白兰式鸡精， 万岁！

这几天不知道是怎么了。我很没精神， 发现每天都是在重复， 反复过着一样的日子。没有起起落落， 很平淡，有时是一种福气， 有时是一种折磨。每一个星期， 最期待的莫过于星期五， 不是因为假期来临， 而是我可以回家了。

• 每个星期一，都是最累的日子。因为才从家里回来， 心里不舒服， 所以都会早睡。
• 星期二赶工， 没什么特别。
• 星期三， 想看电影， 没人陪， 就不去了 （原来我也不怎样独立）； 想吃ＢＡＳＫＩＮ　ＲＯＢＩＮ　可是原来一个人吃，是怎么都不会甜的。（不是一定他陪才可以，　因为又一次，与ＭＩＲＩ同事一起吃，　感觉就好棒）
• 星期四，　开始有些开心了，　得开始熨衣服了，　准备下星期的工作服。
• 星期五，　早上就开始收拾包袱，　只差点直接放在车上，　因为一放工，　我回来，可以马上拿着行李回家。

我以为我习惯，　且喜欢这样的生活。原来我开始厌倦了。我好累，　为了工作而工作，　为了更上一层楼我自修。半工半读的生活真的很累，　坦白说工作真的很利用头脑，　很吃力，　有时候，　下午，　眼睛开始模糊了，就只好休息一下。可是，放工后还得读书，真的很难吸收。换个方式想，　那些有家庭的，　回家还得忙带孩子，　侍候家公婆，　又没有自己的时间。让我选的话，　我宁愿为自己而活。起码，我知道我辛苦，我对自己的要求，我知道我在朝着我的方向前进，我知道我要的是什么。可是，对于家庭，　到头来，可能会被老公背叛，　孩子气死，吃力不讨好。对于他们那种为家庭牺牲的同事，我承认我没那么伟大，我佩服他们。

想着想着，　我知道我得加油，努力向前。白兰式鸡精，　万岁！　

米粉汤， 万岁！

像以往的我一样， 又在温书时间里偷闲了。

今天其实我应该算满意自己的表现。NJ 这间公司， 以为两三天都不能把DISPOSAL做完， 结果今天我把DRAFT赶出来了， 还跟MANAGER讨论一番。平时我很不敢跟他们这种阶级的人讨论， 觉得都听不明白，讨论只是自取其辱。今天，我被逼得主动前去向她确定我的PRESENTATION。其实我很怕， 可是后个礼拜我会开始拿假了， 不得不赶快做完。大约三点左右， 我的AMOUNT竟然可以跟ACCOUNT TALLY！ 天啊！

MANAGER向我说了一些疑问，错误的地方 （以前都不明怎么找答案的， 结果到今天都还是错） 幸好我都还可以明白， 向她说明我这么做的原因， 还建议PRESENTATION的方法， 用最PRUDENCE的方式呈现我的答案。SURPRINGLY她接受了（暂时）让我PROCEED。我的却有小小的开心和满意。

放工了， 我留在公司温书， 担心回到家会被网络， 连续剧给迷上了。将近七点， 回到家， 像以往一样， 冲凉，洗衣。当我在准备材料的时候， 不知道是我多疑， 还是AUNTY故意的。我走左， 她也走左；我走右，她也走右。一下擦擦这里， 一下子擦擦那里。平时都不会一吃饱饭就洗碗，都会很迟才洗， 甚至隔天才洗。就这样， 我的米粉倒掉了。不是她弄掉的， 是我在避开他的时候撞到的。她还说 ‘洗了还可以吃的’ 我真是气疯了， 也饿疯了。我把全部都倒掉， 一句话也没有说， 我只说 ‘这么脏，我吃不下！’ 坦白说，我的心里是很气的， 我很想‘劝’她不要这么故意， 我很饿了！！！ 结果， 她看我气到了， 才说‘我让你煮先吧！’ 我什么也没说， 我不可能说‘谢谢’ 吧！ 我只能尽量管住我的口， 不然我会开骂， 结果我的心里是‘想说’早该这样做吧’！！！ 以为今天不用跟那位三岁的同事有沟通， 今天算是幸运天！ @#￥%！@￥@#￥% 可是其实还好不是煮好的米粉， 只是材料， 当少吃点， 减肥！可是明天想说去MCD吃免费早餐（如果固本可以用的话）可以省下， RM4.50 （扣掉邮费RM4）也很好， 还有早餐吃， 好开心！

由上看到下， 发现自己真的很善变。

其实， 又怎么算是善变呢！没人安慰， 自己生气，自己安慰自己，其实也是一种能力， 一种独立。前几天，YM， 我们公司的新同事， 才说我很独立。我有些高兴， 起码我不会太依赖别人。想说其实， 我是被环境所逼的。其实我也不想天天吃一样的东西，可是我很懒惰想， 又不能买很多材料，每次最MINIMUM的材料， 都可以让我吃上整个月，怎能浪费呢？！除非不吃饭吧， 就不闷， 可是我会很馋，吃更多零食，倒不如，吃米粉汤吧！起码，安全点！

米粉汤， 万岁！

今天是天公诞-初八

这几天， 我都找借口让自己加班。加到我很饿了， 也将近8点了， 就随着公司最后一个人离开公司。因为我不想一个人回家一个人面对墙壁， 起码公司不止我一个人。现在才知道，原来我也有选择让自己加班的一天。

由于现在还在新年， 外面热闹沸腾， 笑声不断，这更显示我特别孤寂。尤其昨天是人日，我特别想家，我不想一个人过人日！可我还是一个人过， 真的好不喜欢，热闹过后的那种安静。虽然，我已经让自己有一顿对我来说很奢侈的午餐了， 对自己不错了。可是， 我还是不开心。我好想念新年热热闹闹，忙里忙外，赶来赶去，熬夜与妹妹们聊天，选择隔天要穿的衣服，等等。。。。。。现在只有我一个人在熨衣，写部落格。

今天是天公诞，听着外面的鞭炮， 噼里啪啦的， 房里更显得寂静的可以。虽然有时我很喜欢一个人的感觉， 但是这么大的变化， 总得时间来适应吧！第三天工作了，可是感觉好像还是新年。

昨晚忍着抽咽的语气，向妈妈撒娇说， 今天放工后，我想回家吃饭。妈妈以为我在开玩笑， 说‘哎哟，都这么大了，还想家哦， 那妹妹在吉隆坡不是更惨？’ 我什么也没说，只是努力把抽咽的语气拼命吞下去。我也明白， 可是我是真的真的很想回家。我想说 ‘妈， 你知道我为了不要回家一个人面壁过新年， 我选择在公司加班？！’ 新年佳节期间一个人过，真的很难受。

外面的鞭炮越来越频密了。。。。。。是快到十二点了吧！脑海里又出现那种，小舅们让我们围着门栏， 看他们放鞭炮，很是开心。我想我真的老了，因为我已经或在回忆过去了。

Chinese New Year 2011

There gone my half year of working experience at Ernst & Young. That time i said goodbye to Year 2010, here i'm gonna say hi to Year 2011 for lunar calendar, the festival i love the most as i can have lotsa angpao, but my wishes for Chinese New Year change from year to year. When time pass by, my wish of getting lotsa angpau change to having gathering with family and friends.

Yes especially when i'm now in working life, i cannot set my own chinese new year holiday as i wish. This make me cherish the limited time i applied to be with my parents, siblings and grandparents. Therefore, i have applied 3 days extra starting from 1 of Feb. Someone might think i applied too many holidays but somehow i know i need to cherish the time when i still can together with my family members as peak period for personal tax is coming, next i will need to focus on my CPA exam which held in May and subsequently is another peak period for company tax. In short i will have tight timetable from Mac to Aug.

I just came back from Jusco Bandaraya Melaka with 3 yeo's packet drink and some toiletries. Since i'm working now and short of time on spring cleaning (although i do go back every weekends in December for spring cleaning but i don't think it help much), i think i shall contribute more to this festival lo.

Before i fallen asleep after the shopping and tiring working hours, i shall wish everyone around me, including my parents, siblings, grandparents, kp, relatives, best friends - CLH, Winnie, TKC, KXL, KYJ, TLY, friends and so on....

Happy Chinese New Year 2011

Working Life - random

Recently i received a file from my ex-colleague and told me that i need to file the personal tax in different way as this person has just passed away. Haiz....dai ga tai li (this is my first time handling personal tax yet he was telling me this. Ok, no choice, so i read up and investigate the file.

Surprisingly, the deceased is my secondary schoolmate's father !!! It was such a sudden storm to me. Then i look at the age, he was 53 years old only. Although she is just my hi-bye friend with some disputes, but i will still send my condolence to her in my heart. I hope her family and her will still hang on and move on to their journey.

Preparation towards peak period is welcoming and preparing by everyone of us as we are not willing to stay overnight at office for last minute file anymore. The personal tax file and company file has been distributed among us. And i already got around 30 file for each category to be done in one month time or 6 weeks times. Im sure i won't have time to refer back to what i have studied.

SO, revised now !!! no, should be STUDY NOW !!!

CPA Australia Result Out!!!

CPA Australia again.

Last Friday (10 December 2010) was a important date for CPA to release the result. Before this date, we, candidate will receive an official letter from CPA Australia with the content of username and id to be key in to reveal our own result. The result release time stated in the letter is 1800 AEDST (is also called Australian Eastern Daylight Saving Time), in other word, it is 1500 Malaysia time.

I told myself to accept whatever result it is as that is my 'fruit' of the whole month of struggling with newly adapting to the exam format, professional level, fear of facing failing and so on. Luckily there is Esther in the office, waiting for the time. ...tick tok tick tok... (every movement of mine seem following the seconds of the clock) Finally Esther got her result, im holding my letter with password and ID yet i have no courage to key in. After struggling for half an hour, i decided to face the reality. I feel ease at the moment i the result appears......i PASS my first CPA Australia paper, meaning to say i can proceed on to my 2nd paper, 3rd paper till i finish all my paper d. Hurray !!! Yes, indeed, this achievement of mine will pump in more confidence in myself for no regretting on whatever decision i have made so far.

Come to think of it, i was just passing through 5 months plus with adapting new working environment, peak period, choosing which professional paper, then starting preparing my paper, attending exam, preparation of firm's annual dinner, rehearsal dancing, till CPA result release. Wow, i can't imagine, i have come this far without my awarenes.. SO am i considered grown up? Hehe, i can't judge myself by now, but i'm sure time will judge and correct me to the path i should at.

Time for sentenced approching~

Counting down around 17 hours and 36 minutes.....

This is really a hard time to face the reality and truth. This is so torturing. I couldn't really sleep well or normalised my daily life.

I hope and pray for acceptable result.

Please pray hard for me too if u wish to. To be frank i need it ~ Thanks a lot : )