Ixora Apartment A-08-03 (4)- LAST NIGHT

My last night at Ixora Apartment A-08-03 (4). Ya, i got all confusing and complicated feel towards all these. I feel so so so so unreluctant to leave here although i used to complaint so much.

May God Bless Forensic Accounting paper

Today is my last paper, our of my expectation, i screwed up my paper. Ya, I screwed up. Why? I wonder, i have no concentration at all, i dun even know what the questions want. I just look into what i saw and read then threw up everything i have in my mind,Just write and write, i feel like i am a machine rather than a thinker. I dunno what i write in my answer sheet, so far i know i just write and write nonsense until second booklet.

My conscious comes to me when the clock pointed to 10.30am, only that i realized one and a half hour left and i still have 3 question remains. What's going on to me? isn't it, i should have at least manage to finish 3 question, cause i know i need one hour for my case study. I know that. How can you imagine the speed for me to answer my question?

So what i can do? i just rush, rush, rush, all i left is half an hour for my case study, i din really make myself understand what question ask me to do, all i did is just write. To be informed, Ms Zauwiyah paper is mainly application paper, if i dun understand it, what i threw out will be ended up nothing / rubbish.

I feel down and depression. I dunno what i can do now. I know i do nothing to help this paper, but i really unable to calm myself down, my heart yelled, soared, and crying for pain. However, i feel numb to be showed all these to my expression. This remind me the time when i was at STPM. I feel the same too. Maybe i have over stress, until i couldnt eat or sleep well.

What can i do now except pad my own shoulder and say 'Is alright! Yen, is alright!'

Final Exam Trimester 3, 2008/2009

It has been a long time since i updated my blog. I was busying with final preparations actually. In facts, it does not progress much as expected. Maybe my determination is not strong enough for preparation or that problem actually lies on my talent? I am really not talent enough for accounting? Or no matter how hardworking i am, i am still a dropout?

I really dunno.

Finally, today is second last paper, Advanced Taxation. This is the paper im kind of interested and invested more effort in compare to other subject, but unfortunately, i did not do well in midterm. However, i trying hard to sway my attention away towards final instead of mourning over that unfortune. So, my last paper will be forensic accounting.

Then why am i here to blog in facts my final still go on? Hah...i dunno also, not that i have well prepared for this subject, just that i just realized time flies and it has been such a long time i did not blog.

As for the 3 papers ahead, accounting theory and strategy i leave it to God as i have done my best, if it still cant work well, what can i do? Third paper, was advanced management accounting, unexpectedly a question which excluded in our syllabus although it is covered before under management accounting 2. Anyway, i have forgot what i learned before. This make me realized how am i going to face my challenges in my up coming training period.

Yamaha Stagea DDK-7

For your information, the organ type for previous post, played by Mr Leon. The model is Yamaha Stagea DDK-7. Here is the information: Stylish & High Performance STAGEA DDK-7 DDK-7 brings a fresh, stylish look to the STAGEA line-up. The sound and versatility is everything you expect from a STAGEA, but the more compact body is easier for set up and de-assembling.

Features Highlight:- • Expand your creative range with the DDK-7 full size 49-key upper keyboard and 61-key lower keyboard. • Freedom to express yourself utilizing Yamaha’s AWM technology and a 4-layer design, the STAGEA’s cutting-edge tone generator lets you combine instruments in ways that until now have been impossible. Be exposed to a wealth of expressive instruments and sound that fits your every image: 415 voices, 274 rhythms, 288 registrations. • Easy to read LCD puts you in direct control. The 6.5 inch color touch-panel display is touch sensitive and allows you direct access to parameter controls from the screen. • Shares registration data with other STAGEA series instruments*. Your registration data can be stored in a flash memory stick or other external media for use by other STAGEA instruments. • The DDK-7 may not be able to reproduct some ELS-01 features.

The STAGEA DDK-7 is packaged with State-of-the-Art Yamaha powered monitor speaker, MSP5 with matching stand and connection cables.

印象麻坡-40周年摄影公会

I found my dream back....that has been lost for quite some time since when i enter mmu. I really lost track with music. In my memories, i know music is in my heart. but somehow, due to lack of time (someone might say is excuse, yes, i do admit that, all blame to my bad time management).

Yesterday, i went back home for dinner by ‘印象麻坡-40周年摄影公会’, my beloved father is one of the committee in the association. This is also the first time i saw my father in tie and balzer, actually not bad lo, i can say. Then my father told me, actually he feel awkward wearing in this suit. No matter how, He looks really nice that day.

'Dad, i'm proud of you actually!'

At that night, was also the night i found my lost dream back. Ya, indeed. There was a organ performers. In facts, i had been bothered by bad mood throught out that dinner. However, everything change when the organ pianist perform on the stage, he catched all my eye sight and attention. For your information, being a piano or keyboard performer was, no is 'IS' my dream. He played 4 songs in 2 session. When he first play the songs, he turn my mood to joy, the songs start to bring me in my own world. (Ya, i can say, i have been in my dream world since yesterday, and it last till today, at least the moment i write the blog here.)

' He is Leon Law, an instructor of music school'

To be frank, i can feel the touching, i burst our tears (of course not in front of others). Ya , i did get touched by his music. I burst our tears is because finally i found my dreams that i actually long lost it since i enter mmu, from that day onwards, i feel so lost and my life was like empty, and i lost my control over my emotion. Now, i found out why. Why my emotion turn out to be so bad and changing faster than weather almost everyday?!

I used to calm myself down with my piano that i leave it alone for such a long time d. My piano used to be my beloved friend who accompany me whenever im happy or sad. Ya, the piano was my soul. I feel lost when i lost piano enthusiasm.

Reality doesn't suit me at all. I choose to stay inside my music world forever and ever.

Movie #5 K-20: Kaijin Niju Menso Den

This movie watched on April 14 with KP.

The trailer mentioned, the K20 robbed rich and helped poor. However, i wonder when i watched this part inside the movie. I wonder when.......

The most funniest part in this movie was when the junior of the famous detective was trapped by Sister and group of children singing in order to delaying the time.

成功转换方法看待困境

我正尝试如何从歇斯底里‘逃生’。对， 是‘逃生’。

昨夜， 一连串的失望， 真心被忽视， 甚至被践踏的感觉， 已经让我不再相信， 不再真心付出了。

• 我真心对待我的妹妹们， 就算我不在家， 可是看见什么他们喜欢的事物， 只要我负担得起， 我都会送他们 （虽然， 这因此拖延了我买新手机的计划， 可是， 我不在乎那一年的拖延）可是， 他们对待我就像我对他们好是理所当然的， 是应该的。 我们的关系到最后还是像陌生人一样， 我永远回家都像在留宿。 临走前， 要把枕头， 被单以及一切我‘留宿’是所拿出来的东西收起来， 差别只是我不用付住宿费， 还有爸妈的护送。‘我回去只是为了我父母’， 这句话是我近几个月来回家的理由。
• 下课了， 心想他的演说准备得怎样？想去探望他。 看见他时， 突然人有三急， 忙着将手里的手提袋交给他， 近2分钟出来后， 他怎么不见了？这时， 惊见他从图书馆出来， 再从图书馆外那个无盖式的架子， 拿出我的手提袋给我， 然后二话不说，从我身边离去！（我刚刚是把我存了1年的积蓄才买的新收机， 我的身份证， 我的驾驶执照， 我的皮包交给一个像在以前式， 购物商场里的事物保管处吗？）

这两者的人， 都不值得我为他们真心付出吗？

对， 因此我歇斯底里了。 我失望了！我后悔了（我记得有人告诉我， 在这事件里， 不要怪为什么别人践踏你的真心；你要怪自己为什么相信他们， 再把真心拿出来给人家有机会践踏）我听明白了这句话。 我也接受这句话的解释。

所以， 与其靠别人安慰， 或在那里歇斯底里， 我擦干了眼泪， 收拾了心情， 把我还在钻牛角尖的心情成功换成什么才是我能控制， 什么才是我该做的事。 结果， 我打开了电脑， 开始我的功课至凌晨。

那种看着清晨的阳光，还有带着成功安抚自己的情绪， 入眠的感觉， 我相信了我自己， 我更爱上了我自己。