今天是天公诞-初八

这几天， 我都找借口让自己加班。加到我很饿了， 也将近8点了， 就随着公司最后一个人离开公司。因为我不想一个人回家一个人面对墙壁， 起码公司不止我一个人。现在才知道，原来我也有选择让自己加班的一天。

由于现在还在新年， 外面热闹沸腾， 笑声不断，这更显示我特别孤寂。尤其昨天是人日，我特别想家，我不想一个人过人日！可我还是一个人过， 真的好不喜欢，热闹过后的那种安静。虽然，我已经让自己有一顿对我来说很奢侈的午餐了， 对自己不错了。可是， 我还是不开心。我好想念新年热热闹闹，忙里忙外，赶来赶去，熬夜与妹妹们聊天，选择隔天要穿的衣服，等等。。。。。。现在只有我一个人在熨衣，写部落格。

今天是天公诞，听着外面的鞭炮， 噼里啪啦的， 房里更显得寂静的可以。虽然有时我很喜欢一个人的感觉， 但是这么大的变化， 总得时间来适应吧！第三天工作了，可是感觉好像还是新年。

昨晚忍着抽咽的语气，向妈妈撒娇说， 今天放工后，我想回家吃饭。妈妈以为我在开玩笑， 说‘哎哟，都这么大了，还想家哦， 那妹妹在吉隆坡不是更惨？’ 我什么也没说，只是努力把抽咽的语气拼命吞下去。我也明白， 可是我是真的真的很想回家。我想说 ‘妈， 你知道我为了不要回家一个人面壁过新年， 我选择在公司加班？！’ 新年佳节期间一个人过，真的很难受。

外面的鞭炮越来越频密了。。。。。。是快到十二点了吧！脑海里又出现那种，小舅们让我们围着门栏， 看他们放鞭炮，很是开心。我想我真的老了，因为我已经或在回忆过去了。

Chinese New Year 2011

There gone my half year of working experience at Ernst & Young. That time i said goodbye to Year 2010, here i'm gonna say hi to Year 2011 for lunar calendar, the festival i love the most as i can have lotsa angpao, but my wishes for Chinese New Year change from year to year. When time pass by, my wish of getting lotsa angpau change to having gathering with family and friends.

Yes especially when i'm now in working life, i cannot set my own chinese new year holiday as i wish. This make me cherish the limited time i applied to be with my parents, siblings and grandparents. Therefore, i have applied 3 days extra starting from 1 of Feb. Someone might think i applied too many holidays but somehow i know i need to cherish the time when i still can together with my family members as peak period for personal tax is coming, next i will need to focus on my CPA exam which held in May and subsequently is another peak period for company tax. In short i will have tight timetable from Mac to Aug.

I just came back from Jusco Bandaraya Melaka with 3 yeo's packet drink and some toiletries. Since i'm working now and short of time on spring cleaning (although i do go back every weekends in December for spring cleaning but i don't think it help much), i think i shall contribute more to this festival lo.

Before i fallen asleep after the shopping and tiring working hours, i shall wish everyone around me, including my parents, siblings, grandparents, kp, relatives, best friends - CLH, Winnie, TKC, KXL, KYJ, TLY, friends and so on....

Happy Chinese New Year 2011

Working Life - random

Recently i received a file from my ex-colleague and told me that i need to file the personal tax in different way as this person has just passed away. Haiz....dai ga tai li (this is my first time handling personal tax yet he was telling me this. Ok, no choice, so i read up and investigate the file.

Surprisingly, the deceased is my secondary schoolmate's father !!! It was such a sudden storm to me. Then i look at the age, he was 53 years old only. Although she is just my hi-bye friend with some disputes, but i will still send my condolence to her in my heart. I hope her family and her will still hang on and move on to their journey.

Preparation towards peak period is welcoming and preparing by everyone of us as we are not willing to stay overnight at office for last minute file anymore. The personal tax file and company file has been distributed among us. And i already got around 30 file for each category to be done in one month time or 6 weeks times. Im sure i won't have time to refer back to what i have studied.

SO, revised now !!! no, should be STUDY NOW !!!

CPA Australia Result Out!!!

CPA Australia again.

Last Friday (10 December 2010) was a important date for CPA to release the result. Before this date, we, candidate will receive an official letter from CPA Australia with the content of username and id to be key in to reveal our own result. The result release time stated in the letter is 1800 AEDST (is also called Australian Eastern Daylight Saving Time), in other word, it is 1500 Malaysia time.

I told myself to accept whatever result it is as that is my 'fruit' of the whole month of struggling with newly adapting to the exam format, professional level, fear of facing failing and so on. Luckily there is Esther in the office, waiting for the time. ...tick tok tick tok... (every movement of mine seem following the seconds of the clock) Finally Esther got her result, im holding my letter with password and ID yet i have no courage to key in. After struggling for half an hour, i decided to face the reality. I feel ease at the moment i the result appears......i PASS my first CPA Australia paper, meaning to say i can proceed on to my 2nd paper, 3rd paper till i finish all my paper d. Hurray !!! Yes, indeed, this achievement of mine will pump in more confidence in myself for no regretting on whatever decision i have made so far.

Come to think of it, i was just passing through 5 months plus with adapting new working environment, peak period, choosing which professional paper, then starting preparing my paper, attending exam, preparation of firm's annual dinner, rehearsal dancing, till CPA result release. Wow, i can't imagine, i have come this far without my awarenes.. SO am i considered grown up? Hehe, i can't judge myself by now, but i'm sure time will judge and correct me to the path i should at.

Time for sentenced approching~

Counting down around 17 hours and 36 minutes.....

This is really a hard time to face the reality and truth. This is so torturing. I couldn't really sleep well or normalised my daily life.

I hope and pray for acceptable result.

Please pray hard for me too if u wish to. To be frank i need it ~ Thanks a lot : )

好有感触的星期日

星期日晚上都是我特别有感触的日子，应该一个星期的结束吧！

星期天也是我想家的日子。这四年多以来，曾有多少个星期天我都是带着‘不甘愿’的想法离开家。可是就是这种想念让我与家人的更珍惜见面的日子。我想保有这份‘珍惜’，就是这份珍惜让我谅解且对家人更有耐心，让我明白那种奇妙的关系。可能人往往就是需要一些遗憾，才能体会。所以，我把这份坚持离开家的决心，来避免我不珍惜，不耐心对待他们。因为面对久了，就不会去付出了。那份付出会慢慢变成习惯。

今天，我撒了一个谎。爸爸妈妈问我‘你在哪？’。我说‘在jusco走走咯’ 爸妈又问‘跟谁啊’。我愣了下，说“男朋友咯”。其实我是一个人漫无目的的在摇晃。我要怎么说呢？若我说一个人，他们又担心，一个人会危险，还是我们俩有什么事情吗？他们为我的事情已经担心大半辈子了。我不可以再让他们担心。我不是要隐瞒我的事情，只是很时候我都不想他们胡思乱想。

今天，跟KC和下午茶，KC提起了她，又正好看见雪花花样的杯子，记得她有阵子很喜欢雪花。不知道现在还是吗？因为想起，所以我尝试简讯她，可惜没有什么回应。不知道她现在怎样了。希望一切安康。

这几个月，那种看不开的心情，真是害得我的人生有了很多的改变。我的执著， 我的看不开，我的迟疑，让我失去了很多， 包括好友还有感情。好友，没联系了；感情，有见没见，没关系了， 忽冷忽热的感情，我没有信心维持， 只能听天由命。结果，自信心也没有了。开始，把寄托放在工作和家人那。可是，值得庆幸的是，我还有寄托可言，不然失去目标， 寄托的生活，我真的不知如何走下去。（算有些开朗吧！）

马六甲-粥之家

今天拿了mc在家休息。喉咙，口腔都被细菌感染。不能吃太硬的食物。结果午餐选吃吃潮州粥，像是家乡普通佳肴，但是对于我们这种成天在外，这种食物真是让人回味。

晚上，头脑又是粥了，因为除了粥和豆腐我不懂还有什么可以这么软了。我相信只吃豆腐一定不会饱了。所以又是粥。这回我想到-粥之家，这间店在Melaka Raya, 在好世界酒楼隔一间店。这间听闻很不错的店，一直没有机会尝试是因为，每次经过都客满。终于今天六点半到达，门栏还是关着的。以为今天休息，怎知旁边一位妇女问从店里走出来的人，几点点开张，才知道今天不是休息而是还没开门。乍问之下，才知道，他们是六点营业至半夜两点， 星期天休息。可是刚才他们是将近七点才开门做生意的。

我们点了鸡丝皮蛋粥， 炒饭还有马麦鸡。可是分量真是适合三个人享用。我们俩只好硬着头皮之下去。鸡丝皮蛋粥方面，还算味道鲜美，可是我不太喜欢鸡丝的韧度，喉咙的伤让我无法享受美食。至于炒饭与马麦鸡，虽然我只吃一口，可是，味道真是恰到好处。我希望可以再来尝试别的菜肴。