Thursday, 15 May 2008

我要叛逆!!!!!!

叛逆!!!你曾经叛逆过吗? 每个人都叛逆过吗? 我相信我还没叛逆过, 印象里我以前的生活都是很循规蹈矩的, 大人们说的什么不好的事情我都会避开, 避免自己受伤, 让自己远离伤害.步我以为一直以来我这么做是对的, 真的. 别人都说人生如戏, 戏如人生, 所以我都看戏, 学习社会上的人生百态. 以为自己学会保护自己, 不让自己受伤, 我的人生回忆里就完美无缺. 第一次, 第一次发现自己是错的. 如果黑色代表受伤, 我的人生是张不完整的图画, 只有白色, 亮色, 开心的颜色, 没有黑色, 认为很好, 对吧? 开始时, 我也是这样认为的,不我待可是当你发现没有了黑色, 原来我的图画不特出, 只是淡淡的素色.原来黑色可以把我的画显得更特别. 大多数人叛逆期在几岁呢? 22岁可以叛逆吗? 我真的觉得我的生活就少了那么点黑色. 我知道过去不是错, 可是那些甜蜜的话, 亲密的称呼, 的确深深刺进我的心里. 当我发现我不该发现的事情, 我后悔主动帮你整理电脑的资料库, 你说都过去了, 你恨, 你不再在意, 可是你却秘密收着你们的回忆. 那些甜蜜的话, 亲密的称呼, 让我失去方向, 后悔莫及. 我明白已经过去了, 但是在现在发现的话, 是真的过去, 还是还有遗情? 她没有接到你的电话, 你就很紧张, 关心她. 我不是说你不对, 对当时的你来说, 是对的. 可是, 现在的你, 不是这样的, 我只是在冲凉, 没接到你的电话, 你马上生气了, 说我故意不接你电话, 到底怎么了. 我以为这是你太紧张我了. 可是, 当我发现, 原来以前你对她, 是那么的用心, 关心. 到底为什么? 你说过当时的你也是很专一的. 是我不接受心理的答案, 还是我相信你能给我更好的回答. 你说她不专一, 可是你对她这么的好; 我对你不够专一吗? 那, 为什么你对我总是缺乏耐心呢? 我就那么不值得你用心吗? p/s: 考试后才叛逆吧!

2 comments:

jackmarine said...

gosh untill today u still don believe my love for u. i don know wat i have in my com thats about my past but for sure if i knew it i would have deleted it. my past is a painfull experience for me and i don wan to remember it I DONT i have deleted everything that i know thats related to my past. ok maybe i left out something but i have completely no idea about it.

don compare my past me and the me now. i am diff just the 1 thing is that when i love someone i use my all heart. i have leave my past and i go on with my life without any memories of my past. CANT U C THAT ? i love u and everyone arounds me know that

u know when my frien ask me the question will i marry u? my answer is YES. the only difference between our relationship and real husband and wife is just a marriage certificate which i am working hard to get it.

tell me, how can i marry u if i havent leave my past completely? and i am telling u this i can marry u anytime if i wan now just that i do not have the monoey for our wedding ceremony and thats it.

i hope ur rational enough to know wat ur doing. i cant accept betrayal and u know that especially when ur my WIFE. i cant accept that kind of disaster in my life.

P/S: MY LOVE FOR U IS AS DEEP AS ANY OCEAN IN THE WORLD AS HIGH AS ANY SKY CAN REACH AS HARD AS ANY HARDEST THING THAT CAN EXIST I LOVE U

LuYi said...

yen yen.. erm.. ppl change thru times... sometime this changes include attitude... i am not sure how long ur bf has break up wif his ex.. but after falling out of love.. definitely 1 will change.