I need transport!!!!!

I did not go back this week as both my parents refused and kp also seem like not really agree. So i might as well just stay at Ixora blindly and boringly. Last time the time i dun have any bf or transport i can survive, now i dun think i can survive without transport, i feel like going somewhere else to release my tension. But i cnt go anywhere, i request for a car at least at the time he did not use it like this time, ( he went PC fair part time work) Cant he at least borrow his car for me of i were o go anywhere, not just keep staying at Ixora just like that? It is damn boring that he will never understand, i shouldnt listen to them, i should at least go back home. i feel so boring and no appetite at all. Friday, the food court still open so at least i tapao back some food, saturday the food court was like only few stalls open, i dun feel like eating, i might just as well eat biscuits for breakfast and lunch, for my dinner, i asked my roomate to tapao for me, unfortunately, i wonder how the person who do the cooking, the rice all burn, i cant eat at all, cant they have a bit healthy common sense. This burn fried rice sure cause cancer if i finish it all up. No choice if i dun wan get gastric outbreaking. i choose to eat a bit. My mum called, although she knew my condition, but she cant do anything. It's not her fault, is my fault not to insist. Sunday, i wake up at about 11-12pm, i dun feel like wake up actually but i found out no point to stay on bed for the whole day, so i might as well wake up and looking for the light for my life. As i mentioned i wake up at 12pm, so the time i have cereal drink for my breakfast is also the time for lunch. Then i listen to songs and watched "1 litres of tears' for the how many times, i also dunno d. Why should i watch that drama? interesting? Indeed, it is but that is not the main point, it is just because i wanna remind myself, im not that pathetic, i am luckier, although is a bit pathetic to look for this reason but it at least minimize my miserable, i do find a way out for my Sunday. p/s: i need transport badly