our first mid autumn

today is mid autumn festival. i was thinking of celebrate with him. i remember i did hint him that i wanna light lantern and this means i did celebrate this festival. i knew now is final, but i juz hope he can celebrate our first mid autumn festival without worrying final. i can say i have hint him many times d. i wan surprise but he dun know. so i keep remind him telling him. i know for all of them this is not surprise d. for me, it is. and i like surprise. i mean happy surprise. we had dinner at his house coz his mum cooked. after dinner, he played game. today is mid autumn if he played game, what should i do? i go out and see full moon, no full moon pulak. sien...go in again. seeing him study this time....he didnt know today is our first mid autumn festival? after i telling him , i wanna go bac home d. only that he realized im bored.........he keep finding something to replace lantern.....i said since he din prepare for it, it wont come out now....he stop finding, replace with some candles. cnt even imagine how disappointed i get d. i know i cant wasting my mid autumn juz like that. i rushed bac home. i dun wan my mid autumn juz like that. another thing reveal...im stil waiting him to watch with me in cinema. i have told him so many times d. only that day i heard some one told me no this movie at cinema d. so i give up. ended up, i watch on laptop, makan mooncake, to celebrate 'our first' mid autumn....... for others maybe there is nothing. but for me it will be my memory forever. i wan to keep all of them as sweet memories in my mind forever.i dun wan any regrets in my life. that's y im so disappointed when he did not fulfill his promises. i know it is my retribution because this morning i cancel my appointment with linhui, juz wan to study with him. he will never understand how disappointed i am now. sorry, linhui, im really sorry.......... maybe remain single is the thing i should listen to mummy. if that, i wont get so many sad and disapointed things..........of course no happy thing also.......