我还是我， 他已不是他

相爱容易， 相处难！我明白这句话的意思。 老早每个人都对我说这样的话， 可是我却相信他-只要真心， 任何难题都能解决。 可是， 事到如今，让我明白了， 真心不一定适合相处。

前两年，一切就像天安排的一样， 一切如此的完美。 偶尔的一些挫折就当作是为我们的感情加温。我们什么都能聊， 学校发生的趣事， 天下政治， 家事， 情事。。。。。 可是， 现在的我们说不上两句话， 就会有意见， 我们不再讨论， 他也只是用通知的口音对我说话。 他甚至不再在乎我的感受， 也一直认为我做什么， 就错什么， 只要他要做的事情， 不管我会怎么想， 他觉得好， 就是好。 在2009年， 他不再是他， 我还是我， 他已不再是我的他， 为何我还得坚持做他的我呢？这还有意义吗？还有吗？

Happy Chinese Ox Year 2009

Happy Chinese Ox Year to everyone. Although it is rather late to congrats everyone, but i believe it is better than never. This is one of the wonderful new year in my life as i ensure my new year full of joy and cheerful. As usual, my first and second day are visiting together with family members. My siblings are bathed with gamble day for the first and second day which influenced by my cousins. They are shouted and laughed cheerfully. Although i did not join them, but i can feel their joy. It was really a console for me by seeing them enjoying their life.

At night, i managed to have a short chat with Mdm Hong, (i was an assistant for her during my holiday work) she changed and guided me all the while. I was forced to communicate with her in english as she unable to speak mandarin fluently. That is my first step to communicate in english. That really make me realized how important the english is. Thanks, Mdm Hong.

Forth and fifth day, i was gathering with chi, yuy and ly. We went shopping together. The shops we went were in sales up to 50%. Only that we realized that buying new clothes after new year is the best choice on saving money.

I realized it is really hard to gether everyone when we are in different major or even occupation. We can only meet our friends and even each other once a year. However, i feel relieved and satisfied enough to have a gathering at least once a year, better than lost contact. I'm really appreciate the chance we were together.

HORRIBLE HOLIDAYS !!!!!

I really don't understand how can i compromise to 'surrender' myself in the list of woking during holiday, especially the ONLY 3 WEEKS (not months, but weeks). Im always the one who enjoy life, not struggle for life. Who cause this life to myself? Who? Am i the one?Am i?

I'm now really haunted in all kinds of emo. My brain seem hanged, a lot of, big bunch of info enter too fast and with huge memory, e:g IVAQ, family affairs, relationship stuff, own healthy problem(once in a month)stress, no time for relaxing at all.....

I need more positive thinking and emotion instead of more time as others. I won't ask for 48 hours or what, i will only ask me high EQ! PLZ!!!

KL Trip for Trimester 2, 2008/2009

Remember i told to myself that i will be going some where else as travelling or whatever purpose and i won't just go back home after my exhausting holiday.

Although everyone will say that going KL is just like going JUSCO from MMU but for me, whoerever i make some effort to go will be a travelling for me.

My last paper was on Friday evening, although there was a chaos after the final, i still able to calm myself and go for appointment with consultants of Elizabeth Arden. On Saturday 11.30pm, i on board to go KL. When i reach KL-puduraya, i was told to go LRT-Pasar Seni to Bangsar and take bus to Midvalley. However, i went to The Garden which is the shopping complex which beside Midvalley together with Chi and her sister. Chi manage to get a set of Elizaberth Arden same as my set. Therefore, we manage to have a learning chance with the consultant at Robinson-Elizabeth Arden who possess over 25 working experience to learn on how to draw smoke eyes. Wow, it really need skills and practices, i don't think i manage to draw at least 1% of hers.

The next day, it was a most harvesting day for this trip. Why am i saying that? It is just because i able to expose myself to Fitness First Concept, this is the first time i really expose myself in an area with full equipped of exercise machine and a exercise room for class like 'attack', 'line dance', and so on ( too many d until i unbale to remember the name). I able to make myself available for a class like boxing or punching with whatever name on. The class stared with rock music and rigid exercise (for me la, i dunno how's others). I just know that i really exhausted for that class. Then we take a rest at a rest corner for a moment before we went for a bath and started our shopping journey at The Curve, Ikea, Ikano. That night, all of us were collapsed, chi's sister is the first one who collapsed. Chi's sister suggested we had our lunch at Ichiban. For me, it was the tastiest ever after unaware of is it due to just after exercise. 3 of us manage to get our own harvest from the shopping journey.

The next day which is also today (Monday), chi went back to work early in the morning and chi's sister fetch me to 1-Utama for taking a bus to KL Sentral and switch to another bus to Kota Raya. During the switching, i told the driver i want go SERI KOTA. Then the driver send me there of course i wasn't go down, i asked the driver how come so fast one, and how am i going to go Pudu from here. He told me 'Salah bus la, you kena ambil bus sebelah sana, bus ini pergi 1-Utama'. i stunged there, i just come from there, it took me 45 mins, don't ever ask me to turn back. Then of course i quickly leave the bus and try ask the pedestrian, In the other way round, i have to aware whether the pedestrian played trick on me and take care of my bag as well. ( very bad wor, want ask people, still aware people, no choice this is the darkness of KL). However, i manage to get there after passing by Chi Chiong Kai to buy the roasted duck from 'Sei Ngan Chai'. Then i bought 1pm bus, since there is 1 and 15 min more to go, i went KFC for my lunch. Why am i choose that place for lunch?

1. Got aircon

2. Nearby

3. Got toilet

4. I dun feel like wasting staying at that hot and smelly place

I reach muar at 4pm. And i walked back to daddy's shop. Along the way, i buy some food as im starving. From here we know that KFC burger really cannot fill my 'perut'. After that, i brrought some roasted duck for grandma and grandpa. She was so delighted to have duck for dinner. After dinner, i realized my back and limbs were in pain. Therefore, i should rest now instead of blogging.

Winnie, my best friend ever

Yesterday, i went back to Muar at 630pm during my hectic and critical period of final time, and come back Malacca within 24 hours. To be frank, i have never been do this before, if i told my parents i will only go back home within 24 hours, usually they discourage me to do this.

As for this time, i knew Winnie will be going back to Indiana, USA on 9 Jan 2009, Friday which is also my last paper till 6pm, i don't think i have enough time to rush back Muar to gather with her. That's why i steal up some of my final preparation time to meet her as i don't know when will be our next gathering. As time constraint, i am just able to spend about 1 hour time at her house and share our girl's talk. For us, time flies, it seem like i just step into her house and there goes one hour . We were just manage to get few photos. Before we leave, we gave a warm hug to each other. This hug comprises of blessing, unwilling to fall apart, all types of feeling inside.

This is a present from Winnie, i was told in one of the state of USA called Texas, there is a street call 'Paige Street'. At first i really thought she purposely go and tear the sign board for me. Luckily she is not, if not i will become the main culprit for the missing signboard. Haha....

Winnie, i will miss you and i love you so much that i feel s over excited whenever i was informed you will be back to Malaysia. Im so delighted. May you have tasted whatever delicacies in Malaysia which you miss them for such a long time. May you enjoy your holiday satisfactory together with your parents, friends and relatives. I wish you all the best for your future. Don't ever forget we had a promise to each other to strike for excellence for our career. Bon Voyage, my dear Winnie.

Final Exam Trimester 2, 2008/2009

Final Exam approaching, which considered as my third last final in my campus life. I was so excited and meanwhile a bit unwilling and realize that time really flies. And this considered as my second last final together with my dear KP. I don't really know whether girls do concern about having final together with their loved one, but i do, i do appreciate the time striking hard for final together with loved one and encouraging each other whoever need the care and console.

For me, once this precious time over, i will never have the chance to enjoy this type of critical period in my future life. Somebody might think of im asking too much but no choice, my character and horoscope decide my thought. For me, all these considered as romantic. See, i do categorised my final as romantic period. I appreciated every moments we had in our life.

And this is my third last final together with my final partner, LH. We used to study and push each other for final. Although we do have stress and high pressure in certain period. We do encourage each other and console each other whenever is need. Thanks, LH for accompanying me for last semester finals. Without you, i can really say i don't know how to spend all these critical and tension period.

Lastly, i would like to thanks my parents, whenever they knew i had exam, im sure have some difficulties in eating and sleeping. My daddy will called me which he won't do it usually, for us he is very strict and hardly communicate ( he never talk to us by using phone more than 1 min), but now he will remind me to sleep well, eat well, relax la.....blablablabla......although these might be nonsense for someone else, but for me, im really appreciate it lo. I do tried before, when i have serious homesick, i told my daddy that i miss him badly then i asked him whether he miss me, surprisingly he answerer ' YES' (omg, i never dream of he will answer me, normally he will just off the phone or keep himself silent, pretending he did not really hear me, but im sure he hear me because he remain silent, Haha....).

Ok, now my mummy's turn. She will normally urge me go back without having my books with me, she will sure make all types of soups for me. Like daddy, she will say 'she miss me also' whenever i told her i miss her. Haha....although she will be shy, Haha....i wonder why am i so happy when making my parents blushing. Haha....

Anyway, i love you guys......

Hi, Year 2009

Hi, welcome year 2009!!!

Let's hope that this year will be a blessingful year for all of us. Have you guys set any targets to be achieved, remember to set it down and place whereabout visible to you guys ya. Dun like me, till end of year 2008 only realized that i haven't set down the targets.

However, i have done for Year 2009. Hope that all my dreams will come true. So as you guys.

P/S: thanks dear for the gift from Elizabeth Arden ( for those who doesn't know what is it about, is cosmetic)