worrying~~~

juz receiving the news that i failed to book the venue for cos briefing on instruments.....what? yet i still informed they are even the new members the venue is booked?! i thought once i apply earlier should be no problem....but how now? she just told me....wait for the reply and print out the approve letter will do....so i juz wait and wait till now.......only that she asked me to go and ckeck why havent reply? what la......i go and ckeck juz now.......REJECTED?! what's happening? i feel like crying la......I juz applied for studio b.....all fmd and cits form have to refill ........... so stress la.......am i really suit the post? am i really can learn things instead of mess up the things? i feel so bad la.......juz st start the

1st meeting of cos with a identity of secretary

today is the 1st meeting with all cos hicom. wah, the hicom i informed all arrived, thz. a good sign. thz a lot, guys. after that about 830pm, Kwee Fong and i have another src meeting. so, this is my 1st time to have two meeting straight away. quite tired. sumore i have lots of question to ask Kwee Fong. i know nothing bout all system in mmu. so , i have to ask one by one. luckily she agree to teach me. thz ya. we discuss till midnite. sumore still have a lot of letters to type..... today i met with some housemate, Joanne, Grace. Yuk Teng, Sarah, all of them are foundation, some of them cant speak mandarin, so our conversation was mainly english. haha, that was my opprtunity to learn also. to be frank,i need enviroment to speak english also.

first time have my own blog

wah. just manage to get my own blog. maybe a some of them out there might laugh at me....ya, indeed. i don't know how to blog. after viewing linhui's blog, sou chan's and yichong's. i hope to get my own blog too. this to record my uni life in mmu. hehe......but i can also said that to record my life. hehe....

bad mood

haiz.......a bad news for me today. im get the lowest mark for my presentation among my group, and mayb among the whole class...i wonder....so sad to say that, but it did hurt me badly. why he can be the best presentator yet im the worst presentor? why there is such a big diffeences between us. although i can work rather well (i quite satisfy with 20/20 and 18.5/20 for finance and econ) for my studies. juz dunno why i fail to become a average presentor. i so afraid to talk in front of people. that day aunty, " r u a good public speaker? " i feel so embrassed to answer her frankly. then she stop asking me since that question. today the truth proven what i said that day, the lectuere criticize on my emotion...she said i too nervous till i forgot my line....ya, indeed i am. i admit. however i still appreciate lecturer did not criticize me further more mayb she knew i cant receive any further hurts d. after that, i walked back to ixora with linhui and yj. they seem knew that im not in the mood to say anything. they also keep silent n accompany me back to ixora. i keep telling myself that i shouldnt let this matter to influence my whole day. but to be frank, i still in the bad mood although i did not express to anyone even him. he console me that he will try to train me as a good presentor. i wonder can i be trained? thz linhui, yj and kia ping for accompanying me whenever i need. linhi and yj, i knew i have to management my time properly on my assignment to corporate v u all. i knew i shouldnt behave so childish to remember what mistake people made instead of how good people treat me...i realized im wrong. i shouldnt behave more mature. thz for informing and advising. i will try my best to overcome it. kia ping, thz for accompanying whenever i need. even sometimes i will throw my temper on u when im busy, but u never scold or blame, yet u concern what was happen to make me feel so bad mood. thz for ur understanding and considerate. seriously i feel bad after i throw my temper on u sumore u still concern me after what i did. i will feel guilty and cry. suprisingly after that i will feel better and comfortable. so whenever i feel sad, i would like to meet u up. i knew i will get better after i meet up v u. hehe.....thz, kia ping.

Trinite 2007

" love this photo very much, quite a nice shot"


" outside of the entrance, real ice behind us"

" esther & i"

" lee ying & i, she is so pretty in her dress wor"

"joe n i, this is 1st time i saw her in black dress"

" i met Vincent, he is my senior, graduating soon"

"our signature on the " TEMPTATION" board"

my dear n i attending "TEMPTATION"

wat is Trinite? actually i know nothing about that event. any purposes? i also don't know.

however, all these question i get the answer when i got there. am i going by myself? of course not, kia ping wanna went there. i was disagreed coz the ticket fee is too expensive. due to curious, i agreed to accompany him. before that some of my friends told me that many of them have gone and rent the gown? wat?! rent gown?! why? can't i just wearing a skirt there? i was stucked there, only that i know trinite is a grand event like a ball. so, like others, kia ping accompanied me to rent the gown. i choose a light blue colour gown, with a scaf coz i dare not to wear bare back. he even booked a time with his hair designer to set my hair and make up?! is that too ridicurious?! but i admit my skill on make up is really kindergarten level. about 5pm we went to the hair saloon. they set up a new hair style for me. surprisingly it is the style what i want? are they so pro enough to know what's in my mind?

then bout 7pm something we reached Equatorial Hotel. wow, grand man! so many people there waiting to enter the ball room. but i only interested in their food served. buffet wor.....!! yummy!! i thought i wanna eat alot. in horror, i saw almost all girls have so LITTLE food in their plate?! what? i thought is buffet? can i take more then one plate? oh, my god!! seem like im the minority to eat so much. sumore my gown is too fit for me. i feel so bad. then the event began, we sat quite behind there, really see nothing. so, i asked kia ping to go in front with me. then i found some problems there, i walked slowly on long gown.......what la?! torture me la......!!! then i just stand where i stand till the end of the event. but luckily kia ping is there "papar" me to anywhere. if not im sure fall down and embarassed in front of many of them. he was forced to walk as slow as me also coz he can't left me behind. in the middle of the event, he said he wanna walk away for a while. i wonder where he went, make me stamd there alone like idiot. then i saw him walking towards me. i asked him withe higher pitch of sound......then only he said.......he was intended to go out and bought a bouquet of flowers for me coz he saw someone selling flowers at the entrance when we entered the ball room. only that i feel so guilty,,,,im still accused him for leave me alone like idiot there. oh, my God!! about 10pm the event ends. he feel so upset coz no dancing floor in the trinite as what he expected. for me, this is my 1st time to this grand event, quite a good experience.

mum's bday

today is my dearest mummy's birthday....and it is also the day for me to go back to campus life.....i feel so unwilling to come. when it was the time to go, i hugged mum and whispered 'mum, happy birthday'..... luckily, we cut birthday cake with mum last nite. mum was so surprised and contented. she smile happily the whole nite although it was juz a simply birthday process, my dearest daddy brought all of us for dinner as a celebration too. no wonder mum so happy la. in fact i was the happiest person that nite. that was quite a warmest day for our family. i wanna keep it in my heart forever....thanks a lot ya. thank you for daddy, mummy, sisters and brother being by my side, so that i have the opportunity to enjoy all these. haha.....muackzzz......i love u all.... this morning, i have to go back malacca d....the sweet last nite memories still remain fresh in my mind....when i reached here, totally no mood to do anything....after tat, i skipped my lunch, even though he asked me not to, but i was too moody, i juz wanna be alone.then i took my nap the whole afternoon.i wonder why everytime i come bac malacca, i will feel so moody. i miss my family a lot.....i have to overcome with it , if not i will suffering everytime i go back malacca. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUM...HUG N MUACKZZZ......

My First Romantic Valentine's Day

'i feel so happiness'
'he said the 3 roses mean I LOVE U, and the design of the necklace means that he will protect me always'

'this is the roses from kia ping'

wow.....valentine's day.........

although both of us busying our stuff during the day, but im really looking forward for that moment-im going to have my very 1st valentine's day in my life.

some more when his mum asked us to celebrate with them...he rejected on the spot, then he told his mum that maybe we cant able to celebrate coz he still have meetings to go....ok, i admit i feel a bit upset...however, i understand he put his academy and succeed at the 1st place.....ok, i have to bear with it...but suddenly he called me out before the valentine's day saying that the restaurant manager asked him to order the food 1st...he dunno what i wanna order, so he has to tell me.....only that i realized he is the 1st person in the list....means that he is the 1st person booked for valentine's day?! then i heard the manager reconfirmed with him that he request the seat near the seaside...wow.....what's happening?! i was surprising..i asking him what happen?he said nth.....we compromised make it at 9.30pm coz he has class till 7pm something and it fair meeting at 8pm.

he reached at 9pm, we went sampan bistrol, near klebang or exactly at that place...whatever la, tat's not the main point also. when we reached, the people in charge lead us the way....then he excuse himself...leaving me alone sitting down there like idiot.....suddenly something appeared in front of me.....roses!! then he said HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY....after that he put on the necklace he has bought for me....wow....i was stucked there,i still wondering what's happening...i too surprised till i have nothing to say...stucked there and enjoy what he did for me....then he told me that he has planned for this valentine's day dinner 3 weeks ago....what? during our sem break? he admit that he purposely told his mum maybe we wont celebrate valentine's day.he didnt go for the meeting. he feel shy when entering the florist to book the flower or even to bring the flower among people....he chose the necklace for me himself....he told me that tat's necklace carried some meaning......he will always be by my side whatever happen....he will protect me forever.....and more......i wonder who wont feel touched when hearing someone telling this before him /her.....

then i asked why he choose this place? he said this place is romantic and i havent been here with him before.....he said all he did juz to make me happy n surprise....yup, he success d.i really dunno what to say except saying thank you....

thanks for doing all those for me. i will appreaciate it forever........