My 7th Trimester Break in MMU

At last my final over for !st Trimester, 2008/2009 i declare 'MY HOLIDAYS START AT THIS MOMENTS'

i really can't wait for the arriving for the holiday, not because of im lazy and looking for moments to been 'pig' ya. i really have lots of things to do, a list i tell u, anyway, my list still pending, havent out yet. Got dating one, activities one, shopping one, are u the one in my dating list and shopping 'leg'.... coming soon (i mean the list)....haha!!!! "watch out" maybe u r the luckiest one....HaHa...... Of course i will balance my holiday time equally la. i wont just play during my holidays la. Of course shopping wont left out in my list, second preparing ivaq stuff, third reading on all my favourite books (sentimental one i tell u, and comic, HAHA!!!! exclude tect book), then comes to travelling, dunno whether i can have a chance to go for a travelling ..haha... and etc etc..... i dunno what exactly i will do this holiday. as u guys know a lot of uncertainty in this world, so i cant confirm what i will do , what i can do is only planning. Am i right? Hehe....

Happy Holiday......

Demotivated for final

Although only 1 more paper to go, i wonder why am i that upset. Ever since i will be so happy after finishing a paper in the final. However that seem doesnt work on Advanced Auditing paper, i admit i did not have any energy on this paper, i feel very tired and exhausted because i had one paper-Corporate Accounting 1 before that day, That CA paper make me exhausted d. How come? i make mysef to sleep for at least 5-6 hours for Advanced Auditing paper, i feel very upset. i dun really know what ma i answering, all i know is just dun leave it blank. What is going on? can i put some hope to at least give it some rises in my CGPA? i need the rising in CGPA to get a better job in the future. What can i do now? On the other way, my tax Mdm Lim, she posted tax supplementary paper scope on MMLS, implying that many of us failed in tax final, she hope we can at least pass the supp? this is what she posted, that really demotivated me.

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Supp paper for tax 2 : For those students who didn't do well in the final, pls revise the same topics as in the final paper. . Please be reminded that should you fail the supp paper, you will have to spend another year in MMU. So please take this advice seriously. Remember marks must be earned and not be begged! Then success will taste even sweeter when you know you did it on your own! There will be a revision class on 3 Nov (Monday) 2 to 4p.m. the final paper will be discussed So please do all the questions in the final paper before you come. This class will be interactive and you do the asking! I'll be away from 5 - 7 Nov. You may make appointment to see me should u require further consultation

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p/s: maybe getting a pass is better than extend one more year in mmu. May God bless us

Final Exam Trimester 1, 2008/2009

Finalzz........ i just finished my 2 paper, 3 more to go....... By the way, although HR paper is tough, i just dunno why i keep smiling in the MAIN HALL. Hehe.....do u know why? that is my first time having exam in venue same with KP. This is his last year in MMU. Haha.....i was so excited. He was so concentrating in his exam, i noticed he just writing and writing in 3 hours. Opps....i know i should have concentrate my exam also. I really do, i 'study' all 14 chapters for HR d, not 'memorize'. haha......too much for me to memorize the 14 chapters. Anyway, i still feel happy after the exam not only i can have exam in same venue with KP but i know i done my best for the HR paper and i have done 2 paper. Haha..... CA and Audit coming soon on Monday and Tuesday. Have to work harder and smarter...... p/s: why am i here? i should go study d. Hehe....

Suspected 'CHIKUNGUNYA'

When i 'open' my blog, i just realized last posted blog was 16 August........*wordless* So, i think is the time for me to update my personal blog, how come other can update their blog so often and i cant ah? haha....this can be explained....why some of them can have study and working at the same time and some of them cant....... Why am i that busy recently? Hehe.....i dunno also, maybe i dunno how to manage my timetable well ba. by the way, i know what am i busying with this few weeks- i have been busying prepare my final for this first trimester 2008/2009. And at the same time, i have been sick since 24 September, and it last for almost one week, dunno what sickness is that. however, i was told admitted when i went Pantai Hospital, Ayeh Keroh and had blood test at the same time, i was told i suspected 'kena' Chikungunya，i not sure what is that actually but i knew my whole body all pain especially at the joint part, my hands, legs and face are in red rashes, my body get heaty easily but was diagnosed no fever, itchy and no appetite at all. Ohya, as for the admitted stuff, my father brought me bac home from the hospital, because he worry nobody can accompany here, he dun wan to leave me alone here. As a result he brought me back and bring me to chinese sensei and went for blood test. i was told i need more blood test for the comfirmation as the illness still not that obvious yet. that few days i have been stayed inside the aircon room or in front of the fan, as i cant get any heaty, once i feel heaty, my body will full of red rashes. After taking the chinese medicine and western medicine at the same time, red rashes gone gradually. At 1 of October, that was the first day i came out for sun since im sick. I did not go for the second test as i realized im getting better. Im here to take this opportunities to express my special thanks for my parents, KP's parents and KP. My parents have been taking care of me meticulously. For KP's parents, once they knew im suffering from the illness, they are offering their help to bring me for the doctor's consultation when my parents not with me, and KP's father keep updating with my progress everyday. As for KP, he has done everything has has to although he was busying prepare his final. I knew he had enough pressure on this final, so thanks for everything. Im so blesses and satisfies enough with you all around. Thanks to LH also, she helped me for the insurance card stuff when i was told to be admitted, she called around to get the steps and ways for insurance stuff. And she showed her concern continuously when im sick. Thanks for being helping me whenever i need. p/s: i hope i won't be that weak next semester.

Voted as External PR Director for IVAQ 2008/2009

Remember the blog i mentioned i have get the post of external PR for ivaq 2008/2009? i thought i gt the post d. And dunno what happen inside, suddenly the ivaq director said.....they will change the policy and we will be the nominees to be voted by the members? oh ok, i was like......division director post has to be voted by those who are not really know u and ur ability well?

No choice i have to face the reality. Yesterday lh and i went to have our dinner at jing xin at 6.45pm and in fact the election will be started at 7pm. Is weird right? Both of us are the nominees for external PR and marketing division. Yet we are still going for dinner at such hour. Lh was very firm.....'she still makan like .....wow.....delicious.....ok this one taste good....eh, u cant finish it? give me ur vege......' i admit i was very kanchung d. what i kanchung is......how about if i failed later? what to say when i am given 2 minutes time to introduce myself? will i shiver on stage?

Then we reach there at about 7.20pm, luckily the election havent start yet. When i reached there,a girl same class with me approach me....saying that....'once u be the director for external pr, can u take me as ur working com?' i was like.....ah? i dunno will i get the post wo......then i replied....'sorry im not the external PR director yet.

The election started with acounting club nominees.....after that is the refreshment.....we were told that after refreshment will be the ivaq nominees d. i was still....relax.....because it always starts with internal....blababla....only that is external's turn....but out of my surprise....externa PR is the first division and im the first nominee....i was....stucked there and faster go infront of the stage. i started with ' good evening to out advisor, MR Rajah, and every members here. my name is......(then i look bac to the screen, *shock* i forget my own name?) hehe....ok cont, my name is See Chin Yen, and u may call me Paige. erm.....Thanks for those 3 girls who purposely come to support me although they are not accounting students ( yq, gp and xl). previously, i was working com in ivaq in 2 years time for external PR and program. So i can claim that i have 2 years time in Ivaq and i familiar with the IVAQ flow and the operation as well. so...please vote for me, thank you. (although that is only few sentences, i was shivering and i saw MR Rajah laugh at me, im sure he laugh because of my shivering....sien...haiz) after that, yq came to me and told me that if i get the director post, 3 of them wanna join in my external PR as working com.

When the results to be announced, i was so kanchung....i knew my perfomrnace was not really firm and impressive. so i have no confidence at all to get the director post. To be frank if i failed i dunno what i can do d. The result is.....I GET THE EXTERNAL PR DIRECTOR.....but my asst change to another chinese guy. im feel so sry to my asst as appointed last time, he was so dedicated, he prepare all the doc i asked him to last meeting and he waited for me at the entrance to pass me the doc. i can say i feel better to be coorperate v him although he is an indian guy. He din say anything, he just ask me to take him as working com, he will continue to help me in the future. (oopss....i know if i have the negative attitude towards my current asst and sure i wont be able to work v him well in the future, i know i o be frank, i havent talk to my asst, i havent see him once the result out.....

After that i get the applicants form for external PR, i was told my div need 22 wc and some of them has already fixed in the list given by Andy. To be frank i dunno how to choose the applicants, however thanks to hy, she was Ivaq director in yer 2007/2008. she told me that my div need someone who can work well, dedicated, got transport, ca really do work and who has wide network to get the contacts from all uni and colleges in malaysia. im still figuring out what are the criteria i need to look into it and choose my applicants.

Hope that i can be the good leader that care for my wc and appreciate their work, i do hope i can continue to have this kind of drive to complete my task.

'why u seem like very rude to me recently'

'why u seem like very rude to me recently' why? why? why? i keep asking myself also, actually i dun like to behave rude to anyone, include him. however, i cant even control myself, we chat, chat and chat, then so suddenly i feel frustrated and showed my angers to him. i dunno why i behave like that too. is it because im deep in my heart i still angry with all those mistake made by him? i still cant forget about it or leave it? i cant make myself to trust him anymore, i dunno how long it will last, but at least for the time being, i cant, i cant. i have lost the faith and trust between us.

Broken Wings

i still couldnt let it go..........

this few days, i still went out v him, makan v him. the only thing i realized is, im using another identity to be with him, i just avoid myself from remember all those cruel memories, but if im failed, my tears will burst out on spot. it is very amazing one.

i knew he tries his best to make me happy, to twist the situation into better. im sorry, it all seem doesnt work. i just couldnt back to the used me. i just cant.

i believe, every girl in love is an angel from heaven, they willing to break their wings just to stay beside their loved, when they faced problems, they couldnt go back to where they used to be, the only thing they can go is just hiding themselves in a dark hole and trying hard to heal the wound. even when the wound healed, the scar will still there to be seen as they really put in a lot of effort for their loved one. in their mind, they keep imagine how pretty the love is, until they willing to make the first step and give up their wings to go for it. however, they will finally realizd that the love they imagine is not the love in reality. So, no matter how regret they are, they just cant get bac their wings again, the only thing they can do now is only looking at their broken wings with broken heart.

p/s: the wings will never fix back again.