自从我来马六甲读书后，父母以及弟妹们开始对我不一样了。父母对我特别客气； 弟妹们对我就像是敌人一样。 为什么会觉得被当成是敌人呢？
我知道我睡相不好， 有时会睡到大妹的位子（双人床）， 她每一次都会弄痛我， 叫醒我， 甚至大声骂。以前的我， 一定会骂回的； 可是， 现在的我， 却静静的躺回去； 听见她在半夜三时分， 还开着摇滚音乐， 要求把声量调低， 可是却被骂， ‘睡你的觉， 别烦我， 你不在的时候， 我也是这样开的， 你不要回来的好， 快回去马六甲吧！’ 不可思议的是， 我什么也没说， 只是静静的哭。 我明白自己好笨， 怎么我会这样？
弟妹们开始对我不满， 就连我生日的晚餐， 小妹借故肚子痛， 不要去；父亲去载与朋友聚餐的大妹知道小妹没有去， 也在后悔着， 为什么小妹没通知她。整个晚餐， 父亲唠叨着小妹不出席， 不用给她送外卖； 大妹埋怨着为什么要妨碍她与朋友的聚餐。 母亲大人只是静静的吃着。 我也只是静静的把眼泪往肚子里吞。 弟妹们开始觉得我的回来时多余的！为了希望他们对待家平客气些， 我对他们忍气吞声， 低声下气， 开始变得不是自己。 （我好恨这样的自己， 为什么我非得这么做呢？
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- 我能做什么呢？告诉父母吗？我能吗？有用吗？
3 comments:
please don't feel this way, may be your sisters are still too young to know or understand what is going on. but also don't blame your parents, honestly, you have leave home for quite a few years, they just want to satisfy for needs but not to please or treat you as a guest. i made a terrible mistakes when i went home last time, because home is a place with house rules that need to obey,1pm lunch, 6pm dinner, must washing dishes right away and blah, blah, blah... we all hate that, i used to have my freedom in the US, and now i am home, you take it away from me. how can it be? i said it loud in a vy harsh way and realize i made a horrible mistake that i shouldn't have so. i have hurt my parents feeling so badly. how little do you know all your parents want is to spend more time with you and bring you out for a good meal, knowing that you might not eat well at m'cca. if u sit down and talk to them, u will realize all they hope is one thing, something that you know from heart.
Thanks Winnie, I din blame my parents, in facts our situation is in the other way round. U are welcome back; i feel like my siblings do not really welcome me. I did talk with my roommie, she mentioned last time her elder sis went oversea, she not welcome her bac also as when she bac, there will be some changes of her life. I think this is what the situation i faced now.
is always like tat 1 la ~ 1st from donno which room to donno which room... from suppose to be ur room.. bcom storeroom.. suppose to be ur bla bla.. becom another bla bla.. but anyway.. if u face those thing.. ~.~ jz get a tilam and go another room sleep lo >.< bo pian
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