing to do with them. For me, home is the place for me to sleep, rest, eat and watching tv series.

p/s: please dun tell me i shouldn't this and that....... i will be better when i dun give hope to anyone or anything i couldnt get any impact like disappointed d. I get enough!

Movie #4 Fast & Furious

Last Wednesday, right after his midterm, we went MBO for the show. Nothing can stop can to go for a movie freely even though without any complimentary tickets. Although some of you might say, watching a show so frequently is such a waste. Yet that is a way of our relaxing and pressure releasing, so, it is worth than anything.

Obviously i won't choose this show. Ya, right. He made the decision this time. So we manage to make ourselves available for 10.30pm show. And it is obviously also, that even thought im watching the show, and he keep laughing during the show; but i'm actually dun really understand why he laugh. Since everyone was laughing for certain parts, i think maybe im one of the minority who dun really understand the car term, jargon which confusing me. However, it did reach my target of relaxing anyway.

This is the show about Toretto, an international criminal, does not wan to drag his gf into troubles, and decided to leave her. Few years later, the gf was murdered. In order to get the culprit behind, he take part in a race which lead by the clues- nitromethane. This movie show how true and deep is the bf's love towards the gf. He couldn't make himself comfortable when he knows his gf was murdered. He wanna revenge and get the main culprit behind.

I think guys will prefer this movie.

She get sick= roomate's fault

So happenly, i get to surf and read blog, and saw one sentence like this 'i get sick because of infection by roomate' this sound all right, but it does not when i am the 'roomate',

• i admit i do get sick since March 16, and getting better at March 18.
• March 20 she went bac to hometown
• she get sick at March 22,

Does it all my fault? She get sick at hometown, JB. I wonder how come my infection can travel from Malaca to JB, even drive journey take 2 and a half hour.

Doesn't mean it all nothing to do with me. There is the possibility she get the virus also, but then if she is healthy enough she should be fine; if not, how come it takes 4 days to get sick and 2 out of that 4 days i wasn't with her. Furthermore, i still study at Mori during my sickness period (those 3 days). We met even less and less. I do scare she might get infected, so i stay out for my revision. Ended up, she get sick and i was accused as main culprit.

All gone for my efforts and consideration towards her. I get so so so disappointed.

乐观的想法很重要

开始容易, 维持难!

想要在朋友, 男友, 与本身之间做个平衡的安排, 真的很考技巧. 像我就真的坦诚我做不到:

• 太没自信
• 可能顾虑得太多
• 太习惯有他的陪伴
• 太习惯他的包容与迁就
• 太不习惯他告诉我, 要我一个人吃午餐

当他告诉我的时候, 我以为这就是我想要得结果, 想要的自由. 渐渐的, 我的内心有股小失望, 心寒. (为什么呢? 我开始发现我其实也不太明白自己)

我到底怎么了? 我太感情用事, 还是占有欲太好胜? 还是不相信了呢? 坦白说， 我真的还有时间在考虑这些我也控制不到的事情吗？就算能， 我想也只是这阵子吧？我不该把目标移位吗？ 要是， 这些小事， 我也得操心， 那我不是很忙? 有意义吗？

我再不改变思想， 我大概永远也不会快乐了吧？

我想要每天操心的日子吗？他要离开， 就算我‘绑’的住他的人， 也‘绑’不住他的心吧！那何苦为难自己呢？他也有自己的朋友， 自己想要的日子啊！

Movie #3 Confession of Shopaholic

• Nice storyline? not really
• High rating movie? moderate
• Like it? i think so if not i won't post it here
• Enjoy it? Ya..
• 'Terasa'? Somehow.....

Anyway, overall is ok. Click here for plot of the movie.

Somehow, i have 'terasa' just because of i 'so happenly' get myself a backpack and also a formal shirt. Just pass by....choose....and pay for it.

I'm realized im currently can made up my mind in shorter time. This shown from the speed of my way of shopping. As long as i can make it valuable and within my capability , i'm sure won't let it go from my hand. Haha.....Is it a good thing? At least no more hesitating.

爱情

‘听了电台的一名女听众， 向主持人哭诉自己深爱的男友坦诚出轨了， 要求结束三年的感情。 衷心耿耿的女听众始终放不下她那深爱的他， 还等着悬崖勒马的他。 可是， 要是他悬崖勒马了， 她还能像以前一样相信他吗？她为他所失去的青春不可惜吗？ 失去三年光阴是要不回的了， 难道还值得在耗在多的青春吗？她得到的伤害不会留疤吗？’

很明显的她在守护着他€她所付出的感情。 可是， 对方却不值得她这么样的为他牺牲。 希望她能够找到对她最好的解脱。

想着。。。。。想着。。。。。突然好有想法：

没有信任的爱情是不会永久的。我相信， 我真的相信。 要在两人之间制造出信任真的需要很适量的相处时间。可是， 要是之间发生了任何突发状况， 我相信信任也不会变成100%。

难道一次突发状况足以被判罪吗？我相信， 我愿意再重来， 重新接受相信爱情的考验。 可是， 不会再是以往的方式， 我会换个方式来继续接受考验， 希望我这样的一个决定不会错， 也希望你不会令我失望。要是到最后， ‘原来‘ 发生了， 我会当是让自己上了人生宝贵的一课， 做出对自己最好的决定。

没有爱存在的爱情能永恒吗？我相信因人而异， 要是一段感情长期处在于没有爱的情况下， 要长久， 也因该需要相当的 ， ‘双方‘ 的努力。我深信感情是可以在双方努力， 缘分与造化的情况下建造的。

First Phone of mine ever

Sony Ericsson W595-Cosmopolitan White

One of my to-do list will be erasing soon. Any information interested towards this phone, click here