'why u seem like very rude to me recently'

'why u seem like very rude to me recently' why? why? why? i keep asking myself also, actually i dun like to behave rude to anyone, include him. however, i cant even control myself, we chat, chat and chat, then so suddenly i feel frustrated and showed my angers to him. i dunno why i behave like that too. is it because im deep in my heart i still angry with all those mistake made by him? i still cant forget about it or leave it? i cant make myself to trust him anymore, i dunno how long it will last, but at least for the time being, i cant, i cant. i have lost the faith and trust between us.