Transformation

During last sem's break, i found out what is the most suitable life for me. i am so alone, at first i am so looking forward for this holiday as i planned to have a nice and enjoyable holiday for us and besides that i knew that is the left over holiday for us before he graduated. however, he was so busy with his holiday learning and working planning so i was left behind alone for my holiday. I was so bored everyday, so, i love myself more, i went shopping almost everyday with different accompaniments (they are girls), i start read fashion magazine, exchange magazine with my best friends, i learn a lot of skill on how to change myself to be better and i began to love myself more and more,. i never been this contented before. i learn to match all kinds of clothes that suits me the most, i learn to play with fingers' nail color, and i sleep very early every night, i have wonderful breakfast, i apply mask every week, i take care of my face, skin, my body and my health. i exercise and keep myself fit. i can say i really love myself very much. And i gain my confidence back gradually.

Recently, although campus reopen, and appraoching to week 4, i still love myself as i did last holiday. i sleep at 11 or 12 every night. i apply mask every week, i apply everything on my face, lips, body and even my foot. i will even stretch my body before i sleep, i listen to soft music to make sure i sleep well. i wake up early in the morning, i wont suffer my body with freezing cold water, i will boil water, make myself a cup of cereal drink with honey flavour, do some slight exercise, then bathing and have my favourite breakfst with cocoa cookies and bread. When i choose for my clothes i wont think of which suit will favour others like last time. I choose my suit for the day according to how i wanna wear for the day, mood, or character. Although he said the wild type suit doesnt suit me at all but i dun think the lady with wild clothers will become wild, i just want to have different character of suit for myself whenever i want it.

Yes, we as a lady, we should love ourselver more than others, dun ever think of been loved is not our responsibility or put it like this. Others or bf always have the responsibility to give their love and care for us. In facts they dun have the responsibility on these, but we have, especially to ourself.

p/s:love and care more to ourself than they did will improve our confidence either in inner part or outer part, lif will become better.