Midterm Break Coming

Actually my midterm end on Wednesday, i am supposed to go bac on Wed, and i can be sure i am more than willing to go bac on Wed as i have been stay here for 3 weeks d. However, i stay here for him because he hope to bring me to his grandparents' house before i go bac, so i wait for him since just 2 days later and i can gave him moral support for his midterm on Friday. Lh gave me a very good excuse to stay here when i am hesitating, lh accompany me go shopping on Thurs. This is the second time i shop v her. I still remember last time when i shopped with her, i found out we have different taste, she prefer electronic stuff and im not. So, when she mentioned she wanna shopped for clothes and shoes, i thought something with my ears. Surpringly, we shopped happily that day. Thanks to her, i entered a branded shop which i never noticed this shop and dun even know there is this kind of shop in mp. Thanks to her, i bought a white colar shirt with favourite design which i found quite a long time d and i thought that was just my imagination, no such design will appeared at the market. She rank up my interest to shop. Thanks

3 Days In Pantai Hospital

Day 1

After i received mum's call on Thursday afternoon (28/2) i went to Hospital to visit grandpa, concern about what their needs and guess what grandma need also ( why have to guess instead of just asking them because one things for sure, she will never let you know what she need she don't want to give troubles to anyone), so, i guess she was too rush and forget to bring her sweater and some bread. When i get there, grandpa and grandma was chatting outside of the wad. They are so surprise to see me ther, Why they sat outside of the wad? this is because the wad inside is too cold for them. Har....get it, they did not bring the sweater, i passes them my sweater, they are so glad to have sweater, although my sweater quite small to them, but they did feel warm. Grandma asked for some water as the water at Pantai have some medicine smell, she cant tahan the smell. After went back from the celebration from uncle and aunty (kp's father and mother) i went back to hospital to stay with them, so that i will know what they need right away, i really cant leave them alone there. Day 2 The next morning, grandpa cannot makan since last night, not even a bite and a sip of water. we were told his operation will be held at 10am. It was already 11am yet the nurse havent inform grandpa, i chatted with grandpa, i can see he is quite nervous yet he told me he did not. just feeling cold as i hold his hand, his hand was so cold. i put on a blanket on him. Theni go and ask te nurse in charge, is it because doc busy or grandpa's name left out? The answer is doc havent come out from the opt yet. So we just waiting and waiting. About 11:20am, nurse told grandpa to be ready, grandpa went to the toilet and he take out all his watch, ring and others that will affect the opt system. When he was ready and waiting for the nurse to push him into the opt room, i hold his hand and said 'Grandpa, dun get nervous, everything will be alright and we will waiting for you here, we wont go anywhere', grandpa did not said anything and just nodded his head. Grandma said we just wait for him in the wad, but i knew actually grandma feel like going with grandpa till the opt room, so i asked grandma to accompany me to send grandpa till the opt room. Grandpa was so calm to face the opt, this kind of encouragement is hard to find from my inner part. Grandpa enter the opt room at 11:35am. I brought grandma to the canteen to have our lunch, before that i asked is she hungry, she kept deny, but after mum insisted me to bring her for lunch, only that i realized how hungry is my grandma, she finishes her mee soup in 5 min.....omg, im sorry, grandma i did not realized that u r in hunger d. After that , we waited grandpa at the waiting corner, grandma lie on the wall and closed her eyes, i asked her to have a short nap while waiting for grandpa, she refused, she wanted to wait for grandpa. I realized how tired she is and how deep is her love to grandpa. Although this is only an old husband and wife's love, but i understand how hard to maintain the love for ages, THEY DID IT!!! Grandma keep asking how long is this opt was going to be......Finally at about 2:10pm grandpa was pushed to his room, at that time he is conscious, he still can smile at us. although he cant move at all, he told us his legs was so numb, he felt so pain, grandma said he will be more pain after a while. He felt so hungry and thirsty because he's not having any sip of water since last night. After grandma feed him some soft diet, he slept. Grandma asked me to go back and take a rest and even a bath. Before grandpa has a nap, he also ask me to go back rest, im so touched, although he cant speak and in pain at that time, he still concern about me. I have not go back but accompany kp to go for a lunch at the canteen. At about 4pm before i leave the hospital i went to visit them again to see whether grandpa still in pain and is grandma need any food, but out of expectation, both grandpa and grandma was resting. By the time i leave hospital, i met with my friend, xl, she came for medical check up. When i reach apartment, i took a bath and washed my clothes. And i called mum what to buy for grandma's dinner, im sure grandma wouldnt want to have dinner outside, she wanna accompany grandpa. I asked kp to buy pork rice before he came. When i called to grandma, asked her not to makan hospital's food, i will bring the food for her, she told me she has makan, no need so bother. I replied i have bought her the dinner, i dun care i want at least she share if she dun want to makan. When i reached Hospital grandpa just had his dinner, he told me his pain on right face is getting better. I handed the rice for grandma and asked what she makan in canteen just now, because i remember she mentioned the food there expensive and full of aginomoto. Then she smiled at me, and answer actually she did not makan, she just dun wan to bother me. I was like....omg, dear grandma, why u said so, it is not trouble for me at all, you need the food and energy. Then i went makan with kp at Jusco food court as we need to go pay Digi's invoices. About 8pm i reached hospital again, as mum and uncle aunty all said they will come visit grandpa tonight, grandma was so excited, and keep asking me to call them when they will reach and the exact place and so on. I knew she was so excited. She even told everyone her daughters and sons are on their way. In a short while, mum, 2nd uncle and aunty reached, grandpa was so glad to see them although he was still so weak. In 30 mins more, Youngest aunty, 4th uncle's wife, 3rd uncle and 4th uncle's wife-son, Ivan. He is so active, running upside down. But he scare of kp, grandma and grandpa were so delight to chat v them. Ivan keep calling grandpa and grandma, both of them are so happy. The scene was so happiness, i feel so satisfy. At about 10pm smth, they suggested to go for supper, grandma said she wont follow as she has drank enough tonic from 3rd aunty and mum. She said all those is more than enough for her, she might as well accompany grandpa here. Kp and i sat separate car to guide them to mmu corner, they were so surprise to see so many stalls was still open at this hour. They all said mmu students' life is so amazing. About 11pm they all went back home and i went back to Hospital to see grandpa and grandma again. They have slept, i left my scaft there and promised i will come again next morning. Day 3 The next morning (sat morning) i woke up late, i reached hospital at about 10am, i saw grandpa has changed himself to go back today, he looked so energetic but grandma was still sleepy. Grandma said grandpa had 2 cups of milo and breads this morning, then i asked them whether they want to go out for lunch? grandma seem so happy for no need to makan here again. But grandpa seem a bit worry, i told him we no need to walk far one, he can just walk for few seconds only and we got car only that he smile at me. And one thing they worried will eldest uncle reached here when we went out makan? i called him and confirmed with them only that both of them agreed. When i asked nurses permission, they worry we might 'cabut' and refused to let go. I keep it from grandma and grandpa, after confrim with nurses what grandpa can and cannot makan. I insisted to bring them out for lunch. kp drove the car and stopped at the entrance to fetch them, they seem so surprise why car can drove till the entrance. This showed that they have been walk so far away to enter pantai. The person who always drive them here, never stop at the entrance but asked them walked such a distance. OMG!!!! how can this to happen?! I dun want to become this kind of person, i hope i can treat them good as how they treated me all the while. We went "HENG" to majan chicken rice, grandma said she saw this size of chicken ball before in youngest aunty's house, but today is so lucky can have it at the shop. Grandpa really eat a lot, he did not say anything, he just makan and makan, he was so hungry. When he wanted to go washroom, grandma seem so worry, i quickly followed him and waited him outside the washroom. At about 12pm we reached hospital again after makan and grandpa seem tired d. When we reached hospital grandpa has a short nap, and i promised grandma i will bring both of them again to visit malacca. She worry she cant tahan to walk for the whole day, i promised i will go according to their pace. She is so happy to hear that and so hope that day will come soon. At about 2pm uncle came and paid for it and also take the medicine, they leave at 2:10pm, and this time i male sure uncle drove his car at the entrance to fetch them. p/s: hope grandpa get well soon. And hope both grandma and grandpa stay healthy forever and ever.

Continuation of Birthday Celebration

As usual, i went to campus for Security class. However, there was a little early than before, this is all because we have a meeting with Senior, Shu Chien (ms's sister) we need her knowledge about auditing process. after one hour meeting, i went for lunch with lh, sc and m. we went wi for lunch and so sudden kp come and pass me a birthday card before he went to class. Then he keep asking about my friend's stuff. i was like omg......today is m big day wor. can u at least care more about me instead of asking all my friend's stuff?? sc, lh and hy gave me a necklace with treble clef pendent as my birthday present. THANK YOU......

After class i went back to apartment, due to my big day i did not study, i watch anime (although i watched almost everyday, so, that is just an excuse), at this time i received mummy's call that grandpa will admitted to Pantai hospital for a minor operation. After that i called kp to fetch me to Pantai. He said he was kinda busy so he cant make it at that time. About 6pm he called me and told me that he was at wi (no hesitate why he was there because he told me he will have a discussion with friend there) he ask me to go there for a dinner due to the convenience. So i just walked there, surprisingly i saw ly? eh, why ly was there? She told me is accidentally met kp one. so i sat down and chat v her. So suddenly birthday song enter my ears.....when i turn back i saw yj, lj, lh, sc was there holding a birthday and sing birthday song for me.....i was touched i nearly cried but they stop me, i make a wish and blow the candles. we sat down together to have some teas.

" Thank you for celebrating my 22nd Birthday"
From left : Linhui, Huiyin, Siew Chin, me, Lijing, Yj and Luyi

" Here is the Birthday cake prepared by kp Thank You'

" He is the so-called Party Organizer"

" Linhui and i"

" Huiyin and i"

" Luyi and i"

After that, uncle and aunty also celebrate my birthday in the restaurant and give me present. Thank you very much.

Happy 22nd Birthday

Time flies!!!!i have been staying in this world for 22 years d. oh i cant imagine that, i am 22 years old young lady d, im no longer a child who need pamper often from parents, friends.....at this age, some of them even getting married or became parents on their own d, success in their career or even start working hard for the future. Although i am still study, i know i am 'working hard' for my future too. Anyway, Happy Birthday for myself. My first present is his victory in moot competition and be the best auralist. Congrats. p/s: hope lh will over come all circumstances.

Failure

Fail in doing well my exam and also my relationship. Although i know not all the things will go like what has expected, this is what i get to know after entering mmu, but can we at least prevent it? Avoid to do anything that will hurt another party or anyone. For me, i believe in perfect, even though there is some imperfect things happen but i do believe that will be an end, after some incidents or imperfect things happen, our life will become better. However, things just not go as the way we like and we wish. Even though i try to make my or even our life better, but he just want to go against it. All my perfect dreams gone. I cant believe it, i cant accept, Why can he did something against our promise? My heart has break into pieces, and gone follow the wind. Can it be come back again? can it? No trust, no promise, no sincerity, no honesty, no respect.....how can it be back again? Can i live without a heart? But is it better rather than having a broken heart, and as a result the way i see things will be damn pessimistic, what the point then to have a heart back? I skip the class today. my first MA class in new sem, in first week, i never dare to skip class in the first week, but i did today. i just cant attend the class without sunglasses or a mask. I know, rationally i shouldnt skip the class, but no point to force myself while my heart is tearing, crying, yelling.....i did force myself but finally i gave up at the time my dearest friend came to my house, i don't even know how to face anyone. Im sorry, Im really sorry. What is 2008 for me? What is Chinese New Year mean to me? 2008 gave me a disaster that i cant avoid it, not that i dun wan to understand his situation but this is not the first time d. And he did promise me he wont repeat the mistake but he failed to hold this promise. He showed no respect d. And i am the last person to know this incident and even after the thing has happen. obviously he is only informing not looking for any solution since he know he has promised me. The reason he gave is he was in chaos. Ohic, the promises, i forgot to enforce with no exception including chaos situation. This is the thing have to bear with mind who has bf who studied law, everything must make it damn clear, including all possibilities or accidents. Ok, i admit i failed to legalise the promises. It is really a 'new course' for me to learn how to handle a law bf, and after this incidents i know actually he does not really care for this relationship. How failure i am.....

Bad Result!!!

Finally, Gamma 2nd sem result is out. however, i am happy and sad at the same time. the emotion is so complicated. happy because i pass all subject as i am still prepare for the supp actually. i really study for the supp indeed. i studied almost everyday just like i am facing real final now. my parents thought mmu syallabus has change, the final is after the sem break. when friends asked me what plan for holiday, i was just say prepare for the supp. sad because my cgpa dropped. as a result i don't know whether i should happy or sad, is too complicated. i just sit down there and tidy up my complicated emo. what has happening? why my cgpa dropped? is it because i did not really study well? i spend too less time for the final? or is it because im really not good in memorize subjects? and last sem all three subjects are memorize subject, i hate memorizing term. new sem is approaching. emo complicated again, im scare of facing the new sem, scare of facing all new stress. anyway, i still have to face it. so gambate ya. p/s: 3 weeks i did not see Linhui, miss her a lot.

2nd sem Break LASTLY!!!

Finally, after struggling for how many months d.......at least is a freedom time for me, at least i can get a sound sleep and nice food. Actually i hate cup noodles after having it so many days. unlike those sem, this sem seem to be more tougher and harder, more stress also. All three subjects this sem are just like shit for me, OMG, all memorizing subjects....i hate this..... No matter how, is over d. At least i can have my holiday. Where to go during this holiday le? Everyone's school reopen la, uni reopen la, how come our uni just start holiday one? oh, seem like no friend to gather with me. Anyway plan for tonight first, hehe...plan to go for a movie since i have stay in the room for dunno how many days d.....how is dinner? how about Shibaraku Buffet......wow....sound not bad......haha.....imagine again..... Happu Holiday.